Kissed An Angel

34th week and maybe not counting

2011-08-12T00:06:00.001+08:00

am writing this post on the bed at the hospital.

been in and out from ward since i was at week 32 due to hypertension. 1st day puasa dah kena admit sebab bp rocketing high - 160 over 90++ rasanya. macam serah diri bulat-bulat je. dengan tak bawak baju etc, datang for the monthly checkup - ended 4 hari warded. sampai hari yg ke 11 ni, still tak puasa, sebab kena sumbat ubat. mampos la aku nak ganti puasa.

On the 4th August, doctor bagi balik with a week mc and a letter confirming that i may not be able to come in for work until delivery. Kisahnya aku dah kena preeclampsia. Shit - i have a name for the damn high bp now!! rasa kalau high bp tu, alaaa lepak la, ko stress bp naik kan, ini dah jadik penyakit la plak. Pastu dah ada uric acid ke apa ntah dalam urine. part ni aku tak tau sangat. belum sempat google.

Dapat la 'cuti' seminggu mengangkang kat rumah. merasa la jadik mem besar. tapi penat jugak la. bulan puasa la kan. mata ni asyik memberat je makan ubat, tapi kena la bawak bawak bangun sahut bagi bapaknya makan, bangunkan anak anak sekolah. itu pun memanjang terlajak je anak aku sebab maknya pakat tido lepas masak sahur.

So hari ni, check up lagi. rasa cam mentally dah ok dah. sekali ambik ko, protein in urine dah 4+. aku pun tak tahu la apa kah maknanya. harus kejab lagi aku google. elok-elok boleh kuar lepak kat rumah sambil tunggu beranak, hambik ko, masuk balik ward. adeiii sengal aku dibuatnya.

to make it worst, masa memula tu kenkonon by week 36 nak bawak kuar baby, sekali dah macam ni, doktor sound, tak boleh tunggu, harus kuarnya like the latest on monday. aku dok pikir nak buat bila. monday ke esok je. sama je gamaknya. aku tunggu sampai monday pun, bukan nya ada big difference pun kan. hehhe bil hospital ada la differentnya. rabak dah laki aku. dah la hari tu admit 4 hari dah rm1000++. ni lagi 4hari ntah brp pulak, belum lagi charges beranak - yg confirm confirm c-sec. belum lagi charges baby. hahahhahaha tak pe la ke kekanda, ambik ko merasa anak last ni menanggung.

oh yes, this maybe our last one. tak tercapai la cita-cita aku nak anak 5.doktor rekomen untuk ikat sebab likelihood the same illness serang time pregnancy is really high. aku pun rasa at the age of penghujung 33 ni, nak beranak apa lagi. so if confirm c-sec, aku ikat aje la.

harus takde gambar apa-apa. niat hati nak cam whore ngan pressie baru, tapi dah kata warded mengejut, kamera pun ntah mana aku letak aku tak hingat. ni pump pun belum basuh, baju baby pun aku bajet dobi aje la ni. semua dah tak sempat. sib baik ada kenkawan. jamu n bengkung pun kenkawan yg belikan. aku main maybank2u je duit kat korang.

tak tau nak story apa lagi. aku harap aku branak esok. dapat slot time. memula doktor nak kasi baranak senin. aku paksa paksa hari jumaat esok gak. dapat jumaat, laki aku la kero -terkesima rasa tak ready. suh aku tukar senin. aku dah tukar senin, siap kena sound ngan nurse dah - jangan tukar tukar, sekali malam tadi pukul 10 baru dia datang visit aku dia kata ok la pulak hari jumaat. hish, tebal dah muka aku nak mintak sembelih esok. nampak naa banyak songeh.

hari ni agaknya hari bangla/pakistan sedunia beranak kot. dah 3 orang beranak kat ward recovery ni semua orang ni. pastu jerit terlolong lak tu. aku rasa cam nak lempang sorang-sorang. tau la sakit, tapi jangan la sampai sebatu jauh menjerit. langsung naik darah aku dengar dia menjerit.

ok ok. better stop now. kang tak cukup naik lagi darah aku. nurse ni pun asyik usha aku suh tido. tak sedar aku dah naik majal ni asyik tido je. haram betul.

harap dapat beranak esok la. tak larat dah dok dalam ward. cau cin cau...

early pressie

2011-07-30T16:23:00.000+08:00

Aku ni memang jenis meminta minta. I feel that thats my right. Nak beli, belikan, taknak beli, aku beli sendiri. Boleh?

So come birthday aku yg ke 30an ni...eceeewaaahhh...aku nak camera. I want a small simple camera. Ada la camera cabuk family punya tu, tapi balik balik aku on semua pic kerja laki aku je. potong stim betul.

So memandangkan besday aku nanti time time nak branak..and silap haribulan, kena induce, harus la aku mintak sekarang kang.

so 25 july haritu, alang-alang dah mc, laki aku tarik pi low yat. tak tau la mahal ke idak, aku apa benda lebih rm200 aku rasa mahal dah.ada camera rega rm50 mau aku beli kalau pun gedabak boleh buat kojol baling anjing.

untuk paknya, terima kasih wokey. ni ambik pic yg ditangkap dari kamera hadiah u bagi ni..

of a short vacay and circumcision..Yes you read it right!

2011-07-26T16:20:00.000+08:00

We went to PD last week. A short 2d1n stay at residence desa lagoon. Sangat la best nye since the place was like a small island just for us. Practically not a single soul around - ok thats pushing it too far..ada la 4 5 orang at the pool but we basically conquered the place.

Kids were playing at jacuzi pool sampai main tabur tabur bunga cas mandi bunga. Dont know where they get the idea. The hubbies cas budak kecik main water gun lawan with the kids at the shallow end of the pool - mak jadik dugong sebab too heavy to move. well..not dugong exactly, lebih kepada whale yang mati terdampar di tepi pantai. Yup..that would be a more correct description.

Went there at about 11.30 after breakfast and Alesha's Parent-Teacher Day. Shes done superbly good. Semua ok except 1 -2 math questions and some of confusion about kata nama khas.

Arrived at about 1. check in lepak lepak mandi pool. No picture taken. tak kuasa nak membawa kamera n the toys. yg sememangnya wajib 1 bakul besar whenever g beach. Very very nice weather and sea condition. Anak-anak yg takut ombak sampai boleh berani lepak skali ngan mak/pak yg bergumbira berborak tgk laut. Air cetek time tu la katakan.

Sampai rumah Ahad at about malam tu. Dengan alesha kena cirit birit sikit salah makan apa ntah.

the next day i was on MC. bebudak tu pun gerak-gerak suh pi sekolah cam batu masing-masing. Langsung la ponteng sekolah 1 hari.

Petangnya lepak lepak kat rumah i switched on Burlesque. You know the story la - girls in slinky kinky clothing dancing here and there. Alesha and azhad tengok siap seronok pay full concentration tuh. Alesha i know la...shes into anything make up dancing and pretty dresses. SO i know she likes watching such movie.

Yang cerita nya ni..si azhad tetiba tengah syok syok tengok the pretty girls grinding and doing all sorts of pole dancing things, cakap..

"mama..tengok kot** azhad ni ma.." sambil membawa keluar the family jewel..

aiyahhhhh..aku rasa cam nak pengsan melihat 'perkembangan'nya. bapak member dah tepuk dahi tengok perangai anak bujang yg tersengih sengih.

So..harus sunat nampak gayanya kan?

panikiyon? ko ado??

2011-07-20T10:48:00.000+08:00

ni yang anak dara aku tulis last week. Dia tulis lama dah. tapi la ni baru aku baca sebab member dok letak dalam beg jahitan manik aku, yg makin sayup aku nampak (mood malas memanik dah mari!!)

So smalam member kena bagi by hand la. aku penah la pikir apa panikiyon tu..ghopenye pedicure !!! dia ngaku yg buat kuku tu kakak tak tau nak tulis camna la mama. Sah sah aku sengau sebut pedicure sampai dia boleh tulis panikiyon as what she heard.

Upload the pic to my fb. Laki aku dah cas aku ngaja anak dara bukan-bukan. elleehhhh apa lagi aktiviti nak buat ngan anak pompuan sendiri kan???

the kids story

2011-07-18T12:14:00.000+08:00

my kids are growing up so fast.

Alesha is nearing 6 and acting like she is already 10! Can u believe it that she actually can cook rice? well..she did not really cook- cook la. she washed the beras and really keen on doing this and that in kitchen. I dont really remember at what age i started to get interested in home chores. Macam tak pernah je!! Harharhar. doing homechores were more of a need then an interest to me. When mak got sick, i just had to do the cooking and cleaning at home. I would rather be in my room reading a book or before the pc main pc games. tapi mak got to eat and takkan hari hari nak makan makanan beli je kan. SO i learn to cook and do things needed to be done at home. Wasnt good and never good at it too.sampai la skarang.

But Alesha is definitely not me. last weekend we went to pasar. Azhad was well being Azhad - complained about the smelly pasar dengan suara yang sangat kuat. Whilst Alesha cool and was really eager to see sayur and ikan. Aku lak yang rimas. So we bought couple of fishes and 4 udang galah. So 1 for each of family member la kan.

Mak dengan semangatnya nak goreng aje la udang galah tu. After all, kang masak beriya gulai kang, anak-anak tak dapat makan. Alesha was ever the eager to help. siap tukar baju and ikat rambut basuh tangan bagai nak help out in the kitchen. So she was tasked with potong misai n kaki udang. no problem la, except the fact kejab kejab tangan bau udang pegang rambut, kejab kejab gosok muka. lantak laaa..

But the kelakar part was, she didnt even eat the udang. hheheh kosannya member geli sebab part basuh taik/otak udang tu dia nampak aku keluarkan segala macam benda kat kepala udang tu. Langsung mati selera.

Azhad pulak...hmmmph ini lagi satu hal. Dulu rasa cam kiut miut sangat la dia ni. la ni adeehhhh tersangat la keras kepala. Not in a bad way, aku suka jugak that he is very determined and strong willed, but if benda yang dia determine sangat tu ialah makan gula-gula n keropok sebagai makanan ruji, tak ke pening ko? He would be very resourceful sampaikan if gula2 tu kat para tinggi, dia akan terhegeh hegeh angkat bangku yg double his side untuk panjat ambik gula2. sama la if nak ipad ke, main game ke..sanggup tu. tak de nak merenggek nangis ke.Haa ko tak bagi, meh sini aku ambik sendiri.

more to tell about azhad, tapi la ni aku sambil-sambil update blog and buat karangan bm untuk opis ni. so idea aku tak keluar sangat.

Later peeps...

macamana nak bagi ilang daaa

2011-07-15T10:55:00.002+08:00

korang nampak tak photobucket icon kat scroll icon yg patut ada cursor mouse tu? alaa yg everytime korang scroll mouse icon tu ikut?

aku sendiri yang letak, aku sendiri dah lupa camna nak buang.

ada sapa tau?

saat yang paling berharga

2011-07-14T11:56:00.008+08:00

kelmarin..
Scenario: kejadian tengah malam terjaga sambil pandang muka alesha.
alesha : " semalam kakak dengar mama cakap i love u alesha razan"
me HATI KEMBANG

Semalam...
Scenario: Azhad tido awal. By the time i got home,dia memang dah tertido sampai pagi. At about 1am, dia tergaru garu kena gigit nyamuk. tetiba dia bangun, alihkan the dad's hand from my side, pulled my hand straight and landed his head on my arm.
me : "i love u azhad"
Azhad: angguk walaupun mata tertutup and continue sleeping
me HATI KEMBANG

thank u GOD. ALHAMDULLILAH.

hambik ko!!

2011-07-13T11:13:00.002+08:00

hahhaha setahun dowh tak blogging.

I do feel the urges to write once in awhile. simply because i need to be reminded of whats happening in my life.

Baru tadi dok baca entry before before - wow anak aku macam tu ke dulu? kenapa sekarang jadik lain? oohh well kids grow up. apa lagi jawapan nye ye dak.

I am 30 weeks pregnant. yeehaaa!!it was purely planned of course. Though i wonder whether it will ever be time yang aku tetiba tak plan mengandung and ngandung plak. Ohh please GOD - tak sanggup ok!!

It is a heavy one this one. Thank God i am not fat FAT, weight is still under control, but again me is being me - yang dah sememangnya gemuk cam tong drum kan. ive gained about say 5 -6 kgs up until now. weight is about 80kgs. so go figure how fat i was pre-pregnancy. :)

A note to self : like i said, it was a purely planned one. Yes we did want to have all babies in December, but alesha is starting standard 1 come 2012, and mak yang sappy and soappy ni tak sanggup tak hantar her to school on her 1st day. Plus dia yg beriya cakap mama teman kakak 5 hari je lepas tu tak payah. Which was really impressive since she was one cry baby when she started her kindy. Nonetheless, told hubby now way im waiting another december baby in 2012, will be too old by then. so if u wanna have another one, lets get on with it.

So here i am, 7 months after, dengan perut yang rasa nak terpecah whenever there is movement. Baby #3 is somewhat different from Alesha n Azhad. I remembered Alesha's movement macam butterfly in stomach gitu. dainty blurping movement in my tummy. Azhad was more agressive with a kick and punches here and there. tapi yang ni...korang tengok tak movie Constantine yang part baby dlm perut heroin tu.Haa lebih kurang ni. im cramping a lot. and when it moves, its like the entire tummy rumbles and mengeras. Macam tak cukup space and the baby is forcing my tummy to accommodate it.

Health wise alhamdullilah baby is doing ok. we did a full scan for the 1st time. giler freak out aku because we didnt have one for the 1st two. and when i googled for it, i got to know full scan is when u know whether u gonna have like health probs baby - sumbing la, jantung probs la, spina bifida etc things like that. Laki mak cool giler sebab he couldnt be bothered pun nak tau apa purpose full scan tu, but when the radiologist (what do u call the expert yg buat ultra sound tu?) bagitau ohh tak sumbing etc, baru cam meloncat. Eh ada possibility ke anak dia sumbing? Haaaa...baru ko tau gabranya aku before scan tu.

Imagine hearing bad news and knowing its your unborn baby? tak ke cam nak tercabut nyawa?

but like i said, alhamdullilah, semua ok. Aku je la yg tak berapa sihat. Will be doing my kencing manis test next week. Darah tinggi tu on off and semanjang on the high side. Im on trundate - ke apa nama ubat darah tinggi tu. tapi aku ni mmg hampeh.tak reti nak makan ubat on daily basis. kejab makan kejab tak makan. camna nak buat tu?hmm tawakal aje lah. dah memang sendiri yg carik penyakit.

Kali ni cam freak out sikit nak beranak. I am seriously considering epi. mak kan ala ala macho beranak 2 orang drug free. Siap refure any drug kan. sekali ambik ko, sakit cam nak tercabut pankreas masa beranak azhad. so la ni cam tengah tergiang giang rasa sakit beranak tu. apakah aku mampu nak tahan kali ni. But im a believer that God will not give u something that u cannot endure. Chet - cakap aje, nanti tunggu beranak aku cerita lagi.

Lain kali cerita lagi. have tonnes of things to write. later later la wokey.

HPV...Did u get it?

2010-08-04T10:47:00.004+08:00

The office has been nice to arrange a talk on cervix cancer to all the female staff.

Inclusive in the talk, was the offer for the 3 jabs of HPV vaccine done at the office. It cost about RM490 paid in instalments.

I took up the offer.

Today was the day for the first jab. not so painful. boleh lah...

HPV...Did u get it?

2010-08-04T10:47:00.001+08:00

OMG !!!! IM BACK

2010-08-03T17:53:00.002+08:00

Yes peeps - i am still alive!!

the long long hiatus was merely a writer block - and a bit of thinking whether i should stick to this blog, or move on to another new blog talking about new things.

as i said in my last post - which was yeah - almost 7 months ago, this year was all about me.

So far, i have replaced 2 compact powders, a tube of mascara, bought 3 shades of blusher, 2 tubes of primer and fixer..tried on purple barbie-styled lens (and sticking with it!) and mostly glasses-free when im out and about. Dear Hubby after sooooo many years with me, finally admitted moi look better without glasses. I am pretty sure he was saying that only because i have smacked lotsa eye make-up to cover my tired panda eyes ; which actually gave him the illusion i have hot smocking eyes *ok - now someone please slap me back to reality!!*

And i am again being real to myself - fashion style of course.I can pretend that im ok with the muslimah get-up - i am vain and i like what i have and still am wearing. So im totally over with jubah and such and sticking to my original outfit and suits my body type the most.

The fight against the bulges is still on. though hubby so dearest has actually scolded me like 'pesal la nak kurus - i tak penah mintak pun ok' - langsung haku sentap wokey - when i humbly (which is not a very often occasion) admitted that baby..i dah tak leh kurus dah..ni le badan wa ok!

so the question now - sapa yg ngada nak kurus? sendiri jawab wokey

Kiddos are doing great. demam sini sana with asthma attack dekat si Azhad. Alesha is getting taller and thinly. pegang tangan pun macam pegang chopstick je gayanya. But she is one cute to be hot chick 1 day. bapak nye dah risau, aku ok aje. let her live her life.

Azhad still as headstrong as ever - if not more. hari hari kena marah sampai i think he will be the death of me - well he is also my pride n joy (too) but his strong personality is a challenge to hubby n me - sampai laki mak takut nak beranakkan mak wokey!!!

All in all life is great - friends are around me , families are still healthy - i couldnt possible ask for more (except bonus BOSS!!!!)

tata peeps,and until the muse to write is here with me again.

new year and new resolution ..again?

2010-01-27T12:07:00.005+08:00

hey peeps,

oohh it is 2010 already? *shivers* time flies!!

havent been writing much, yes i know. but somehow, memang takde idea nak tulis. the happenings in life - of course la banyak kan. but then again, tak terasa nak tulis.

Alesha is off to school like a big girl she is. day 1 and day 2 we were waiting outside her new class. but by the 3rd day, she was ok and in fact insisted that i dropped her by at the main gate, where she walked very confidently to her own class at level 2. Mak beamed with pride tapi so sedeh too coz my baby girl doesnt need me anymore *sob* sob* oh well..life goes on.

She requested for a ballet class this year. have been talking about it since last year infact. tapi im not so confident of letting her stay away more hours at school sebab last year was her 1st year in school. She had her 1st ballet class last week, and couldn't wait to go for the next class -which is every friday. Now demanded we buy her tutu and shoe and the blardy expensive ballet gear la kan. rabak poket mak. Allocation ready dah , but not so confident of purchasing because her 'kakak malu' attitude tu kekadang makes her quit half way. sheesshhhh!! camna nak buat??

Baru masuk 1st month teacher is making notation in her reading book - REVISION AT HOME PLEASE!! nampak naa the momsy tak buat revision. apa la teacher ni. im not pushing her to read pun. so what if her classmates dah sampai book 20 she is still at her book 5? tapi sebab dah teacher remarked like that, me stressed tak tentu pasal. Plus im a bit worry coz she tends to write terbalik. Alesha is correct (she can write her full name) but sometimes 'e' ngadap 'l' and 's' ngadap 'e'. whats the penyakit? dyslexis? (sp.) rasanye tak kot. coz i know some of ur girls are also having the same prob.

nonetheless, mak masih hari hari pakai mantra 'no peer pressure! no peer pressure!' i never believe in pressuring for school excellence. Life is much more than being good in school. lagipun, setakat pandai sampai darjah 6 aje, bila dah masuk secondary ke laut buat apa? Of course im talking from experience!!

Azhad is still the baby me. Mouth is getting cleaver also. Favorite sentences ..'mama niiii...' accompanied with muka n mata yg kerut kerut pissed off giler kenkonon. 'or pweeeaaseee..' if rasa rasa permintaan akan ditolak. He is getting chubbier each day and loves me like nobody in this world. Of course la any son would loves his mother (any daugther too) but he is very expressive with his feelings..definitely my boy la kan. like suddenly mouth-kiss me with 'i youu mama..' read 'i love u mama', or hands on my cheeks and very cheeky smiles with eyes kerut kerut, followed with a big hug.

because of this, we had decided to put on hold the idea of another baby. damn..dah 2 tahun dah pun on hold, when the original plan was to have babies every 2 years. tapi mak is not complaining as this baby-on-hold thing is very much related to my new year resolution.

the vain me decided 2010 is a time for me and me and me. jan 2010 started very shitty ok! but lets not get into that. work wise too depressing. but not an excuse for me not to proced with my new year resolution.

2010 is a time to look GOOD babe! as in bodylicious-make-up-forever-stilettos-allthetimes!! but god knows la berapa lama aku nak continue pakai high heel kan coz mmg dah ada history sakit pinggang if pakai heels. nonetheless, lets see how long this year's resolution last.

until later peeps, wa nak tido dulu. i leave u with my perasan vogue pic ..of course ngan side kicks 2 orang itu kan..tata

JUA, SILA AHH PILIH KAMI..

2009-12-15T18:12:00.004+08:00

AUNTIE JUA, SILA PILIH KELUARGA KAMI KERANA..

Kami ni ibarat keluarga 69. Pak sedara saya baru je umor 6 tahun, walhal abang sedara saya aka cousin saya dah pun nak masuk darjah 4. Itu tak termasuk saya yg dah umor 5 tahun, tahun depan.

saya rasa, bila saya besar nanti, mesti cam terkonpius nak panggey pakcik saya apa.La ni memang la abang sedara saya tu dok jerit jerit Pak Cik Pak Cik kat pak cik saya tu masa main wrestling WWF, tapi gamaknya kok nak mintak rokok sebatang ke bila dah umor 30-an nanti (uisshh idak le saya nak dorang tu merokok hookay) mesti cam awkward je gitew.

Pak cik saya tu pun satu, kekadang tersasul sasul panggil diri sendiri nama dia..(bukannya pakcik cam yang kitaorang panggey)..itu belum lagi dia panggey mama saya auntie. ada ke kakak dia , dia boleh tersasul panggey auntie.

tapi tak kisah apa pun, saya rasa gamba raya kitaorang ni memang paling GLAM skali. rasa cam boleh jadik cover kaset kumpulan rock dulu dulu pulak - ini mak saya la yang kata. Tak pun jadik gambar model susu cap gantung untuk budak budak membesar sihat.

Auntie Jua, saya tahu saya tak cukup syarat - tapi quote mama saya - ada aku kesah??? - kerana sememangnya saya ni datang dari keluarga yang suka GLAM GLAM sebegini.

So Auntie Jua, pilihla foto ni sebab saya rasa saya sefamili sangat vogue gitew..

Ini lah gambar family saya yang sangat vogue itew...

cerita sket pasal pic ni. Ni kat kampung rumah unyang saya. Nampak tak frame kat blakang tu? tu semua gambar lama lama atok/nenek/uncles etc etc mama saya. Saya pun dah tak berapa kenal la diaorang tu. semua cam dah janggut janggut buncit pun ada. yang dah meninggal sah sah la saya tak kenal kan. Rumah ni ala ala rumah tinggal la jugak. Cuma atok saya je yang balik seminggu skali tengok keliling. Chantek kan gamba saya ni!!

salam sayang;
Alesha Razan

p/s: mama saya budget budget takkan menang, so dia paksa letak 2 pic sebab giler glammer yang teramat.

Happy Birthday Abang!!

2009-12-07T10:53:00.004+08:00

Yes..its this lil'kid birthday last Saturday.

Azhad Razan now is officially 2 years old!!

I dont really know what to write. But somehow obligated to write something just to commemorate his big day.

We had a small (small? apa kes nak dekat 30 orang la!!) makan makan with the inlaw. As many of them are not in Malaysia, majlis tu jadik sedang-sedang aje! ok la heks memandangkan maknye pun tak larat nak melayan sangat.

oohh kakak alesha harus ada yea. birthday nyer next week ni.

Thanks to the inlaws yang masak itu ini - mak masak spaghetii je- memang enak enak segalanya.

As tradition for the inlaw, any birthday celebration akan jadik celebration beramai ramai. nama dalam kek harus ada nama semua orang yea. though mak yang satu ni kenkonon nak exclusive anak-anak dia, but what the heck, budak-budak ni lagi suka bila the cuz are around.

malas nak jadik soapy nak flashback ke apa. takde idea nak menulis doink.

Happy birthday Azhad dear. may all your dreams come true

loveless us

2009-11-26T10:32:00.005+08:00

Ive been married for more than 5 years and have been with the same guy for total of close to 15 years. Of course married life has its ups and downs. sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit kata orang. with 2 kids and more we are planning..i am ok with my life now.

but i often wonders about people around me. I have at least 4 friends who are in a loveless marriage. Yes they go about living life like anyone else. they have the occasional sex and good times vacationing and such, but being a friend whom they shared intimate stories - i just dont see love in their eyes anymore.

One outrightly declared so that she is in because of money. not to blame her since we all have loans under shared names. I was even the one who asked her to stay in the relationship when she was talking about divorce and such. Looking at her situation, i couldnt really put the fault on her. His infidelity was the breaking point.

One because of the kids. Well..we all love our kids dont we. but i just dont know how you can go home and stay loyal to a person you are not in love with. i think thats an affair-waiting to happen, but what can i say. at least he is a good father. A good husband - maybe so too, but i really couldnt blame him if he do have an affair one day. I guess, thats what happened after 10 years if u married someone 'because it was the right time' to do so.

One jumped head down into marriage life though i think it was the biggest mistake of his life. and the fact that the wifey is close to 10 years older than him will not be helping at all. Now he is lovey dovey and even expecting first born less than 5 months after being married. 2nd biggest mistake i see coming. But i couldnt be telling him that since kids shouldnt the be problems. They have bring me heavenly joy so far.

But we all know raising a kid (or kids) is not an easy tasked. most couple even fight over matters concerning kid. that will add more pressure to an already 'steaming' condition. I just hope he will be a good husband and a loyal one too.

One is still married though i really dont see the point if both of them are flirting and having relationship with other people. The relationship is a puzzle to me even.

I dont know what i will do if im in such situation. do i expect love or loyalty? could i live with just one or will i just wither and lose all hope?

Will you be in a relationship if u are not in love anymore and remain loyal though you know there is someone out there for you?

make up case

2009-11-12T14:46:00.003+08:00

ada idea tak nak beli make up case yang rupa camna?

semenjak menjak ngengada nak touch up muka ni, giler bersepah ok make up. rasa cam ada yang ilang lak sebab part tu kat beg ni, part yg tu lak kat beg ini, tapi yg paling menyakit hati bila brush aku kemek kemek beg tak cukup panjang nak simpan brush tu.

option no.1..beli something cam ni.

Ni kira standard make casela kan. tapi aku dok pikir-pikir time travelling, ala ala ngengada nak make up muka cam burung merak color color itu ini, mesti laki aku hangin satu badan tak pasal pasal kena tambah satu luggage.tapi if letak kat rumah aje, confirm cam tersusun aje mak bapak berus ntah apa apa dalam beg aku tu kan. tapi dok pikir pikir balik cam tak cukup ke commpartment nak simpan brush tu. kang kemek lagi brush aku

Option no. 2 : standard cam ni lak

Lebih kurang cam yang no. 1 tadi la, tapi ala ala clear gitu, aku boleh la humban semua masuk. brush aku pun dah memang casing..ngan casing casing aku boleh campak dlm tu. tapi isu time nak travel nanti la. kena makan penyepak aku kang. oohh no no no..saya tak leh downsize make up saya time travel yea. kot la laki aku tetiba suh dress up gaya maut..kang ke nyesal tak cukup 'ammunition'.

option 3: ala ala beg komputer cam ni

memang menarik sebab boleh himpap masuk beg besar time travel. tapi aku dokpikir, if aku simpan kat rumah, tak ke serabut atas meja ada beg pc gabak cam ni. pastu lak, tetiba lak aku terasa nak bawak makeup kat opis, tertinggal lak dalam keta, tak pasal pasal keta aku kena pecah orang nak pau beg ni sebab ingat beg komputer. itu yang cakap cerita semua make up aku ilang ok. mau menangis kuar mata darah aku kang..

cam na eh? korang yang perasan vogue tu simpan make up kat mana?

btw: credit kepada owners of the pictures ok.

Oppss Dia dah Kantoi

2009-11-10T17:24:00.003+08:00

oohh baru sekejapan tadi bloghopping..tetiba sangkut lak ngan blog minah ni yang baru aje masuk family aku..ohh sila jangan tanya banyak banyak, sah sah nanti kang aku lak kantoi mengata orang.

Tapi really eh..kalau orang cakap 'cakap malam pandang pandang' (hehe betul ke ni?) cakap dalam blog lagi kena cover. Hmmm ni yg buat aku nak caras entry lama lama tu.

Aku takde la nak blame minah ni coz aku paham la yang dia nak lepas tensi..tapi apa hal kutuk family aku weh!!

FIRST RULE : ko bukan kawen ngan dia aje..KO KAWEN NGAN FAMILY DIA TERMASUK LA SEPUPU SEPAPAT ETC ETC ETC. if rasa rasa nak kawen sendiri, pi kawen lari, balik register, pastu tinggal la kat ulu perlis ke mana..aku rasa cam aku takde la sedara mara ..yang jugak sedara mara laki ko kat sana.

SECOND RULE: so what kalau kawen orang sini sana bising. Itu la namanya cabaran. CINTA sampai nak muntah pun if ko tak masuk kan elemen elemen luaran tu, ko takkan tahu tahap cinta ko tu. Masa tu la ko nak test power, betul ke aku ni dah sedia..betul ke budak jantan ni responsible? ini belum lagi cabaran lepas kawen. Ishhh masalah sebelum kawen tu sekelumit aje la. Masalah anak..masalah time..dapat lak anak sakit..uwahhh boleh rasa nak letak kepala dalam pasir ok!!

THIRD RULE: tak de third rule. Aku cuma nak cakap pandai pandai la bawak diri. Dah la ko kawen ngan di antara yg ter kecik in the family, sedar sedar memang ramai la 'PENASIHAT TAK RASMI'. rasa rasa tak mau dengar, time masalah jangan lak datang jumpa family. Ini kes lempang pun, nak jumpa aku, kes tangkap polis aku gak..itu belum kes nak pinjam duit lagi. Sendiri mau ingat la.

hmm sapa agaknya sedara mara aku yg baca blog aku?hmm..nasib korang la yea. aku tak jemput sangat pun. if ada yg rasa rasa sentap tu..silala buat blog n kutuk aku cam aku kutuk minah tu. hahhaha

Things that are keeping me sane..

2009-10-28T11:51:00.002+08:00

...ohh abis lagui duit gaji aku bulan ni...

Saya mahu CUCi

2009-10-23T09:42:00.005+08:00

I was only back home yesterday at 2.00 AM for this...........
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.............. and it was REALLY REALLY GOOD!!

Serious people..i dont get paid for writing this up..lagipun apa la sangat my traffic kan. bukan besar na for them to actually nak mempergunakan aku as promo board, but betul..it was a pleasantly suprisingly GOOD.

The props were impressived (to my eyes yg tak pernah tgk PGL - which i heard was even giler hebat) the casts were just lovable, the dancers and choreography were entertaining enough and the songs....ohhh i really think it could sells you know..as a single or compilation.

Ok bit by bit pulak yea..may be a SPOILER for you guys..so be warned..rasa tak mo baca please stop here.

The simple story line goes as the cuci the movie..but for different and BETTER casting for:
CJ -then Erra now Vanida (i think she did it better anyway!!) ,
makcikover inject botox si Ummi Aida - now Adibah Noor (WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY BETTER adibah noor la for sure kan!!!!),
khir rahman ganti ngan that harith iskandar (i think its a so-so la..khir is a good actor too) and..
the dad : dato rahim razali - ramli hassan (who is just oozing with sexiness ok!!!!! - ini lagi sexy dari Capt. Jean Luc Piccard i tell ya!!!!!!!

for a musical, it was really really entertaining - sound wise. I mean..no suara pecah, no sound system problem - semua nya best. Maybe because majority of the cast memang boleh nyanyi but for Abang Kacak Hans kita. I think because semua orang tahu his strong point (definitely his chest) not his voice, so diaorang dah downplay kan all his sing-sing acts. All were given opportunity for solo acts, but for si hans. tapi he still pulled it off sebab ala-ala romance scene ngan vanida, so lagu pun ala ala bisik bisik gitew and no high tone.

vanida's voice was good too. gemersik. I think it wasnt really her voice - eh bukan dia pakai stand in, i think the sounds system yg bikin soara dia dengar cam lunak. high-five to Istana Budaya for that. I was talking to IB's staff, and he told me the lil.mic costs rm30K per piece. not to mention other benda sound proof bagaikan dalam dewan tu.

Aflin..well what can i say about him..despite his memboyot - aku rasa cam nak burst ok!!1 dia tak semput pun.in fact, his voice was as a good as adibah noor - male version. very deep and strong. wayyy mature than his time time ikhlas tapi jauh. macam jazzy pun ada suara dia tu. rasanya with the right songs, boleh jual album mamat ni.

Cik AC is being himself la. the same dance - the CMP U'ALL trademark. tapi still very entertaining. and u couldnt deny his baritone voice tu memang lunak.

oohh and cik Adibah..i think at some point of the play, when she was singing, rasa cam nak bangun menari skali ok!! IT WAS AMAZINGLY GOOD!!! well amazing tu cam tak berapa betul la sebab apa nak amazingnya. dah memang dia tu wellknown for her vocal, tapi it is almost magical la bila dia nyanyi and when she tarik a note, you terus seram sejuk i tell ya!!

BUT THE BEST BEST BEST BEST ACTOR in the entire play if u must ask me..and PLEASE PLEASE JANGAN PITAM OK ..i must say , and i think majority of the audience yesterday would agree..goes to ............ABANG AWIEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! OMG..everything EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM in the play was just right with a dose of OMMPHH!! suara awie jangan cakap la..memang la dah sah sah hebat, and he play the role without being over tau..which really just make him more in the lime light gitew. Whilst AC was bust being the loud kelakar one, aflin was too serious and cik Hans too handsome la kan..awie was always the one on far left or right minding his own business and sometimes doing things just so your eyes would drifted back at him. i dont know whether its intentional or just scripted but he certainly deserved the standing ovation (not to mention teenage-shrieking screams of ABANG AWIEEEE) we were giving him yesterday.

So there peeps..a lil about Cuci the Musical. Grab a ticket if u have the time (and budget) coz i can guarantee u its a hell of screaming and smiling and laughing nite you would be smiling in the morning about - play.

ciao peeps and happy weekend

Tips Membeli Rumah - Jilid 3

2009-10-16T15:54:00.000+08:00

Jilid 3 sudah tiba - kepada yang ternanti-nanti ...wooo hold your horses down!! kuang kuang kuang

ok..kita sekarang telah berjaya recci bank untuk the highest market value. So sekarang boleh proceed suruh salesman bank process application. Di antara benda yang wajib dia mintak ialah booking resit. Booking resit yang WAJIB anda collect ini selalunya takkan ada S&P price. Cuma bagitau lot n berapa booking fees u dah bayar. Bagi dia ni.

Developer pulak akan sentap sentap suruh anda sign S&P.JANGAN SIGN. standard praktis, anda kena sign S&P within 14 days after bayar booking fees. DELAYKAN!!! Confirmkan yang bank dah keluar letter of offer dan DAPATKAN SEBOLEH MUNGKIN HARGA NON BUMI IN YOUR S&P.

Bila dah keluar letter of offer and the terms are agreeable, u now can proceed with the signing of S&P. Oleh kerana takde dokumen mana-mana yang noted your original price, harus WAJIB and sahih (i couldnt impress more) that when u sign your S&P, make sure u bagi a letter quoting StaffName/Date/Your correspondences yang menyatakan harga original rumah itu adalah RMX dan S&P hanyalah bagi tujuan pinjaman bank or kos renovasi etc etc. SIMPAN SURAT INI DAN MAKE SURE ADA ACKNOWLEDGMENT FROM THE DEVELOPER OK!!!

TIPS SELINGAN: LAWYERS FOR S&P LAIN NGAN LAWYERS BANK. MINTAK DISKON AND ASK TO SEE THE BILL BEFORE U SIGN S&P!!MINTAK DISKON BEFORE SIGN S&P. LAWYER AKAN KATA TAK BOLEH DISKON, TAPI CAKAP, BAGI I DISKON ON YOUR DISBURSEMENT I.E. PHONE CHARGES, CORRESPONDENCES, PHOTOSTATE CHARGES AND WHAT NOT.its basically stated in the last para of your very longgggg bill. hehehe

Lepas sign S&P, u will be required to bayar 10% deposit. If you can, pay only the difference sum between your original price and your booking fees+loan. Kalau dia kata sistem suh jugak bayar that 10%, if u have money boleh aje bayar TAPI MAKE SURE U TAKE THE RESIT AND WRITE A LETTER SAYING THAT THE DEVELOPER HAS TO REFUND RMxx TO YOU BEING THE EXCESS OF YOUR PURCHASE PRICE. MINTAK ACKNOWLEDGEMENT AND SIMPAN SURAT TU SAMPAI MATI. wahh exxagerate pulak mak. tapi u get my point la.

Risiko nye rm tu mungkin dapat dalam lagi 6 months, tapi if u can wait, why not. Kalau tak, santak la developer tu hari hari mintak duit ko.

Ok..sekarang korang dah boleh perasan rumah tu korang punya..JANGAN HARAPPPPPPP BEDAH!!!! BELUM LAGIIIIIIIII

step yang kedua ialah untuk kejar bank for your facility agreement. Kejar bank / lawyer bank untuk prepare and finalisekan the transaction. Kenapa? Selagi diaorang ni tak bayar kat developer duit loan tu, selagi tu korang tak dapat kunci umah.
Kunci umah tu perkara kecik la kan..korang pun bukan duk bawah jambatan yang lapar na nak masuk umah baru..tapi yang lagi penting ialah interest dah start run. Sapa nak bayar interest ratus ratus bang? dari bayar interest baik korang guna duit tu beli railing langsir kan?

Ok..sekian aje tip tip dari aku. sapa sapa yg rasa dia mempraktik kan tips aku ni, ingat ingat la nak jemput aku pi house warming ke..kenduri doa selamat ke masuk umah baru ye.baru la murah rezki korang nanti..

so guys..until later..

live your dream..

Tips Membeli Rumah - Jilid 2

2009-10-15T15:07:00.004+08:00

Atas permintaan ramai...hahah ye la tu bedah..saya akan meneruskan post tip Jilid 2 ini sekarang.

Sambungan dari recci bank rate n lock-in period, harus juga anda mindful yang bagi rumah yang dibeli dari developer, loan akan pergi setinggi 90% of S&P Price. Pada yg tak tahu S&P= Sale and Purchase Agreement ye. Ada jugak bank yg bagi lebih,tapi saya tulis yg resam aje la. so the remaining 10% harusla anda bayar sendiri. samada pakai duit dalam bank anda (atau bank anak-anak) atau duit laki anda sendiri yang kaya raya. Tapi usah khuatir..itu boleh direimburse oleh KWSP - sekiranya ini rumah pertama anda.

tapi lets not go to payment deposit yet. Kita belum sampai stage itu lagi ye. baru aje start nak recci bank. Letter of Offer dari bank pun belum dapat yea. Ikut stage yang dinyatakan ok.

Ok..bila dah confirm S&P and eligiblity anda bagai..mintak loan selama yg boleh. Kenapa saya cakap begitu? Nampak naa aku ni suka berhutang. Bukan apa. period yg lama bermakna instalment nyer pun sikit. Ai..lama sangat nanti interest pun banyak!! Tanya si polan tu..Iye..memang la..tapi anda baca tak Jilid 1 yang cakap tips beli rumah untuk orang tak berapa banyak RM?? Haa..yang pastinya dengan monthly instalment sikit, anda akan ada lebih duit untuk saving. Sekiranya ada lebih saving, makanya bila dah banyak saving, buleh juga anda bayar untuk prinsipal sum (sekiranya conventional - MAKE SURE BILA LUMP SUM PAYMENT DIBUAT ANDA ISSUE WRITTEN INSTRUCTION FOR PRINSIPAL PAYMENT!!) dan mempercepatkan pembayaran hutang sekiranya ianya islamic financing.

TIPS SELINGAN: LUMP SUM PAYMENT AKAN TIED NGAN LOCK-IN PERIOD ANDA. U MAY BE CHARGED A PENALTY FOR LUMP SUM PAYMENT IF YOUR LOCK-IN PERIOD HASNT EXPIRED. PLEASE READ LETTER OF OFFER PARTICULAR THE FINE PRINTS.

jangan risau the fact anda berhutang pinjaman rumah. Kerana MRTA atau insurance akan cover sekiranya anda mati sebelum sempat bayar hutang dan menjadi harta pusaka anak-anak anda. proses tukar nama anda yg dah jadik makanan cacing kepada anak menantu or suami anda yang mungkin akan kahwin lain selepas abis edah tu kira topik lain yea. Bila rajin aku post bebila.

Bagi mereka yang membeli rumah SIAP DENGAN CF daripada developer pula..harus ingat konsep margin of financing telah bertukar.Instead of mendapat 90% financing dari bank berdasarkan harga S&P, financing akan diberi berdasarkan harga pasaran semasa. Developer pada peringkat ini, tidak lagi menjual rumah tersebut pada harga asal pembeli awal, tapi akan mark-up like no body bussiness la - especially if kawasan anda tu dah maju or memang upper class. Confirm confirm rega S&P anda akan menjunam naik RM50K -Rm100K.

MALANGNYA, harga pasaran most definitely AKAN LEBIH RENDAH dari harga jualan developer tu. So bila ini terjadi,maknanya anda bukan akan kena top-up 10% deposit aje, tapi kekadang 20% or 30% of the shortfall. Uwaaa mana cukup kan? Itu belum masuk renovation cost.walaupun writer ni tak de duit, tapi cita cita nak wet -dry kitchen ala IKEA's kitchen masih kental tersemat di sanubari.

Therefore, pay attention to what im gonna write after this.

when u prepare your documents,make sure u prepare in at least 6 copies. Apply to all 6 or more banks and STRESSsed that u want to know the market value before they process your application. 3 -4 banks will definitely quote you the lower value..tapi some salesman (if u are lucky)will try hard to seal the deal dengan berusaha lebih keras sikit dalam mendapatkan value yang lebih tinggi for u.

dalam masa yang same, u also have to write to developer to quote the non-bumi price in your S&P. So if both prices (S&P and valuation) are higher than your actual price, u may ended paying less than 10% of deposit or no deposit at all!!

Tapi ingat risiko stamp duty nanti yea. akan lebih sebab bila title dah keluar n nak effect transfer, stamp duty calculation will be based on the S&P Price.

opps...

Tips Membeli Rumah - Jilid 1

2009-10-15T10:19:00.006+08:00

Hari ini saya akan menjadi generous dengan memberitahu tip-tip untuk membeli rumah (terutamanya bagi orang yang tak berapa ada duit - seperti saya). Ohh btw, tips ini hanyalah untuk rumah yg beli dari developer ye. rumah beli dari orang lain atau commonly termed as sub-sale ini tak termasuk dalam tips yang bakal saya berikan ini.

Perkara pertama yang perlu dibuat selepas merecci area/rumah yang anda nak beli ialah membayar duit booking. ofcourse la yea..tak payah la saya go into details cara cara nak merecci umah. itu ikut criteria puan puan la yea.nak dekat ngan sekolah ke,nak dekat ngan umah pak ke. ada padang permainan ke..dekat ngan karaoke centre ke...oppss..

berhubung booking fees..if dengan developer, ada yg ngada-ngada mintak 1% la, 5% la..abaikan saja. yg penting anda bayar. If dia desak..kata ini aja yg saya ada..lepas saya recci bank,baru saya bayar remaining. Selalunya anda bayarlah rm500 or rm1000 - yang mana lepas duit poket waktu tu. MAKE SURE MINTAK RESIT!!!Ini sangat penting untuk step kedua.

Opps sebelum itu, selepas anda recci umah, try call bank sini untuk tanya dokumen apa perlu untuk apply housing loan. Sediakan dokumen semua itu. Little that we know, tak semua orang dokumen in place.Slip gaji 2 bulan lepas lepas ntah mana tak tau letak etc etc. Compile semua dokumen,baru bayar booking fees. Sebab lepas bayar booking fees, its a snowball of actions. Boleh aje slow-melow cam siput babi, tapi rugi lakan..sapa tak mo masuk umah baru cecepat. Dalam masa prepare dokumen bagai, masa tu baru bayar Booking Fees.

Step kedua ialah recci bank. jangan main bedal aje bank yang developer santak kat puan puan yea. walaupun lebih mudah, kadang-kala rate ataupun package yang diberikan tak berapa menyelerakan dalam jangka masa panjang. TAPI PERKARA YANG PALING PENTING = MINTAK ZERO MOVING COST!! Zero moving cost basically means, anda incur minimum sahaja untuk perbelanjaan peguam/processing loan etc etc. Pikir $$$$$ yang berkaitan dengan bank - mana yang boleh diminimisekan, kita minimisekan. perkara sampingan yang anda kena pikir berhubung bank & loan application ialah interest rate dan lock-in period. Interest rate or faedah if islamic loan walaupun secara sapu rata sama je bank ini dengan bank sana, tapi worth to be looked at if korang jenis rm50 pun berkira. tapi if setakat rm100-rm200 monthly tu takde hal kat korang, bedal aje la mana bank pun.

Perkara kedua ialah lock-in period. Lock-in period ialah masa anda ter-tied ngan bank tu. Masa lock-in ni u olls tak leh jual/refinance or buat apa-apa kat property tu tanpa sebarang cas/penalty. Rugi oo tak pasal pasal kena bayar 3% la 5% la tak tentu pasal kat bank. Lock-in period ni tak tentu di antara bank, ada yg 5 ada yang 3. Rate pun berbeza. Kaw-tim ngan salesman bank tu untuk minimise kan lock-in period dalam letter of offer anda. Kalau awal awal dia dah cakap itu standard - persetankan. Mana ada standard. suh dia recommend for minimum lock-in period. JANGAN PERCAYA CAKAP SALESMAN BANK tu. most of the time, dia akan jual package yang menguntungkan bank dengan ayat-ayat yang membuatkan anda rasa anda sangat beruntung ambil loan ngan bank ni.

sambung di jilid 2 ook..sat sat lagi ke nanti aku buat

i miss this

2009-09-28T18:48:00.002+08:00

azhad had finally wean-off. in fact tak de hunger-pang or teringin-teringin dah. but boy being boy (or so ive been told) hobinye adalah meraba raba ok. kadang kadang tengah malam mata lelap pun boleh meraba. sometimes (most of the times) he will pretend mama nak acu and senyum senyum kambing sambil landing kepala dia kat dada. mak okaje, cuma takut kena ngap ngan gigi dia yg dah cam cendawan kala lepas hujan tu.

but despite all that, i really miss this

haiiii bila lagi nak beranak kecik ni..

SOALAN MENCABAR MINDA

2009-09-28T18:29:00.003+08:00

oohh puan puan, saya telah mendapat satu soalan kejang perut dari anak dara saya itu.
soalannya berbunyi : mama, Allah tingal mana?

tak terkedu ke aku nak jawab. tapi sebab mam memang carik makan ngan mulut,makanyajawaban yg tak berapa menjawab soalan mak
berbunyi: Allah tinggal dalam hati kita.

so guys, what would you answer be to your 4 yrs old??

cubaan ..

2009-09-24T17:44:00.006+08:00

ini adalah cubaan untuk meletak phototink ini disini:

Photo Tinks by WiddlyTinks.com

tak tau jadikkeidak...cik yan boleh letak tutorial tak part ni?lagi bagus if tutorialnak bagi permanent bendalah ni kat belah kiri/kanan blog ni..

ya ampunn

/wah sungguh bagak yg kat side bar ni. gimana mau bagi kecikyea?

kisah raya 2009

2009-09-24T16:33:00.003+08:00

alaaahaiii..masih lagi takde mood nak memblog. keypad la cam taik kucing buat hal spacebar kekadang tak mo jalan. key v pulak kena tekan cam nak tekan kueh samprit kuar dari acuan la pulak... tensi aku.

apa cerita raya yek?

oppsss...terlupalak..selamat hari raya uollss... of course la zahir dan batin or ZAIMdanPatin bak kata anak aku.waa malasnya den nak tekan backspace bila space bar ni tak jalan.anggap aje la bilaayat aku tu bersambung , maknanya aku tekan spacebar tapi key lahanat ni tak jalan.

ok.cerita raya gue.. sungguh pecah tradisi raya kat kampung aku!! hish seingat aku, last timeaku raya kampung ada la time aku darjah 5. itupun masa arwah wan aku iduplagi. pastu dia passed away time aku darjah 6 jangan harap la nak balik kampung kan. atokaku ada lagi time tu, tapi feeling raya kalau induk dah takde jangan harapla nak ado. nan ado kato orang.

so this raya pakaku semangat nak raya kampung. boleh takaku nakbuat pengakuan?sebenarnya kan aku takmo pun balik kampung!! huhuhu..dokwish laki aku bagi ultimatum takyah raya kampung la. hehhe sah kawan laki aku baca ni dia report kat laki aku ni. lantak ko la. bukan apa..umah kampung tu dah la usang giler ok (ni tahapexaggerate gaban ni) debu debu yang sangat banyak, toilet yang tak menyelerakan, dan tilam tilam yang tak berapa gebu tu.

tapi tak berani lak nak bagi keputusan takmo raya belah aku sebab for the first time since 5 years aku kawen, abang aku semua pakat nak spend the time kat kampung jugak. abang aku tu almaklum aje la. rumah aje sepelaung dr umah pak aku, tapi timeraya, orang dah sudah sembahyang raya baru nakkelibat dia. uwahh sessi ngumpats pulak aku ni kang. ya ampunnn!!

anywayss...laki aku yang sangat baik hati cakap takpe la kita raya kampung since abang pun ada this raya. kesian ayah. baik tak laki aku? memang sungguh tau!!

kitaorang tido kampung malam raya tu.naikkematu tapak kaki aku ok jalan atas simen tak pakai selipar. itu belum bab bau badan yang semerbak. sendiri mau ingat la air kolah yang sejuk ya amat tu. confirmlepas pukul 6 aku tak mandi dah.nak basuh shee shee pun aku pikir 2 kali.

ok la raya kat kampung. tolak bab penat bab idung berhingus,bab azhad merengek sebab idung dia ala ala adik beradik ngan idung 2nd hand mak dia, seronokla sesama family hari raya kan. yang tak bestnye, termisskemeriahan raya kat segambut. family besar beb, confirm raya best giler. by the time nak baliksegambut, orang segambut semua dah kuar beraya kat rumah sedara. tu yang bab tak berapabest tu.

tahun depan adik aku dah kawen dah.hmm gamaknya raya mana lak dia tahun ni. dah sah sah abang aku tahun depan raya kat kedah, if adik aku raya kl, boleh la kasi can cik abang aku tu celebrate raya kat segambut pulak. kesian pulak aku tengok dia tak dapat celebrate ngan family dia pagi raya dah 5 tahun ni. hmmm wajib jadik isteri mithali aku ni.

rasanya yang palinng best raya ni sebab azhad dah pandai menyemat. anak aku bersamping bersongkoksampai petang tau!! giler bangga aku.oppss jangan tanya camna aku buat. tapi memang penat la try nak bagi dia biasa ngan songkok couple of days before raya tu. siap berbuih buih mulut aku puji dia cantek. baruuuuuuu dia nak pakai.

si kakak pulak rambut rebonding hari raya.takde la permanent cuma nya dia dah request nak basuh rambut kat kedai sebelum raya tu. so lunch break jumaat tu pun aku pun bawak la dia gi basuh rambut. blow semua straight la rambut makcik tu.jalan pun kepala dah meneleng je aku tengok.

ok peeps..there goes our raya story. not much la.sama je cam raya korang. masuk raya ke4 aku dah masuk kerja dah. cuti dah abis babe.

so u guys enjoy u remaining raya. have fun driving backto kl or to wherever ur going tata peeps.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA. MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

btw i typed the para above without looking at keyboard.kira aci tak nak test power cam korang. hahaha

bom bom pow

2009-08-28T09:55:00.002+08:00

pelik tak..

yesterday's morn, i hopped in my car, switched on the radio and listened to fergie's yapping..oppss rapping to bom bom pow...

petangnya, i hopped in my car, switched on the radio and listened to fergie's singging the EXACT SAME VERSE in bom bom pow!!

aiyah..hotEFem seriously kena tambah song collection la...

the story on azhad

2009-08-18T11:12:00.002+08:00

i think im at the stage where blogging doesnt excites me anymore - ape ke bengong blogging boleh gumbirakan aku???

anyways..azhad dah wean off since last sat. still cranky crazy especially time nak nite feed. first nite aku rasa the entire flat can hear him meraung nak susu. Giler kesian aku tengok. Not for the lack of trying to re-bf him, but dia dah freak out kot after the traumatised experience minum susu rasa lain. a fren gave this ranting pokok to wean off (ppl use coffee la..jadam la etc). aku pun tenyeh la without any feeling. Wallahh..tetiba azhad tak mau dah.

Masuk the 5th nite, he was still cranky. tapi volume dah kurang sket la. cuma he wanted to be carried bila time feeding tu. I think he is remembering the closeness during feeding. kesian betul.

oohh well...he is a big baby anyhows. mak pun banyak naa masalah kesihatan yg nak dilook after. I just wish he will drink more bottle susu when is around me je.

tag by momharraz

2009-08-10T17:44:00.002+08:00

masih lagi tarak idea. meh buat tag.

1.bila kali terakhir anda cuci toilet?
aiyoo saya memang pemalas expecially bab cuti toilet. saya tak penah cuci la..laki den yoo cuci. tak pun orang yg saya panggey kemas rumah tu cucikan

2.pencuci apa yg anda guna?
Oleh kerana aku tak ambik port belah pencucian ni, makanya produk yg digunakan jugak aku tak tau. semua dlm toilet laki aku

3.dalam 1 minggu berapa kali anda mop lantai? Kenapa?
hahhaha...patut tanya dalam setahun berapa kali..kalau gitu boleh la aku jawab 2 kali kot. tak yah la tanya kenapa yea..jawapan seperti di no. 1

4.apa tugasan anda sebelum menjelang malam?
bagi anak susu laa

5.apa menu hidangan makan malam anda yg paling simple?
Telor goreng, sawi kicap n sambal ikan bilis

6.minuman yg anda buat setiap pagi?
main bedal ikut sedap tekak

7.sebelum tido apa yg anda lakukan?
hahah jangan dengki..memang aku selalu tertido depan tv sambil susu anak.

sekian terima kasih.

idea tarak

2009-07-29T17:31:00.003+08:00

Idea nak memblog langsung tak de.

Azhad tetiba kena diagnose asthmatic. On monday, balik dari kerja berdesut jantung aku tengok dia dah napas pendek pendek. Nak pergi klinik pakar dah malam. Tried jugak ventolin nebulizer tapi tak berapa lega. cranky giler, tido pun prop-up atas bantal. Kejab kejab jaga merengek. makan tak nyusu tak makan..asyik nak dukung.

The next day langsung aku gerak pi pakar. siap kena sound ni kira teruk ni..berdesut lagi jantung aku sebab biar anak aku suffer sepanjang malam. Sekali kuar bilik doktor, siap berkepuk kepuk ubat campur inhaler sampai 2. huhuhu rabak mak. tak pe laa...asal anak aku sihat.

Hari ni dah nampak cam ok sikit. laki aku dah gundah gulana dia takde geng nak main bola. harapnyer prevention medicine tu works laa. aminn

my latest project

2009-07-17T15:38:00.000+08:00

THESE ARE MY LATEST BABIES!!!
UNFORTUNATELY (or should i say FORTUNATELY!!) belum sempat posted here dah abis kena beli ngan semua orang.
Prices range from RM6 -RM10 per piece.
Orders are available yea.

hari apa?

2009-07-03T10:10:00.001+08:00

ini hari sabtu....

ini pulak hari ahad..

uwaa melompat la anak aku tengok wayang hari hari..

pray for her

2009-07-01T09:41:00.003+08:00

i have come a long way to accept my condition. truth be told, i have not accepted it nor have i dont anything about it. I am plainly scared. Scared of the possibilities.

I have lumps on my breasts - more prominently on my right breast. i have done ct scan about a year ago and was confirmed of some shaded results on both breasts. The next step is to get it out via surgery so proper diagnosis can be done. My surgeon has reservation on operating on me. AS azhad is still breastfeeding, there is a possibility that the shaded areas on the scan report were my blocked milk duct and operation may caused the milk to seep out from the wound. Scary thought - i am not ready to endure that.

i am also not ready to wean off Azhad. As advised by the doctor, it will be better if the operation be done after i have fully wean him off milk. another excuse for me not to go for the surgery.

but deep down, i know my ultimate reason. I am scared of bad news. I am not ready to fight. I need my strength for the kids and not for this battle. not yet.

For several months i have been gathering strength by reading cancer-survivors blogs. to know more - on what to expect and simply how to survive.

A blogger who writes really well and fights damn hard is again faced with a challenge. Do pray for her ...and for me for more strength and courage.

grrrr

2009-07-01T08:51:00.002+08:00

hari ni masuk kerja pukul 8.12. giler awal. la ni pukul 8.45 aku dah naik boring. semua blog dah abis aku khatam. siut nganga la aku satu hari ni.. ish..Kerja ada tapi semua dah delegate. huang huang huang.
tetiba terlapar nak makan chic chop keluang station la pulak. hmmm

cik yan; barang belum pos lagi laaaa..ada ni atas cabinet aku.

macam macam

2009-06-29T09:04:00.002+08:00

Cerita macam-macam no. 1.

Alesha last week tak mau pergi sekolah. ada la kot 2 hari dia pergi. the entire week tak pergi. macam-macam alasan la..termasuk la kena marah ngan teacher. aku malas nak layan sebab if kena marah pun, memang ada hal la tu.
hari ni pergi sekolah teacher cakap dia nangis last week sebab tak siap homework. lebih kurang sama dengan cerita dia la yg dia kena marah sebab tak siap kerja. Teacher cakap dia tak sempat nak marah anak aku dah melalak tak tentu pasal bila suruh pass up work. Ada kebenaran jugak tu sebab tau perangai melalak anak aku ada possibility dia buat camtu.
Hentam aje la alesha. tak di antar skolah kang serba serbi tak pandai. Academic tu aku tak berapa kisahkan sangat, after all, dia baru 3++ kan. Tapi social skills tu yg aku risau. Minah ni dah la surrounded with her sedara mara..tak reti nak carry herself socially.
Dia dah pandai A - Z and 1- 11. Boleh point the alphabet/number correctly. tapi dok sibuk eksyen nak sebut HBO/StarMovies sampai aku nak tengok tv pun potong stim. Number pandai hanya sampai 11 yea sebab lepas 11 dia jadik sixteen!. Mana dapat pun aku tak tau.

Cerita no 2
Gi tempah baju raya. aku ingat kan aku dah cukup kiasu tempah awal giler. rupannya tempat lain semua dah tak ambik tempahan. uwaaa tergezut aku. tema tahun ni kaler ijau. sungguh la aku tak berapa berkenan. tapi memikir semua warna lain dah try lepas kawen ni (alaa baru 4 kaler jek..kawin pun baru 4 taun) aku on aje la cakap laki aku.

cerita no. 3
Last week cuti sensorang kat umah aku hentam re arrange furniture. nak patah pinggang aku heret kusi meja. tapi ok la jugak in anticipation of raya. naik bosan dah aku tengok rumah aku selebet serabai dikerjakan azhad. bawah kusi bukak bukak pintu je dah nampak ketul ketul toys bawah kusi. aku alihkan kusi lekat dekat dinding. hehhehe..memang still berlambak toys, tapi takde la sakit mata aku nengok toys bawah kusi bila bukak bukak pintu.

cerita no. 4
Laki aku dok war war nak cat rumah raya ni. ada ke nak cat time raya. ilang akal ke? mau tak puasa aku mengecat rumah. tapi aku rasa cam tak berjaya je cadangan nak cat umah ni. tak start start pun planning nyer lagi. nak cat kaler apa je? kaler ijau gak ke? kuang kuang kuang..

yang sepatutnya

2009-06-23T16:14:00.000+08:00

ni yg sepatutnya di pos berbulan bulan dulu.
kepada penerima..sorri la..aku takut tak sempat nak tunggu kaler idaman ko...ko dah meletup. if ni ko tak suka..agak-agak ko pakaila waktu basuh pinggan ke...lipat baju (..dalam gelap ke..) or waktu waktu seangkatan dengannya..

Project Terbaru

2009-06-23T16:13:00.000+08:00

Ini adalah projek terbaru saya...oppss..bukan project membuat anak yea..project membuat apa yg ada di rambut anak saya itu. hahha..saya sangat perasan saya ni art-sy & craft-sy orangnya..

Farah(momharraz):kan aku dah cakap aku nak buat benda ni..berjaya tak?

nak yang ni..dapat dahhh

2009-06-09T16:28:00.000+08:00

ingat tak post aku pasal yang ini?

Sebab aku giler meroyan, aku sudah membeli bukan tiga, bukan empat...tetapi DUA!!!

ya puan puan..saya memang giler beli kasut sama pelbagai warna sampaikan suami saya telah memberikan pandangan menusuk kalbu kepada saya. Ko makanlah kasut getah ko!!!

saya teringin..

2009-06-04T16:11:00.003+08:00

aku teringin jugak nak jadik .5 cam cy3.5. tapi keadaan kat rumah sangatla membebankan kerana budak gigi songel ni suka carik pasal. Aku laki bini rasa cam tak berani nak embark to another level dengan karenah dia.

Lagi satu, aku cam berangan nak beli umah lagi satu. Laki aku dah ok kan house-survey. BUkan house hunting yea. rasa rasa poket rabak aku kensel aje la plan aku tu. Tinggal la umah sedia ada. tak de masalahnya.

Tapi dok dok plan nak house-survey ni aku wonder la..katala aku berkenan rumah tu, mana la gamaknya aku nakk carik deposit bayar rumah tu n renovation.

aku mengconsider untuk:-

1. me up-stem kan current housing loan. Kata loyar fren aku, kita boleh top-up the existing housing loan. So up-stem kan rumah yg ni, the balance buat down payment rumah baru. Tapi mau melecet aku nak membayar dua dua umah yg aku agak-agak dlm 2 riban jugak tu.

2. jual rumah. tapi rumah mana? semua rumah aku suka..uwaaa banyak cantek ko! ingat banyak na rumah ko!! ptuii!! tapi aku rasa jual rumah untuk beli rumah baru bukan idea yg bagus, lebih lagi rumah sedia ada dah ada kat kawasan yg establish. Rumah baru tak tentu lagi kan. sekali jadik cowboy town..mau nyesal aku jual rumah kat kl. mati kerat idung aku tak dapek rega yg aku beli kan

3. mer-morgage kan rumah yg free from encumberance. TAPI CAM SAYANG KAN...elok elok tak yah bayar apa-apa untuk rumah tu tetiba kena bayar pulak. dah lah bayar rumah tu, rumah baru nak kena bayar jugak..hmm

ohhh haku sangat buntu..korang ada idea tak camna nak re-struckture debt aku ni so aku boleh beli rumah lagi..sila jangan cakap personal loan yea, sebab mak memang tak lepas personal loan.

entry syok sendiri

2009-06-02T15:13:00.001+08:00

saya seorang yang sangat vain..

tak percaya..baca ni..

nota kaki: cy 3.5 haku tak post lagi tudung hang. dah gamaknya demand nak color gelap2. sah sah ko tak suka kaler yg aku ada dlm stok cam yg kat wajah ku yg jelita itew..- sila clink link nak tau betapa jelitanye aku

nak yang ni..

2009-06-02T12:14:00.001+08:00

aku nak yang ni

tapi rm cukup cukup je ni...huhuhuhuhu...tergenang genang di benak aku.

Kerana Kasih

2009-06-01T13:50:00.002+08:00

Korang tengok dak cerekarama sabtu lepas. Alaaa..yg si eizlan yusof (giler hot aku rasa dia ni wokeh!!!) ngan si ogy tu?

Memula tengok tu aku ok lagi. Tak tau jalan cerita camna lagi kan.. Si alaa...sapa joyah yg masuk sehati berdansa tu...hmm tak ingat la pulak aku namanya. Kita panggil si bini aje la yea.

Bila si bini dia dok marah marah , aku pun apa la sengal betina ni memang kaki jeles ke..atau curang ke..iya la kan, tak de la aku nak pikir jalan cerita lain kok dah lakonan tu ala ala pompuan baik bertudung baik

Sekali ambik ko!! Bila scene anak-anak dia dah dok panggil papa, pastu si ogy tu dah senyum simpul malu malu..aku mula la panas hati. Mende nye ko ni pompuan sewel!! (bukan dituju kepada ogy, tapi pada characternye tu lah).

Bikin panas lagi aku bila dia kena marah ngan si bini kat opis, boleh nangis nangis tu. Cit!! Huarrgghh..ptuiii!! Aku cakap kat laki aku, kalau saya tu, saya tampar pas tu ludah kahak lagi ada la!!

Apa la ko carik nahas. dah memang ko cari pasal ngan laki orang. tak kisah la dia ada masalah ke ko ada masalah ke. nak kongsi masalah kongsi aje la..aku pun kongsi masalah aku ngan laki orang...(oppss kepada kawan-kawan laki aku, sila jangan report je-masalah yg dikongsi bukan masalah di dalam bilik tido) tapi jangan la sampai KONGSI LAKI..

eeee arrrghh ptuiii (ludah lagi sekali)..siap cakap susah ke nak menagih kasih (ke kongsi kasih?) tak kisah la...memang la tak boleh BEDUL!!!

UWAA aku hangat hati betul la tengok citer tu. tapi mungkinkah nak bagi kita pompuan ni tengok the other side of the story - bak kata kak ipar aku ; citer benar kot...hahahha

tak de maknya nye!!! ko nak semakkan kasih sayang orang pesal!!!!!! tak puas ati betul aku!

Everything about Halal

2009-06-01T09:04:00.002+08:00

I have lotsa questions received in my personal & professional chairs regarding THIS.

Ada yang boleh dijawab, ada yang tak boleh di jawab.

SO for those yang mungkin nak tahu more about it, you can click the link.

Hope it helps clear your doubts.

MY ALL TIMES FAVORITES

2009-05-22T10:08:00.006+08:00

Ini adalah senarai lagu-lagu kesukaan saya yang paling dan paling dan paling saya suka sepanjang masa (...setakat ini)

Careless Whispers (by Wham)

Ini lagu waktu saya kecik kecik. Masa ini tak tau la darjah berapa. Kat mana aku dengar lagu omputih ni pun aku tak tau. Tapi memang aku suka gilerr ok. sampai sekarang. If dok saja saja, lagu ini yg aku dok nyanyi nyanyi.

Apa jenis punya lagu pun aku tak tau. Tak berapa paham aku lyrics je. Cam kisah main curang ngan kawan baik je. Kot ye la gamaknya yea.

All i wanna do ...(by Heart)

seperti yang aku cakap dalam post before this. Killer song. I think it is not much on the lyrics, on the melody. Apa apa, lagu maksiat oii....

Halo (by Beyonce)

Uhhh....goosebumps. Aku rasa cam kelemasan dalam asmara cinta renungan mata mamat dlm videoclimps ni. *goosebumps* again. Serious, if i ever want to fall in love, i want to fall in love like this. Nah! AMbik Ko!!! *sepak muka sendiri bagi sedar* Anak dah 2 la ngok. nak fall in love mende!!!

Terlalu Istimewa - Adibah Noor

Lagu ni Adibah Noor nyanyikan. Masa ni aku tgh preggie Alesha. I remembered still aku tgh tengok citer apa tu....ala..yang Hani Watcha!!! tu. So ada la kuar video clip terkini. Fresh from oven la kiranya. Aku siap tengok sambil nangis-nangis lagu ni. Apa ke sengal. Sila salahkan hormon mengandung ye tuan puan

izinkan Ku Pergi - Kaer

Ive heard this song before. Tapi tak berapa pay attention sampai aku baca posting Mrs D. Then i really take a long pause to take a closer look at the lyric. Whenever i feel out of love, i will listen to this song. Pang!! Penampar lagi sedas!! tapi betul wooo..lagi lebih appreciative akan loved ones kita.

oohh itu sahaja yang saya boleh ingat setakat ni.

harus aku youtube lagu ni semua sekarang. ciao peeps

Sanguine Melancholy

2009-05-22T10:01:00.001+08:00

saya pun buat jugak..

ini adalah saya..

Sanguine Melancholy

all i wanna do...

2009-05-22T09:43:00.006+08:00

i was trying to sleep last nite when out of nowhere this song popped in my head - only the 1st 2 lines of the chorus that is. I couldn't get it out of my head and the first thing i did this morning when i was in was to google for the song.

Oh Boy!!!

I didnt know the lyrics were such!! Grrrr...giler traumatised when i understood it now. Ye la kan...after all, i was still in primary school when the song was out. i didnt even know what 'made love' was. kuakuakua.. STILL ..IT IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE ALL TIMES SONGS

so enjoy ( i even post the one with the lyrics for you!!)

p/s: mati la orang keliling aku dok dengar lagu ni sepanjang hari..hahha

Something in May

2009-05-22T09:12:00.002+08:00

i got this good reading from my boss. and you know i am a self-proclaimed racist kan..u would know where i stand.

Have a good reading u ollss

Kena menyesal ke?

2009-05-15T11:08:00.003+08:00

Tidak lama lagi anniversary saya yg ke - 5

Hari tu, adalah aku dok jek jek laki den tu pasal i-pod. hehhe..kenkonon nak la iphone tu untuk hadiah aku.. laki aku diam je

past aku jek jek pulak N-Series...hehheh...manala tau..kot dapek kalau budgetnye aku kurang kan..still dia diam. tapi dia sok sek la pasal rega hp itu hp ini dalam N-Series tu. Maknanya, dia recki la kan..

pastu semalam aku cakap aku nak sunglasses yg ada power. Kenkonon nak pakai spek mata itam. Mak yg rabun ni wajib la kena bagi power kan lens tu. sah sah aestik aku tinggi tak leh pakai lens. Laki aku angguk angguk tanya berapa rm? aku cakap rm600 jeee...

Wahh...boleh ko percaya? laki aku dan dan cakap nanti dia bagi duit..

adakah ini bermakna budget spek aku sangat rendah dibandingkan dengan apa yg telah dia plan yang membuatkan dia agree dengan serta merta??

uWaaa...aku rasa cam aku nak kena menyesal aje mintak spek!!!!!!!

Perkara Yang Tidak Berapa Saya Banggakan

2009-05-15T10:20:00.002+08:00

As a mom, ada 2 - 3 benda yang aku bangga sebab aku rasa dengan implementkan benda semua tu, aku ni termasuk la dalam lingkungan mak-mak yg bagus. (ececececec).. tapi ada jugak benda-benda yang aku dah terbuat (..dan masih buat) yang aku rasa haprak giler...apa la sengal aku ni..tapi STILL aku buat jugak.

perkara-perkara berikut adalah:-

1. menakutkan anak aku dengan kata dia akan mimpi hantu gigit dia bila dia tak mau gi kencing n wash up before tido. hehhe...mak tau tak nak bagi alasan apa nyah...anak dara aku tu ketegak if bab bab dia rasa dia tak yah buat ni.

2. mencubit n menampar di bahagian muka - aku memang cam kepantangan sket bab bab cubit n tampar muka ni. Aku rasa cam kejam amat buat gitu. Tapi bila amarah sedang melanda..kenapa buat benda 2 ni je yang paling rasa puas? uwaaa angin meroyan mak dah datang la ni. tahap penderaan kanak kanak aku ni.

3. bagi anak aku makan can/tin food - ececece aku dok rasa benda benda tu cam tak elok. pre-processed food kan. tapi apa la sengal aku tuang gak sos spaghetti tu banyak-banyak siap buat stok lagi simpan dlmpeti ais bagi bebudak ni makan every weekend. tak berkhasiat la ngok!!

4. biar bebudak dok tak pakai car seat - kekadang aku cam merelakan je diaorang ni dok tak pakai car seat. ape la sengal aku ni.

5. tidak mengosok gigi - heheh....ada boleh aku lupa nak suruh dia gosok gigi? doink!!!

cukup cukup la dok kutuk diri sendiri ekkss...hehehe

i love u

2009-05-14T14:36:00.005+08:00

anak bujang saya...

Saya rasa saya jarang bercerita tentang Azhad. Kenapa ya? hmmm agaknya memang trend sejak dari perut lagi kot. sebab seingat saya, masa saya mengandungkan Azhad, memang saya tak berapa suka bercerita tentang kandungan (cerita la jugak yea..tapi tak sehebat waktu zaman Alesha). Saya lagi suka layan perasaan syok sendiri sambil usap perut.

Bila azhad dah besar ni pun, saya rasa posting saya lebih banyak tentang Alesha. ahh kesian anak teruna saya. harus ada cerita pasal Azhad, nanti saya sendiri boleh membaca dan teringat kisah lampau.

Azhad orang yang:-

sangat cheeky and very playful. Kadang-kadang azhad jatuhkan barang dengan this look on his face and cecepat lari lepas jatuhkan barang tu sambil ketawa terkekek.

pandai main - Azhad pandai main kejar-kejar, pandai main cak cak, pandai main kuda-kuda. Pantang orang ramai, Azhad akan ikut sekali. Ada this one time, Azhad jadik tukang kejar cousin yang lain. He purposely rode on his too small kereta sorong untuk kerja orang sambil jerit jerit.

very active - Azhad sangat active dibandingkan kakak. very messy jugak la!! (ini traits ibunya ya, so i am not complaining MUCH). Oleh itu, selalu sangat Azhad kena jerit sebab semakkan rumah and such.

very loving n manja - maybe sebab Azhad bf, Azhad a bit depended dengan saya. He could just come up to me simply to hug and kiss for no reason. Itu belum lagi tiba-tiba dalam duduk dalam pangku sambil letak kepala atas riba.

suka ketawa dan senyum - Azhad is a happy baby most of the times. Senyum ketawa jerit senyum ketawa jerit. saya kadang-kadang turut ketawa tanpa tahu kenapa Azhad ketawa.

Suami saya complain Azhad jadik a bit robust bila saya ada dirumah. ketawa kuat, menangis kuat, terlebih active dan sebagainya. Bila saya tiada, he is just a like a normal kid (really?) yang manageable and easily entertained.

Teori saya merasakan bila berada di samping Azhad, Azhad rasa perlu untuk show-off his skills dan kepandaian. Itulah pasal dia terlebih semuanya.

Tapi kata suami saya..Tidak....Azhad jadik camtu kerana back-up mama yang kuat. (??)

i love u Azhad.

Perangai itu lagi

2009-05-12T16:29:00.001+08:00

Anak saya buat perangai lagi. huhuhu

Pagi ini dengan nada yang sangat tenang dia telah mengatakan.

"Mama tak nak pergi sekolah"

saya dengan tenang pun bertanya:-

" Kenapa?"

Dia lagi tenang dari saya menjawab:

"Tak tahu.tapi kakak memang dah tak nak sekolah dah."

Dari cara percakapannya dan level kematangan anak saya, saya tahu dia memang dah tak mahu ke sekolah..LANGSUNG. bukan hari ini, bukan esok atau bila dia mengantuk. tapi memang dia tak mahu sekolah.

Saya tidak mahu mentraumakan keadaan telah bangun dan mengosok baju suami saya. Selang beberapa ketika, suami saya telah memanggil saya dan memberitahu perkara ini:-

"Alesha kata dia tak mau sekolah sebab kat situ semua orang cakap cina."

Ohhh sungguh bersalah rasa hati saya mendengar kata-kata itu. Adakah saya tersalah menghantar tadika sehinggakan anak saya merasa sungguh tidak memberansangkan untuk belajar. Adakah saya salah kerana cuba untuk melatih anak saya agar pandai bergaul meskipun dalam keadaan yang bukan kehendaknya?

Hati saya terdetik (dan memang dah terdetik beberapa ketika yang lepas) bahawa dia tak sukakan suasana disekolahnya. Anak saya sangat chatty orangnya. Mungkin kerana bahasa rasmi sekolah itu ialah bahasa english dan bahasa tak berapa rasminya ialah bahasa Mandarin, anak saya rasa terpinggir dan bukan dalam element nya. Tapi seringkali waktu saya meninjau ninjau dia di sekolah, terutamanya waktu dia tidak perasan kehadiran saya, saya dapati dia berkawan dengan baik, meskipun ibarat ayam dan itik. Yang lebih membanggakan saya, adakalanya saya lihat dia berbicara di dalam bahasa english di sekolah bersama teman-teman meskipun ianya hanyala sekadar no dan yes.

saya sangat dilema. Terutamanya sekarang ini adalah waktu untuk membayar yuran persekolahan. patutkah saya memberhentikan dia dan menyekolahkan dia di Tadika Kemas atau Tadika yang bahasa rasminya bahasa Melayu, lalu saya dapat menabung yuran yang sepatutnya saya bayar? Atau saya teruskan aje persekolahannya dengan harapan dan pegangan bahawa kanak-kanak adalah seperti sebuah span yang akan menyerap apa sahaja disekelilingnya.

nota kaki: saya baru sahaja membuat laporan parlimen di dalam bahasa melayu. ohh alangkah bersabutnya bahasa melayu ku.

Quiz Or Hadiah Percuma? - DAN PEMENANGNYA

2009-04-29T15:17:00.004+08:00

mengikut resam dan perangai saya yg suka meniru orang, saya pun macam teringin nak menjalankan satu Quiz (dan yg berkaitan dengannya) dengan tujuan memberi hadiah. Tapi bagaimana caranya yea?

1. adakah dengan menganugerahkan hadiah kepada pembaca sesiapa yg hit marked 1888? tapi macamana nak tau siapa kah mika itu?

2. adakah dengan menjalankan kuiz meneka pic?

3. adakah dengan membuat satu kuiz teka kata?

oohhh saya ada idea...sapa yg mencadangkan idea yg bernas untuk menjalankan kuiz akan diberi hadiah.

hadiahnya? hmm...apakah tudung DIY saya memandai? (tak memandai pun nasiblah-aku nak bagi free dah cukup baik)

sila sila lah sebarkan yea...

penghantaran kuiz akan ditutup pada pukul 9.00 mlm hari Khamis 30/4/09.

NAMPAKNYA TIADA SESIAPA YG BERMINAT..TAK PE..TAPI SEPERTI YANG DAH DIJANJI, (DAN SEMEMANGNYA SAYA ADA TUDUNG EXTRA) SAYA RASA SAYA AKAN BERI KEPADA .............................

cik yan

sila sms kan (jika ada no. saya) atau memberi address dalam ruang komen supaya saya dapat memberi itu tudung kepada anda.

Color apa? saya bedal aje la color apa yg saya ada...if tak match n tak suka..awak buat la apa-apa dengan tudung tu.

ohhh kenapa cik yan? kerana pendapatnya itu mungkin saya akan laksanakan untuk kuiz (sekiranya saya nak buat lagi la) akan datang..

saya tunggu ya cik yan

Cerita Profile

2009-04-16T15:31:00.001+08:00

Tagged by Marisa (oi aku baru pasan ko tag aku..sori la lambat)

1. Letakkan gambar profile anda:

2.Terangkan maksud gambar itu:

gambar Alesha & Azhad. Rasanya Azhad masa ni about 5-6 months kot. Alesha masih lagi mahu go sleeveless (la ni asal jumpa baju takde lengan - SEKSI!!! dengan her rambut yg baru didandan (now she demanded tocang ok!! ikat ponytail tak mau. Kena tocang!! Silap angin mintak 2 tocang...terkial kial mak nak ikat nyah!!)

3.Kenapa pilih gambar itu?

impian aku untuk semua anak dok dlm car seats dlm keta. Haram!!! Azhad dah besar ni jgn harap nak dok sensorang. bontot tu kalau tak lapik peha aku yg double padded ni tak sedap agaknya. Ni la di antara zaman-zaman anak-anak mendengar kata dok dlm car seat so mak boleh la berangan-berangan (atau tido berdengkur) sementara pak jadik drebar.

1st time i saw you

2009-04-15T16:36:00.004+08:00

Tag by Erna

Rule #1:Letakkan gambar anak yg baru lahir. Gambar kalo boleh mestilah gambar yang masih dalam wad, maknanya gambar anak hari PERTAMA..

1. Alesha Razan

2. Azhad Razan

Rule #2:Letakkan butir ini :

Nama penuh : Alesha Razan

Nama Panggilan : Sha/ShaSha/Kakak

Jantina : Perempuan

Tarikh Lahir : 12 Dec 2005

Tempat Lahir : Damai Melawati Hospital

Berat Lahir : 2.67kg

Cara Kelahiran : Normal with vacuum

Nama penuh : Azhad Razan

Nama Panggilan : Azad

Jantina : Lelaki

Tarikh Lahir : 5 Dec 2007

Tempat Lahir : Pusrawi Jalan Tun Razak

Berat Lahir : 3.49kg

Cara Kelahiran : Normal with gas

Rule #3:apakah harapan korang pada anak ini

untuk terus sayang menyayangi sampai ke anak cicit

dan korang nak anak ini jadi apa besar nanti... dan KENAPA..?
aku just nak anak-anak aku be in a loving relationship -kekal hubungan kekeluargaan walaupun dah beranak pinak, no worries about hutang piutang and sihat wal'afiat. tak kisah apa their daily job coz pada aku yang penting family relationship.

Rule terakhir....

tak de sapa nak di tag...

inikah hasilnya?

2009-04-14T17:19:00.002+08:00

seminggu dua minggu yang lepas, kerja aku mentelaah resume orang...mind you, resume yang aku tengok sampai nak berpinar bijik mata ni bukan calang-calang resume tau..ala-ala profesional la jugak..Jenis manusia yang belajar ke menara gading yang kalau makbapak orang kampung (orang bandar pun sama!) kembang kuncut lubang idung bangga citer anak belajar jurusan apa.

Dipendekkan kata, haram betullah grads la ni..Aku bukanlah cakap tak berkualiti tapi korang tengok contoh ni:-

1. Part skil - ada ke patut skill dia tulis sepak takraw. aku repeat - SEPAK TAKRAW!!!!!!siap ada rating intermediate lagi tu. YA ALLAH...ada aku pedulik ke ko terrer main sepak takraw? kalau ko tulis skil drafting agreement while playing sepak takraw mungkin la aku impres gak...eeee...nak aje aku MENYEPAK KAN budak ni..OPPSSS...bukan budak yea..bapak orang yang umor pun dah 30an..nak pengsan tak??Tapi aku TETAP panggil dia interview. Aku nak menyusahkan masa dia sebab bodoh nak mampos letak skill sepak takraw dlm resume dia. Plus i need to put a face to this stupid person.

2. Part address - tinggal kat seremban...sungguh iya-iya cakap boleh travel. COME ON la kakak!!!!! jangan la nak -mentaik lembujantan-kan aku...sah sah aku tau ko tak leh travel. Bila di press-press kata dia memang biasa travel masa jadik loyar. EH! ingat aku tak tau ke kerja loyar tu camna. Memang la ko syok travel dari seremban ke KL hari hari. Claim masyuk..pastu lak, sampai KL ko merewang gi shopping sini sana baru balik opis. By the time masuk opis dah petang, pastu balik. Tak ke? (ke aku je yang biasa buat cam tu dulu?-haha) Aku tekan lagi...baru la mengaku rupanya tengah pregnant...cehhhhhhhh...nak carik kerja yang office hour la tu. nanti senang balik umah jaga baby.iye dak? Oppss..aku tak racist pada ibu mengandung yea - hanya racist pada yang bukan Melayu aje (dont let me start ok!). Cumanya pada aku if ko nak menemberang - kena la pastikan a. orang yang ko nak temberang tu boleh 'makan' temberang ko, b. ko temberang abis-abisan-stick to your wet thread (hik!) c. make sure jangan kantoi dan membuat kan orang cam aku kata HAH!KANTOI!!!!

3. 2 -3 resume dengan experience yang kencang tapi malangnya part belajar 'incomplete'. Apa maknanya? Tak grad la tuh. Apa ke bodoh tahap gaban korang ni. tak ke 'incomplete' itu menunjukan personality korang yang sebenarnya. Orang tulis belajar law, ko pun nak tulis belajar law..tapi bab CGPA tulis incomplete...adeeeiiii...boleh tak jangan tulis apa-apa kalau ko tak abis course tu.Sungguh nampak bodoh lagi laaaaa. Ok ok aku paham yang maybe say..pak sakit kena jaga pak kat spital, so saya tak abis belaja.Tak kisah laaaaa..walau apa pun reasonnya, if tak complete tak yah la letak. payah na ke nak jual diri sendiri???

4. DAN YANG PALING AKU BENGKEK...tulis speaking/writing English 8-10 rating. Maknanya ko boleh bercakap English dengan jayanya la kan? Tapi bila aku conduct phone interview...HABUKKK!! bukan berabuk cakap..habuk hampagas grammar ke laut mati nun!!! itu belum sangat jelas kemengelupuran nak construct sentence..haarhhhhh jangan la nipu. Aku jentik batang idung tu kang. Tapi aku rasa dia nak tipu - nak impress kenkonon boleh speakang..masalahnya...kalau ko belajar law..WAJIB LA ENGLISH KO 8 -10 KAN?? KAN?? yang paling geram biler grad dari uni yang cas cas ANTARABANGSA (tapi kat malaysia) aje la. Babu jual roti grammar nyer lagi baguih.

ni ada satu set lagi na go thru...*tarik napassss*

Kisah Petang Jumaat

2009-04-13T15:22:00.004+08:00

Di satu petang Jumaat yang dingin (hujan daaaa)

ada seorang budak yang mengantuk....lalu telah tido dengan lenanya....

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kesian ke tidak??????

yUHUUUUU

2009-04-09T18:00:00.002+08:00

aku baru register untuk ini...

ahaksss....tunggu la kehangatan tahi ayam aku...

skali pregnen padan muka aku.

p/s: Cik lola...idea pada hari minggu (preferable sabtu) sangat bernas. tapi kena advance warning yg tersangat advance (say 4 days earlier). Saya onnnnnnn aje...

OU JADIK KE OIIII

2009-04-07T10:29:00.001+08:00

Kepada korang korang semua ...aku seperti biasa dah tertinggal kapal membaca cik lola nyer post bertajuk kuang-kuang-kuang..

sementelaah dengan itu, sila la anggap ini invitation untuk melepak ke OU.

Kalau betul korang nak mai..aku pun cam Cik Noba..WAJIB AMBIK HALF DAY. (cuma tak pasti application diluluskan).

Cumanya kerana status aku yg kejab ada kejab takde, sila la sapa sapa mengoffer kan diri untuk jadik organiser. Mak memang tak daya..nanti buat sakit ati orang je organiser cap ayam.

Lola oi...sila la offer...iskk isk iskk..(mati kena sembelih aku ni)

kuang kuang kuang

2009-04-02T16:36:00.001+08:00

uwaaa..lama mak tak memblog noxs! tak tenteram jiwa raga baca blog orang je tapi tak de ide nak tulis apa..

dengan rasminya aku dah dpt taylor tukang jahit tudung. adakah mak kini tokey besar? uwah!! sungguh mimpi disiang hari. tak kuasa..!!!

anak-anak sihat wal'afit except for si kakak yg masih lagi berirama rap "nak mama kat sekolah" every morning. aku dah sampai dah tak larat nak sawan dengar dia dok "nak mama kat sekolah" masa mandi, "nak mama kat sekolah" masa berak, "nak mama kat sekolah" masa berus gigi,"nak mama kat sekolah"masa dalam keta, dah kat sekolah pun masih "nak mama kat sekolah". eeee sawan barbiedoll aku tau!

azhad anak ku yg terhandsome itu makin handsome. apakah makna? ko ingat anak ko sorang je hansome? tapi ritu aku cakap kat kawan aku ada apa baby tak cute..ni korang ni indenial..cer tengok bebetul. cuma korang tak sampai ati je kan nak cakap terang-terang "giler siut hodoh anak ko". sungguh....

haaa..untuk korang yg nak dating esok..cisss...tak aci tau..aku dah la tak tau kat mana nak park keta kat sana...tak baik tau..mana lak aku nak park limo aku kat situ..ececece....apa pun, rasa kaki aku ringan nak ke sana, akan aku gegar..ewahh...

ciao...nanti aku ada mood, aku write more.

finally

2009-03-20T16:17:00.001+08:00

Finally...

A site untuk aku meng-eksyen-kan ciptaan ku.. kuang kuang kuang...cukup tak tahap riak aku ni.

menuju puncak

2009-03-16T13:41:00.002+08:00

korang dah menuju ke puncak ke belum? hahahhha

aku terglimpsed la itu konsert mingguan. laki den kan peminat tegar bolasepak..so malam tu memang tak de can la aku nak tengok tv cerita lain la kan. Tapi apa pun aku nak komen la..

komen pertama:-

1.. mak bapak dalam dunia ni memang BERSYUKUR N SUKAAAAA anak-anak dia jadik penyanyi ke?
2.. adakah menyanyi je cara nak mengubah hidup?
3.. adakah bebudak ni takde kerja lain melalak depan cermin n test muka rupa cenggitu cenggini atas stage?
4.. adakah aku sewel sebab takde benda lain nak tulis...

heheh..ngeh ngeh ngeh...

and thanks korang yg telah mengawards aku. tapi sepereti yg ko tau (dan dikomen oleh si Fariza..-hampehgas betul- aku ni kejab ada kejab takde dan memang la takde semendang expecially bab bab tag ni..

hahahha..tapi jgn kuatir, aku memang akan carik masa lawat blog korang.

entry kasut

2009-03-12T16:53:00.003+08:00

aku yg tak tahu menahu apa-apa (selepas bloghopping 1 -2 blogs) pun nak letak gak pic kasut aku. Mak memang antu kasut ok. apa ke faedahnya aku pun tak tau.

ni ya lah hasil pengiraian kad kredit yg terbaru...

sesungguhnnya aku CHENTA ngan kasut aku ni..tapi apakan daya...terbesar sket yg langsung tak leh pakai. aku agak if aku belasah gak bedal, jatuh terpelot confirm masuk spital. telah aku qeqahkan dengan rega rm85 kat kenkawan. murah kan? terperanjot berok la kasut cenggini murah gitu. kat kl takde nye nak dapat rega camtu.

yang sandal looking ni aku suka gak. tapi sebab aku ni ala ala sembam terlebih daging gitu, hmmm tengah mengconsider kan untuk me - let - go kan yg ni jugak.

kat rumah tu 9West aku masih lagi terperok. Baru pakai sekali.

kasut bandung ada 2 pasang belum pakai.

croc ada 2 pasang terpeleot kat tepi.

itu tak masuk kasut ntah apa-apa yg beli on whims.

apa cerita la weh? sangap betul la aku ni.

entry tudung..lagi...

2009-03-12T16:41:00.002+08:00

uwaaa...harus aku post pic tudung aku kan? wajibbbb...tak kisah la terpeleot sini sana. wajib tunjuk jugak..hehhe. all of course telah dirembat. tuanpunya now pakai tudung koro je sebab asal jahit je kena rembat. isk isk..

yang beberapa ketul tu takde kuasanya aku nak tangkap pic. letih mak. grrr...

apa cerita korang? aku nak blog hopping ni...hehhe..

Bling

2009-03-02T17:13:00.001+08:00

http://tudungcari.forumotion.com/jom-beli-belah-f3/razan-jv-bling-bling-new-design-code-t85-120.htm#7816

this is what keeping me busy. Sori yea mek mek..saya tak pandai create link nak click click tu. aku copy paste je.

my nick is razan and i am taking order.. hahahah..jgn gelak..40% tau aku dapat. Mau mengerlip baju raya aku tahun ni.

whats up with me.

2009-02-27T09:48:00.007+08:00

I have been super duper bz..

First because of this...Cuti-cuti serumpun. 5 hari. Penat mak cakap slang lain. Cam dah jadik annual trip la pulak ya merasa jadik orang kaya pegang duit juta juta. hahaha

Juga kerana ini...yang si kecik tu demam seminggu. rambut dah ditogelkan. SUnnguh tahap melampau dah kenakalannya selepas rambut togel.tetiba rasa cam tak vogue lak rambut pendek anak aku ni.

Yang tua ni pulak masih mengada. Still dan masih lagi menangis gi skolah pun menambahkan kestressan aku.Pic yg pegang whiteboard tu adalah pic eksyen dia menulis huruf B (yang aku dengar sebutannyer cam bunyi P pun ada D pun ada - confius mak). Juga ada la selit selit pic yg geng geng dia masa cuti ritu.

but mostly because of this...ohh..sila la abaikan muka aku yg glam tak tentu pasal tu yea..Aku perasan nak jadik rozita che wan. Dan juga desk aku yg penuh sampah sarap. .hahaha..BTW: semua tudung telah diborong oleh orang keliling aku..ada berani mau order sama aku?

these are the things that kept me away from blogging. Nanti aku datang seru aku blog lain. ciao

blog tergendala sebentar

2009-02-19T10:20:00.001+08:00

have not been able to update recently.

order tudung has to be completed. feennatttt

Twilight - Spoiler Entry

2009-01-21T09:08:00.001+08:00

WARNING: ENTRY POTONG STIM.

Have u guys watched Twilight?

Sekiranya korang tak tau apa itu twilight, sila abaikan ya. Sekiranya korang tau, sila maklum that i haven't had the opportunity untuk membaca bukunya. In fact, only now i am googling for the book (s?) to know more about it.

As you now (ke?) i am a big fan of vampire books. Kenkonon perasan immortal. Apakah maknanya? Jangan la tanya - aku memang bengong. Come to think about it, waktu jawab fakta rawak ritu, maybe aku boleh cakap aku impikan nak jadik vampire? kuang kuang kuang.

Sila jangan jump the gun. Sekiranya anda membaca cerita vampire zaman kini, you would be very suprised at how they menceritakan asal usul vampire. Gone are the days of Count Dracula with cape and stupid vampire teeth, now its all about macho sexy men who are just irresistable. I am by all means aware that vampires do not exist. Tapi seperti biasa, a working mom with 2 small kids have to find an escape to la la land, and this is the best escape for me (shopping is just too expensive laaaa..)

The Blackdagger brotherhood was great. But the mystical aura tu aku cam geli ketiak pulak nak layan feeling lelebih. There is the Argeneau Novel by lyndsay sands which is very exciting and witty and just yummy. I am not one who spend money to membeli semua. memang cheepo tapi korang pun tau rm tu baik di beli barang anak-anak (or kasut mak yang baru..hehehe) so the alternative is to pinjam ke kenkawan. sorry yea kenkawan yang telah dijahanamkan bukunye itu oleh aku.

Anyhow..i intend to write about Twilight - The Movie. So lets get on with it.

I cannot find any fault with the movie. The casting was great. the story line was interesting enough that makes u wanna read its book. I am more the type who needs to be entertain visually coz mak nyer imagination very limited but twilight is a movie that makes me wanna read its book.

SAYANGNYA...as much as i want to relate and cair (secair memula tengok Titanic dulu) i cant relate with the character. The main and only reason is simply because...aiyahhhh awatnya citer pasai high school kids!!! college kids aku leh perasan lagi, ni high school? grrrr buang karan betul laaa...

Tetapinya citer tu memang menarik. Sila la beli DVD (harapnya yg bukan haram - ehem) kerana script nyer sangat laaaaaaaaaa meruntun jiwa.

"I dont have the strength to stay way from you" - Twilight is as romantic as the then "You got me at hello" - Jerry McGuire.

Just finished reading the reviews online. Hmm..wonder if the author have a story ready when the couple are in their 30s....

DIY TUDUNG - FOR CIK LOVEBABY

2009-01-20T15:10:00.000+08:00

Oleh kerana jari jemari ku yang gemuk gedempul payah naa nak tekan keypad hp aku tu, makanya aku menulis la post ni khas untuk ko..

GUNTING KAIN

aku ada 3 template. 1 template tudung pendek ariani, 1 template hajaba (keduanya beli kat yela) dan 1 template aku buat sendiri yang combination ariani and munawarah (aku suka munawarah sebab dia panjang dan sesuai gi opis)

bila mula jahit, aku hanya gunting part muka dan belah tengah tu. Aku noticed tudung aku senget benget belah bulatan bawah nya tu kerana placement awning aku kekadang tak centre di tudung. So untuk mengelakkan kain aku hancur, makanya ini la yang aku praktiskan. Memang leceh n mengada, tapi sayang ooo kain beli ratus ratus.

JAHIT AWNING

aku gunting awning template aku sendiri. Full cover awning - combination of ariani n hajaba style sebab aku rasa muka aku yang paling vogue dengan awning cenggini.

Aku gunting kertas keras dan gunting kain awning. Pastu aku jahit kertas keras kat tudung awning seperti biasa. Tapi aku jahit mula dari part curve sebab aku boleh cover serabut mati jahit tu bila aku dah letak tudung full tu.

Lepas aku jahit kertas keras kat awning tudung, aku akan tukar setting mesin jahit untuk buat jahit panjang-panjang. Oleh kerana aku malas nak jahit jelujur, aku akan jahit di 3 tempat tudung awning. Jahitan pertama di belah tengah curve. ke 2 dan ke 3 di bahagian antara mula/end curve hinggalah berdekatan dengan tengah curve. Kesemua jahitan ini tidak dimatikan kerana akan ditarik selepas aku jahit tudung full pada awning. (Aku noticed kalau aku jahit mati the tudung awning untuk bentuk curve, THEN jahit lagi sekali pada tudung - jahitan akan nampak keras dan berserabut)

Dah selesai, aku akan ambik pensel jahit tu untuk buat curve awning bagi jahitan cantuman nanti.

CANTUMAN TUDUNG FULL & TUDUNG AWNING

aku akan letak the right side of tudung full di bawah dan the wrong side of tudung awning di atas. Aku akan jarum peniti kan again the 3 spots sama macam yang aku dah jahit jelujur mesin tu. Oppss sebelum terlupa, sila betulkan tempo/dial mesin tu ok.

bila nak mula menjahit, the long side akan di luar, the short side ngadap dlm mesin. Tangan kanan aku kat celah mesin between tiang jarum dan tiang mesin. Untuk bentuk curve yang elok, (selepas menjahanamkan bermeter meter kain) aku noticed right hand kena play a role dengan menarik kain secara curve. Kalau right hand tak betul, makanya curve takkan menjadi dengan elok. Make sure jugak left hand tarik kain tudung full supaya nanti tak bertindan bila buat cantuman tu. Aku selalu make sure dengan merasa ke'smooth'an kain dengan left hand sebelum kain lalu pada jarum. kalau rasa-rasa tebal lain macam je, stop pressing pedal n tarik tarik sikit.

Pasni aku baru hanta jahit tepi belah cantuman awning n tudung full dan juga jahitan belah tengah tudung.

FINISHING TOUCH

Again selepas menjahanam kain yg sangat banyak, aku noticed aku kena jahit belah tengah dulu sebelum jahit tindan belah bulatan muka. so aku akan jahit ni dulu. Bila dah jahit, baru aku akan jahit kemasan tindan bulatan muka. Yang ni aku kena extra careful sebab jahitan akan nampak dek orang. Aku akan tanggal/pasang kotak simpanan barang tu n guna cara nak jahit sleeve bila jahit part bulatan muka ni.

Seterusnya, untuk jahit keliling tudung, dulu aku jahit tepi dan jahit jelujur mesin. tapi huru hara sebab aku tak pandai jahit bulatan dengan baik. So, aku try teknik kelim dgn foot presser. Yang ni aku noticed, kalau aku pakai fine material, dia akan jadik berombak. Ada fesyen yg gini on the market, tapi aku dont quite like the finishing effect. So la ni aku tengah kumpul-kumpulkan tudung yang dah siap so aku boleh anta jahit tepi tudung according to the color of the tudung (as opposed to the normal white/black jahit tepi)

There u go. Cara jahitan tak profesional aku. Sekian terima kasih.

Bad Mama Mode

2009-01-13T08:43:00.002+08:00

I am a bad mother today. My heart is bleeding and there is nothing i can do.

I just left Alesha at her kindy's front gate, where she was dragged out of the car screaming and kicking and crying for me. I am about 50 mtr away from the kindy in my car and i think i can hear her crying out - or is it just imagination.

Good mothers out there - what should i do?

tag dheasya

2009-01-07T14:50:00.006+08:00

The rules: Link to your tagger and post these rules. List 8 random facts about yourself and tag 8 people.

Tukang bagi tag : mamaDhea (aku baru perasan fakta rawak ko ada belah bawah tu - aku kan tgh mc, so mmg ada masa terlebih nak layan tag)

Tagging: takde la - semua orang aku kenal dah buat

Fakta rawak tentang saya

1. Kalau marah sangat aku diam.

2. aku belaja makan ikan sejak kawen ngan laki aku.

3. Aku layan ikan keli penuh perasaan hanya bila mak metua aku masak. Yg beli mesti half way aku terasa geli geleman

4. Aku hanya makan taugeh di kedai tepanyaki.

5. Aku bercinta ngan laki aku sejak umur kitaorang 18 tahun

6. Aku baru tau laki aku berketurunan bawean selepas kawen. Hampeh...sampai la ni aku tak reti nak pronounce some words yg diaorang cakap. Makcik tu rasanya panggel omber ke apa ntah. p/s aku orang mendahiling..so kira fairla aku kawen orang bawean

7. Aku g disco 2 minggu lepas mak aku passed away. Jangan tanya kenapa, tapi aku dulu memang mereng

8. Aku pierced belly button aku - hahahahha..bukan itu aje..aku juga ada 3 lubang di belah atas 3 belah bawah telinga kiri dan 2 lagi lubang belah bawah telinga kanan. TETAPI semua telah aku kambuskan selepas aku kawin. hehehhe

Myself

First name: korang tau dah nama aku

Name you wish you had: aku okey je nama aku. Tapi mak aku penah cakap dia nak namakan aku zailatul ikri - semua siblings aku namanye mula dari Z kecuali aku

What do people normally call your name as: Rai, Radz

Birthday: 16th Sept

Birthplace: KL

Time of birth: 4.05 am

Single or taken: Taken.

Zodiac sign: Virgo

My appearance

How tall are you: 153cm

Wish you were taller: Mustila...takde la aku sengsara pakai platform

Eye color : dark brown

Current hair color: dark brown

Short or Long hair: Short

Ever dye your hair a bizarre color: yeah baby!!

Last time you did something dramatic with you hair: dramatic? nuthing dramatic la. tapi aku memang dah go thru ala jenis fesyen dlm dunia, iron perm, rebonding? digital perm..u name it dude

Glasses or contacts: Glasses.Estik tinggi la dude

Paint your nails: Done this, but not now. aku maleh nak mengcleankan balik

Shy or outgoing: u think?

Sexy or cute: Definitely Sexy. cute overrated

Serious or fun: ngan anak-anak serious la

A turn on: Musky perfume yg laki aku pakai..hahahhaha

A turn off: BO and MO

This or That

Flowers or chocolates: DUA DUA laaaaaa

Pepsi or coke: Coke..pepsi tu gassy sangat la

Rap or rock: Rock

Relationship or one night stand: nak one nite stand..tapi dok sah jangan mengarut la kan

School or work: Dua dua tak suka..dok umah rm masuk hari hari buleh?

Love or money: Money ? hehheheh tak de makna nye.

Movie or music: hmm...movie kot

Country or city: City la..unless its beach area and im with my single frens...ada anak, aku tolak semua, i will pick my own umah. mengawal anak-anak lagi menambahkan tensi aku je

Sunny or rainy days: Rainy days di waktu malam di dalam keta. Aku akan diserang angin romantik yang tak tentu pasal. hahahhah

Friends or family: I need both depending on time

Have youEverlied: mestila

Stole something: hahahhah...

Smoked: hahahhahaha...

Hurt someone close to you: Aku angel ok!!!

Broke someone’s heart: takde la..mak kawen ngan 1st love mak

Wonder what was wrong with you: all the time..

Wish you were prince or princess: tak de maknanya

Like someone who was taken: mana ade. takde masa la pk benda ngarut cam ni la

Shaved your head: long long time agooooooo..when i was a baby hik hik

Used chopstick: mak skolah penuh chinese ok..makan nasi pun buleh

Sang in the mirror to yourself: eeehhh aku tak penah buat ni..tak public speaking depan mirror practise penah

FavouritesFlower: tarak

Candy: gegula cacing perisa coke

Song: semua yg r&b and groovie

Color: Red & Black

Movie: semua yg kelaka

Singer: mak suker ms britney n cik mimi yg sewel.

Junk food: moi suka biscuits laaaaa

Location: la ni kat umah

Animal : as long its soft toy

Ever cried over someone: Yes.

Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself: buleh wish kurus 15 kilos idak?

Do you think you’re attractive: OOHH YEAH BABY!!

If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose: mak realist laaa..lagipun takde masa nak berangan ngarut cam ni

Do you play any sports: kuang lentang...atas katil sambil berkeruh

sekian terima kasih..

DIY TUDUNG

2009-01-07T14:36:00.004+08:00

this is my 3rd batch of DIY Tudung. Aku dah dapat my rhythm and i think i now which awning suits me.

Ni my collection to be sent out for jahit tepi part awningnye. Some aku dah kelim by foot presser and some belum lagi.

Alesha's 1st day at School

2009-01-07T12:34:00.006+08:00

on the way to school.. Muka sangat excited.

dah sampai classroom..properly seated ..(tgh hangat lagi). Mak pak sangatla bangga sebab anak dok diam kat classroom sensoranng.

Assembly session. Nyanyi-nyanyi ntah apa-apa. Keteraburan dan background menjerit jerit dengan volume yang sangat maximum

budak yang tengah pegang teacher tu nangis dari mula aku masuk sampai la aku balik. Mak Pak takde. Bagus betul mak dia tinggalkan cam tu je. (not cynically tau. Aku memang respek mak pak yg keras hati nak bagi anak adjust diri sendiri - sakit ati aku pandang mak yg lebih dari anak siap dok kat kusi sebelah anak..)

Anak aku kat depan sebab dia paling kecik. hehehe. budak tu still nanges lagi..

Balik dari assembly. dah huru hara sedikit. tempat duduk pun orang lain dah duduk. Mode mantain masih ada.

pastu ada playground session. tgh main, the place got too crowded with kids from 2 classes. Alesha got restless n somehow terspot kitaorang yg kat tepi. Ended up tetiba nak susu.

Lepastu tu all hell break loose sampai satu cubitan telah dilepaskan. Cerita ringkas nye, aku ended up IN the classroom with the kids. Buek malu den yooo

Attempt today berjaya sampai pukul 10.00 am je. We'll see tomorrow

anak oh anak

2009-01-05T01:50:00.002+08:00

scene malam jumaat pukul 11.30 malam:

Mak : mana cantek..mama ke mama dlm tv tu (Vanida Imran yea korang - sah-sah la sapa yg lagi cantek kan..
Anak : mama laa..
Mak : ya ke..so dah besar nanti nak jadik cam mama la
Anak : mmm mama cantek ..kakak sayang mama ...banyakkkkkkk (sambil tangan didepakan)
Mak : ya laaa...dah mama cantek, nanti kaka besar rupa cam mama laaa
Anak : kakak nak perut cam papa tak nak perut cam mama..tapi kakak sayang mama banyak...

hahhahah..adoiiiiii...nampak sangat la aku ni dah tahap obese kan? tapi attempt nak cover line itu sangatlah aku puji..

in the spirit of 2009

2009-01-05T01:07:00.005+08:00

happy new year y'all...calendar islam dan calendar masihi yea.

in the spirit of new year..this year we got to see bunga api from our balcony. I think there were from KLCC, dataran ngan mont kiara kot. Been here for 4 years and this was the 1st time KLCC nyer fireworks nampak clear. Did they tukar the venue or budget diaorang lebih sket so they got bigger sparks? ntah la bedah. For sure 4 beranak were there at the balcony, yeah including itu monster susu yg kini suka tahan mata sampai midnite. tension betul aku.

in the spirit of new year..im supposed to write about my resolution kan? aku dah pk dah pun.here goes:-
1. to loose 5 kilos - hahaha..memang tak menaruh harapan aku ni. nasib cukup baik aku tak gain another 5 kilos.5 kilos to be shed away in 12 months..nampak cam achievable je kan..kuang kuang kuang (korang dapat agak tak how cynical my laugh is)
2. to find the vogue-ness in me - hehehe..aku memang dah perasan aku vogue dah (n seksi nak mampos ok!!) but aku tengah carik the look yg sesuai untuk wanita bertudung. hahahha jangan gelak la weh. dah namanya resolusi..suka ati aku la nak resolusi benda yg ntah apa-apa kan. Aku perasan tak ramai wanita bertudung yg berfesyen vogue. kebanyakannya more to mak-cikness vogueness. Aku suka yg ala ala gypsy - tapi sebab badan gemuk pendek ehh..bukan..ala-ala beyonce katik, aku rasa aku tak sesuai la nak kenakan long frilly skirt and frilly big shirt with tudung. Aku juga suka style dress with tight jeans yg flair kat bawah tu. Tapi aku berpendapat, wajib bagi aku untuk mengenakan ala ala wish list platform shoe aku itu untuk this look. Makanya, wajib aku akan pull Miss-Britney-Opps-I-almost-drop-my baby stunt yg lagi haru kerana kali ni tarak opps opps lagi dah...confirm ngan aku aku skali patah gigi. Maybe aku akan cuba lagi look lain. Korang ada idea? Ni untung bagi aku idea tau, mana la tau, aku menggunapakai idea korang...wajib dapat pahala kering korang ni.
3. to mantapkan mana-mana yg terlonggar - hahahha..ni penangan anak 2 normal delivery within 2 years. sendiri mau ingat la kasimmmmmmm
4. to have more time to myself - asalnye aku nak cakap aku nak wean kan si monster tu. tapi aku nak take things slow aku rasa. But definitely to have more time untuk aku bersukaria or membuat benda-benda yg aku nak buat (seperti acara melalak kat bilik gelap ngan kenkawan OR perkara bermanafaat seperti ber -exercise - sah sah korang dapat agak yg mana lagi kerap aku buat kan..hahaha) daripada terkejar-kejar nak jadik susu gantung kat umah sebab susu tak cukup.

in the spirit of new yer...aku nak bagitau aku tak bercadang nak ada anak or in proses mendaptkan anak tahun ni. nak merasa kebebasan babyless. (tapi aku la ni dah dapat angin-angin sepoi sepoi nak carik nama anak next ni. definitely not a good sign kan? mati laaaa)

in the spirit of new year..aku nak buat saving plans untuk anak-anak aku. aku dah terasa aura-aura nak kena gadai itu ini kalau aku tak sedia dari skarang.

last but not least, in the spirit of new year, aku teringin nak jumpa korang..hahahha..Erna..bila nak makan-makan lagi? mak cuti sampai cny ni? kuang-kuang-kuang

tag fid

2008-12-31T20:51:00.004+08:00

Dari Fid (mekasey yea...ada gak orang ingat kat aku huhuhu):

Syarat dan peraturan:
1. Apabila telah terpilih dengan malangnya, silalah menulis 16 perkara paling rawak sama ada tentang fakta, perangai tak senonoh ataupun hala tuju hidup anda.
2. Silalah hasut 16 orang lain untuk melakukan perkara ini - sah sah ni tak mampu buat. Tak terhasut seramai tu la..cyber frens aku kenkorong je laa
3. Sila tanda manusia yang telah menanda anda di peringkat awal - dah tanda dah.tuu atas tu
.4. Ketahuilah, jika anda terpilih ia adalah kerana anda juga manusia biasa yang perlukan perhatian dan kasih sayang yang secukupnya ketika bayi.
Here goes
1. Aku ni sewel sket. Aku suspek aku ada angin meroyan. Ada masa-masa aku akan mengamuk/moody/ overly sensitif. Ni bukan datang bulan tau. Ni meroyan tak tentu pasal sampai penah rasa nak terjun bangunan. Laki aku tak caya..tapi kenkawan aku yg 2 3 kerat tu tau la kenapa bila kenkadang aku kena di'entertain'kan untuk mengelakkan aku ter-royan.
2. Aku ada masalah untuk meneruskan friendship. Cam korang ni kan..aku mesti ter-eksyen kalau jumpa 1st time. tapi aku memang cenggitu. nak warm up tunjuk true kaler slow sket
3. Aku kalau nervous aku akan cakap non stop. Haaa kalau korang jumpa aku 1st time, aku cakap tak tentu hala ntah apa apa siap cakap omputeh lagi, tu maknanya aku nervous/panic
4. Aku suka menari dan perasan aku ada groove.. hahaha.
5. Aku suka heart-2-heart. Tapi takde orang nak layan aku. huhuh so slalu aku heart-2-heart ngan girlfrens aku yg masih single mingle le. Kekadang kalau girls nite out siap boleh mengupas hati dan perassan character movie/story books tu. ntah apa pekdahnya aku pun tak tau.
6. Aku ada short attention span. If buat MCQ masa sekolah dulu, apa ketikanya aku tak baca soklan pun, aku main tick aje. sampai la la ni.Sebab tu aku gagal PTD test. hahaha
7. Aku suka makan. hahahha..obvious giler la kan. apa maknanya aku bagitau benda ni pun aku tak paham.
8. Aku jumpa laki aku masa aku part-time tunggu SPM result. hahahha...dah naik muak dah dia tengok muka aku-aku rasa.
9. Aku suka kawan ngan korang. ececece..walaupun sememangnya aku tak sangat melayan gathering jumpa jumpa party dan sebagainya, gamaknya kalau keta korang rosak depan umah aku dan aku ada umah, boleh la call aku naik umah aku minum air.
10. Aku ada very high self esteem. Aku perasan aku cantek, aku kurus, aku pandai aku la segala-galanya. Tapi sebenarnya la kan, aku rasa aku ni ada very low self esteem. So in order to present myself in public, aku kena la meng-high-kan self esteem aku. make sense tak aku cakap ni?
11. Aku sangat sangat sangat sayang bapak aku. walaupun..ni tak yah citer kat sini la kan.
12. Aku sangat independent. kalau saya ambik rm laki saya pun, saya rasa nak bayar balik. hampeh betul aku ni..Untung ko laki!!
13. Aku malu nak sebut pekerjaan aku dan malu kalau orang cakap ko kan..ehem ehem. ?
14. Aku hanya ada 2 pairs jeans yg aku pakai sekali setahun agaknya sebab suami saya tak suka saya pakai jeans.
15. Aku memang tak suka ber sporting. tapi laki saya sangatlah sporty orangnya. sampaikan dia membelikan saya 3 pasang kasut sport yg berjenama. apa kah maknanya aku ada sampai 3 sneakers tapi tak memakai jeans? paham dak
16.Aku suka projects. Ni aku mentafsirkan sebagai attempt aku untuk curb meroyan aku. So if im busy aku tak melayan perasaan meroyan sangat. ritu aku giler baking. pastu giler manik, la ni tengah giler tudung DIY.

Wokey..sudah cukup kan 16?

Fid..aku raihan yang apa? hehehhehehh ngengada nye haku ini.

home alone

2008-12-29T22:57:00.002+08:00

i am home alone with 2 sleeping kids. One is hanging by his mouth to my chest as if his dear life depends on it. Whilst the other one is hugging my left arm as if my arm is her life support machine. Yes people, i am super woman who can type with only her right hand. Too many days of IRC-ing back in college years i must say!!

Hubby is out with his friend to a massage parlor. Hehhehe bunyi KTV je sebut massage parlor. He is out getting his feet (and and maybe body) massage. Called me while he was doing fish spa and called me again to let me know his massage turn is up. Hehehhe..i bet itu perasaan guilty yang mencengkam sebab moi have to stay home with kids.

But as usual, i am very good at manuevering the kids to sleep. Azhad is pretty simple case of drugging him to sleep. Best drug ever!! hehhehe..susu gantung moi is the best drug to put him to sleep.

Alesha ..well..i dont think she would be sleeping yet but for the little trick i used. heheh bad mama. Its the cat behind you trick!!Simply tunjuk n cakap Sha cat kat belakang.. she was jumping with fright and terselit celah ketiak sampai tertido ketakutan. Its simply ridiculopus since we are in the living room before the tv. Mana la pulak nak datanng cat.hehe. Asalkan menjadi for them to go to sleep. lantaklak.

and Alesha, in case your kids and husband asked u where/how u got your cat phobia, just know that on Saturday 28 December 2008, while u were seating cutely on the 2 chairs papa stacked up for u, di Gerai Kondo tunggu order dinner kita, a cat sneaked up behind u with u realising it only after several seconds. Itu pun after mama terperanjat beruk dengan menjerit sedikit ketakutan yang telah menambahkan ketakutan Sha

u jump i jump

2008-12-28T01:07:00.005+08:00

Aku baru lepas layan U JUMP I JUMP. hahhahha..sorry yea..bukan mak yg tekan remote, laki mak yg ngengada nak layan sementara nak tunggu bola dia on air.

fakta menarik yang aku telah rumuskan selepas menonton kali kedua selepas 10 tahun dengan status terkini bini orang anak 2

1. mende la bodo nak mampos si Rose tuh? takde survival instinct langsung. Demsel in distress sampai aku rasa nak cucuk bijik mata dia mongok sangat.
2. awatnya si jack bangang tu nak hop in skali naik atas plywood tu? lee first time memang la kena adjust adjust sesikit. yg si gemuk kegempul rose mangang tu pulak berat bontot nak gerak. (note: aku tak rasa pun si rose tu gemuk tapi sebab dia tu badan berat nak mampos nak jalan pun kena tarik tarik memang aku sakit hati)
3. kenapa la ko tak lompat awal-awal sambil pegang plywood mana-mana yg ko jumpa. kan senang tak yah nak rebut rebut pastu. macamla boat aje yg boleh terapung atas air. kayu atas dek tu pun buleh buat jadik rakit la sengal!!
4. kenapa la sesapa tak baling je kepala anak kapal ngan memana plywood bagi pengsan diaorang tu yang sibuk dok suh orang calm down ngan pistol. Aku rasa kalau keadaan sebenar memang dah tak terkawal la dek rusuhan kan. (note: aku tau la keadaan sebenarnya memang cenggitu kot sebab dah ada rekod berapa banyak yg mati, tapi gamaknya nampak sangat la tongol orang orang mat saleh dan seangkatan dengannya ni. takde darah mat kilau tu!)

Ada banyak lagi la. tapi aku sepanjang-panjang citer tu asyik ngutuk je. as compared dedulu kala yang rasa uwaaaaa romantiknyaa...pooorahh!!

Laki aku lagi kelaka...siap buat statement..."eeee ngerinya.." and guess when he said that. Masa Rose mode tua jalan pakai nightie. Hahahah memang hampeh laki aku tau. Sakit tempat operation aku gelak.

Moral: U jump I take your Life Jacket la doink!!

The Minah Saleh in Me

2008-12-24T00:42:00.003+08:00

Ni surat aku yang tengah hangin. Apa point post ni? Hahahha..aku cam terkujat je aku leh marah cam omputih. kuikuikui..

22 December 2008

Aku Yang Tgh Geram & sakit

Ntah Apa-apa punya Insurance

Dear Sirs,

Appeal for Reimbursement of Medical Fees

I refer to the above matter.

For your information, I was admitted in Hospital Pusrawi Sdn Bhd (Pusrawi) on 15 December 2008 to undergo an ovarian cycst operation. I had on Friday, 12 December 2008 requested for a Guarantee Letter from MediXX Sdn Bhd (MediXX), to which MediXXX had faxed over a piece of paper I had forwarded to Pusrawi. I am unaware of the content of the letter and the purpose of the letter faxed by MediXXX.

The operation was a success and I was admitted in ward for 4 days until Thursday 19 December 2008. Upon my discharged, I discovered that MediXXX has refused to bear the costs of my operation totaling RM6,277.60. I was then forced to bear the costs as the Doctor in charged had signed off my discharged papers without having prior knowledge of the rejection by MediXXX.

I had immediately contacted one Dr. Andrew from MediXXX to express my dissatisfaction on this issue. Upon my conversation with Dr. Andrew, he informed that he had issued the rejection letter as the description stated by my Doctor was Dermoid Cycst, as in my request for GL faxed on 12 December 2008. He further informed that such cycst was a congenital defect which was not covered by the insurance.

His explanation was a shock to me, as even as layman I know that my condition only occurred during the later term of my third pregnancy (1st pregnancy was a miscarriage) and one month after I had my second baby through my post natal check-up. I have without failed consulted doctors on monthly basis for all my pregnancies where ultra sounds were conducted each time (within the time span of 3 years) and none until my recent pregnancy, I was told of my condition. To be informed that my condition was congenital and not worth the insurance coverage was simply unbelievable.

I believe Dr. Andrew had mistakenly endorsed the GL-Rejection letter without full information of my case. I seriously believe that initiatives should have been taken by this Dr. Andrew or any representative from MediXXX to confirm my situation as he had full 6 days (including weekends) subsequent to my request for GL and prior to my discharge to clarify the matter to me or to my Doctor.

I have then further seek explanation by my Doctor namely Doctor Habibah Abd Ghani of my condition, which she confirmed not a congenital defect. I am neither from the Medical field nor have the basic knowledge to explain my condition, but I believe that my case worth to be assessed again as the initial assessment from MediXXX has been done hastily.

Therefore, I wish to submit my appeal for the medical fees (as enclosed) incurred for the operation to be reimbursed by your good company. I enclosed herewith the supporting letter from Doktor Habibah to reaffirm my condition. Please feel free to call me directly or Doktor Habibah of Pusrawi personally to obtain clear picture of my condition in your assessment of my appeal.

I await a favorable reply from your goodselves.

Thank you.

Nama aku

c.c Office aku

memang jahanam la si andrew tu. Aku memang tak pedulik nak letak nama betul dia. Kot iye ke nama betul. Dia ingat dia tu ala ala Doktor Phil Oprah Winfrey je ke nak go by 1st name aje. Mamposs la ko kat situ.

Komen aku tentang post cik Non

2008-12-20T00:15:00.003+08:00

Sebab aku ni giler glamer, aku pasti-pasti comment aku yang dah terlambat sokmo ni takkan dibaca orang kat blog kak non (wei kak oi - aku confirm confirm ko tue dari aku sket lps baca tag mu ittew, tapi sebab dah semua orang -ececece cam ramai amat - terpanggey kak non aku continue aje la) almaklumlah ada 23 comments dah pun!! Lagi satu, aku tak reti nak link link yea, korang pepandai la carik sapa Kak Non sebab aku tak leh nak include blog dia dlm list aku kerana bedebah mike haru yang blue tu still akan kuar sementelaah aku cuba berkali-kali mengcorrectkan address ko Kak Non.

OK..here goes yea. Eh sebelum tu, sesiapa yg terasa pedas sini sana kerana telah membuat komen itu selepas membaca komen aku, anggap aje la ada benda yg anda tak tau nyata dan ada benda yg memang anda akan tertau lepas baca post aka komen aku ni hokey..tarak hurt(heart?) feelings wokey

OM5 punya connection ngan sedara mara tu dengan itu nyer company memang tak benar sebenar benarnya. Kalaupun apa asas pertubuhan company itu ada percampuran OM5 dan sedara maranya (yang aku sendiri tak tau yea) , mungkin secara kebetulan. MUNGKIN kerana aku tak tau la..OM5 tu bukan sedara aku.

tapi YANG NYATA, mereka yg bekerja kat kompeni tu semua makan gaji dan memang ikhlas untuk menaikkan integriti halal. Kalaupun ada sengal sengal kat sini sana yg cakap diaorang tu busines minded la etc la , TOLONGLAH PERCAYA DAN YAKIN bahawa integriti Halal itu terjaga. company konon konon tu sungguh nak bantu orang Islam Malaysia dan aim utamanya adalah untuk pastikan produk Halal Malaysia dikeluarkan oleh orang Islam dan kalau bukan orang Islam, dari pengeluar yang mematuhi peraturan pengeluaran produk makanan Halal yang diiktiraf Jabatan Standard dan ada ISO nyer. tak yah la aku tulis apa coding guide tu yea kekawan..tak masuk periksa pun. Dan tak payah la jugak aku mengexplain significant Guide ni sebagai ISO iktiraf sebab aiyahhhh tu dah nak masuk chapter lain tuh dan separuh orang dapat bayaran ok buat benda tu!!!!

YANG NYATA nya, produk halal di malaysia dan negara luar dipelopori oleh orang BUKAN ISLAM. Ini ada statistik yang aku tak kuasa nak bagi kat sini sebab aku ni bukan buat laporan kat MIDA hahahhaha...So part of the mission kompeni tu ialah memastikan pengeluar halal ini orang Islam. Sasaran peringkat antarabangsa kompeni ni ialah memastikan produk Halal segempaq kosher. Kalau korang yg tinggal obersee tu, maybe bboleh confirm kan la yg korang kekadang lagi nampak & consume Kosher dari halal sebab Halal tarak. Aku ada statistik nyer jugak purata Kosher dan Halal products internationally. tapi tak kuasa aku nak quote la kan.

YANG NYATAnya, Islam ni ada pelbagai mazhab. Aku sah sah la bukan pakar bab ni. Aku nak cakap yg Pak arab tu bukan amal islam betul, samalah aku rasa cam Pak arab tu kata kita tak amal islam betul. Korang pahamtak? Bagi pak arab, katak memang dia boleh telan. babi memang boleh dia pegang. Babi pada diaorang memang tak leh makan je. So jangan terkujat lak dan cakap pak arab bukan Islam (kalau dah memang bukan Islam lain hal la kan) kalau dia pakai kasut pig lining. Yang pasal minum arak tu, aku tak leh nak cakap panjang sebab aku tak de ilmu pasal ni. tapi untuk makluman korang, Majlis Fatwa sendiri tak sebut dengan jelas berapa % alcohol yang tak dibenarnya. cuma sebut 'sedikit' aje. So sedikit engkau ngan sedikit aku beza kan? Tolong tegur aku kalau reference pada Majlis Fatwa tu salah. Tapi terkini yang aku tahu, memang diaorang tengah bincang nak decide berapa is 'sedikit'. Jangan melompat dulu, tunggu keputusan yang muktamad.

YANG NYATAnya, negara kita ni sangat disegani di mata antarabangsa tentang kearifan kita tentang halal. Aku rasa pasal inilah si OM5 itu telah mengambil kesempatan dan menubuhkan kompeni untuk ride on this fact. BUkan untuk kepentingan peribadi, tapi untuk kepentingan orang Islam Malaysia dari segi ekonomi secara amnya. Ini pendapat peribadi ok. so korang tak leh nak gaduh ngan aku pasal ni. Sukati aku la nak bagi pendapat lagu mana. JAKIM tak leh nak take on this sebab mandat JAKIM tu hanyalah kemajuan Islam Malaysia. Dah namanya gitu kan. So kat Malaysia je lah kuasa JAKIM tu. Dari itu, untuk mengenengahkan Islam Malaysia diperingkat antarabangsa, makanya korang dengar la itu perkataan Hub Halal. Tak kuasa aku nak terangkan apa Hub Halal tu la. cari sendiri la kat suratkabar lama. Kemajuan kita ni bukan saja pada Guide yang kita telah developed, tapi kemajuan sains & teknologi yang kita telah bawa. Korang jangan tak tau, saintis kita dah cipta macam-macam dalam bidang Halal ni. Aku penah tengok mata kepala sendiri ada alat yang boleh sniff - ya betul BAU produk n tau berapa banyak kebabian di dalam produk itu. Dalam bidang pharmaseutikal jugak kita sangat hebat. Ko ingat kapsul halal mende kejadah tu sapa yg research? Kompeni Malaysia jugak.

YANG NYATANYA undang-undang Malaysia ni ada sikit bengong. Again ini pendapat peribadi Pasni aku masuk ISA, aku pasti. Segala benda dalam ruang lingkup Islam adalah dibawah kuasa YM SUltan negeri masing-masing. Of course, federal states tak termasuk. So bila ko sebut Halal, makanya Sultan aje yang ada kuasa. Susulan dari itu, mestila ada masalah sket pasal penguatkuasaan. Orang-orang JAKIM (dan even kompeni ni pun) tak leh buat apa-apa sebab diaorang takde kuasa untuk impose punishment atas kesalahan yang tidak diklasifikasikan dibawah kuasa mereka. JAKIM kan di bawah federal. Pehal pulak nak gi ambik tindakan atas kompeni yang terletak di say...Perak..Haaa sah sah itu negeri Bulan. Nak carik pasal ke apa?

YANG NYATAnya lagi..JAKIM pun tarak kuasa enforcement. Yang ada kuasa ialah KPDNHEP bawah akta ehemm (lets not get technicalla yea) itupun enforcement power hanyalah sekiranya penggunaan Halal itu pada produk tak halal. Kiranya kalau ko letak Bismillah pada makanan tu, dan memang makanan tu disembelih mengikut sharak, memang kira halal la. Tapi kalau letak bismillah dan tak halal, kalau korang adu kat KPDNHEP, barulah boleh buat tindakan. Itupun aku nak ingatkan korang, Halal nyer tu bukan la se'HAlal' mengikut Guide yang aku cakap tu. Halal kalau seperti yang dedifinisikan oleh Guide tu adalah mengikut sharak dan bersih. Kalau sembelih ikut sharak pastu baling ayam kat lantai penuh taik ayam TAK HALAL ya puan-puan (dan tuan tuan kalaulah ada).

YANG NYATAnya, kita tak ada kuasa undang-undang untuk compel orang mengeluarkan produk makanan Halal sahaja. Itu in contradiction dengan Federal Constitution yea korang - hak berugama. Kita ni memang nampak Halal ni sebenarnya dari segi ekonomi dan pengeluaran makanan, tapi orang lain nampak - pehal ko nak suruh aku kuar makanan ikut itu agama Islam. Aku ni kristian, nak tarbiyah aku masuk islam la tu, Eh mana hak beragama aku - Ini adalah diantara argumen yang aku boleh nampak la. Sementelaah itulah, mana-mana kerajaan pun Tak kisah la dacing ke bulan jatuh ke riba ke, bahkan roket ke bulan pun (kalau la mika teringin nak wajibkan Halal) tak kan MAMPU berbuat demikian.

Wah..cukup tak aku jawab komen-komen yang banyak kat post Kak Non. aku dah penat nak baca satu-satu la weh. Kalau aku tertinggal, sorry la. nak pasti makanan betul halal? potong ayam sendiri, kisar tepung sendiri (halal tu masuk bersih tau, aku rasa kilang tepung tu takyah pikir la bersih ke idak) dan buat segala mak datuk raw materials sendiri. Tak pun, ko boleh jadik cam aku, yang yakin dan suci hati dan serah semuanya pada Allah.

Tentang Perut

2008-12-16T14:00:00.004+08:00

The ordeal is done

I planned to write about it before the actual event took place, but due to time constraint, i havent been able to do so. Yess.. i have cut myself up (not me la!! the doctor!!) and took out the growing cycst from my left ovary yesterday at 12.00 noon.

Itu pun main tipu siap kena sound ngan doktor eh lambat ye..hahahha..kena la pulak aku ngelat cakap anak aku demam smalam pagi tadi nak ngurus dia makan ubat bagai. In a way not entirely a lie coz alesha monday morning memang badan suam suam dan aku yg termalas ni telah menidurkan diri aku lepas alarm bunyi pukul 7 pagi and later woke up at close to 830 am - aku supposed to be warded at 830 and operation scheduled at 10.00 am

nothing visual to write about as mak yang rabun ini telah dipaksa membuka specknye before operation. sheesh apa daa..tapi on 2nd thought bagus gak so i dont see all them scary needles. hahhaha..

the usual, masuk OT kena buat drip insertion. Ini je dah mentraumatisekan aku yg memang tau my precious veins ni susah nk dicari. so after 3 attempts sampai tangan aku bengkak bengkak, IV itu baru berjaya dimasukkan. Not blaming the doctor coz im so used to this.

Lepas tu the epidural injection. Adeeeiii..aku memang tobat la nak beranak normal kalaulah that is the same injection yg korang ambik masa beranak c-sect. sakit nye tak leh nak cakap la , and what i hate most is the numb feeling bila ubat dah masuk. Tapi nye kalau tak numb kang, tercabut lak nyawa aku masa operation tu dak? hahaha

Bila dah start nak numb tu, barula baring and the nurses prep itu ini. Tapi aku pelik satu ajelah...wajib ke OT tu sejuk cam tu? kalau tak sejuk tak leh ke? aku sampai clatter teeth ni tahan sejuk tau.

Bila doktor dah masuk, barulah the real deal begun. tapi aku rasa yg ni la cam tak happening sangat- simply because by then dah tak rasa apa-apa. But i know she said my right ovary cantek (direct quote ok! aku rasa makna nya normal la tu) my tiub pun ok (uwaaa boleh beranak banyak ni!!) and the cycst looks a bit like hati ayam size besar sket (ter off aku nak telan hati ayam pas ni)

tapi as expected, aku muntah masa operation. i have a very low tolerancy towards bius ok. masa operation aku muntah, masa nak sorong balik bilik aku muntah, pendek kata aku muntah sampai malam la!. sakit? Jangan cakap la..tak belah perut pun sakit kalau muntah, ini kan pulak perut terbelah sambil muntah. By 4 pm tu epidural pun dah wore off, so aku memang in pain la and in hunger!! bayangkan last meal aku pukul 11.30 malam Senin, pukul 11.30 malam Selasa pun tak makan lagi tau.

Now at 3.00 pm, IV dah dibuka, salur kencing pun dah bukak. I have been walking bit by bit cam nenek tua. Now am seating down while writing this. Malam ni hopeful aku boleh bawak hantu susu tu tido ngan aku kat spital. SIL kat umah report dia sibuk tarik baju orang nak susu memalam. hahahha...Rindu pulak aku kat bebudak ni.

p/s : fid& fara, gamba awning tu nanti-nanti la aku upload ok

Tentang Cinta

2008-12-11T13:32:00.003+08:00

uWAA rasa cam berzaman tak memblog. so will do this in segments (kalau aku ada mood la yea)

Last friday was my last official day in the office for this year. I am writing this post while seated on my not so comfy dinner chair yg tak tarak span and lappy on a dinner table yang penuh dengan dishwears aku dan segala mak datok benda yg aku fikirkan takkan dicapai oleh Azhad yang masih lagi muat diletakkan di atas meja ni.

First thing first, hubby got back from his la-la fun land holiday with his friends early this month. Aku yg terhegeh-hegeh menjaga 2 budak yg sangatlah tak reti perkataan NO and tercicir kain nak kejar dateline kerja dek nak bercuti panjang terpaksa redha dengan mencipankan diri dan mengambil kesempatan umah inlaw yang sepelaung sahaja jauhnya itu telah membuat muka tak malu dengan berkhemah selama 2 hari kat sana. heheh..hari jumaat after work aku telah mengelat kali ke 2 dengan membribe anak-anak buah cik abang dengan piza yg telah dimakan oleh Cik Erna kita iter (serious aku memang terliur piza itew okeh!! pastu kupon tu lak asyik buat nak order lagi & lagi & lagi!!) untuk spend the nite at my house supaya aku boleh la mengemas rumah sebelum kekasih aku tu balik bergumbira ngan kenkawannya and the kids can entertain anak-anak burung aku yg sentiasa ketagihan attention tu.

Sungguhpun aku dah nak sampai tahap meroyan Mizz Britney menjaga anak (hahaha sah sah tak leh jadik SAHM) tapi aku rasa ok gaks kalau me and hubby ada this time for ourselves once a year (heheh..yang sebetulnya aku dah plan nak gi holiday ngan my girlfrens lepas budak nyonyot tu wean off). After err soooo many yearsss of together and 4 years as a married couple, aku cam dah write off la wish list nak dengar suara laki aku kala usia percintaan baru 2 tahun. Alaa..time time gayut phone sampai telinga rasa panas tapi suara mantain je ayu and manja walhal badan dah melepek penat bercakap berjam jam. Hehehhe..alaaa..korang pun tau la kan aku maksudkan apa ni.

Rupanya distance (and maybe a speck of guilty consciense kerana meninggal anak-bini dirumah) boleh menyemarakkan perasaan..hahahhaa..well..nak kata dia tu bertepuk sebelah tangah , tak la gak..aku ni pun dah tahap tepuk kaki dan tangan dah ni!! eeehhh mestila rindukan..laki aku!! siap call hari hari tu..cam la dok dalam satu malaysia cakap telephone. Mau tobat pasni lepas tengok bill hp. hahahha..padan muka aku.

entry sakit hati

2008-12-03T17:14:00.003+08:00

U all know im wearing today to work, right? But i have to confess that i dont wear one when im out and about during weekends or after office hour. There were even times, when i wore tudung 1 time and just pulled it off my head and shoved in my beg.

Does that make me a hypocrite? I dont know and i dont care to answer (nor i want you guys to answer too coz this is just one of the question that should be left unanswered if you dont want to be deleted from my bloglist - hehehhe..this does not come from me but from the result of that Blog Personality that i took la..)

A dear friend once called me a pretender and a person who is lost in her identity. I took no offense (well- a bit offended NOT because of being called as such but the gall of another person to streotype another person). I am not a pretender and most definitely know who i am and how to dress my self.

There were also people who gave me this 'look' when they see me without my headcover. This offense me most as opposed to the remark by the friend.

There were also people who placed me on a 'league' of my own. READ = i am such a bad-ass person and its not worth to even speak to me. This i dont mind coz a person of such narrowed mind does not even worth a blink of my one EYE. Sebelah mata pun aku tak sudi nak kawan ngan ko ok!!

The point in writing this? PEOPLE.. PLEASE MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS. I could be going Pamela Lee decotelege (eh- ni ke ko spell nyer?) one time and my jubah one time.. but serious people, ini kubur aku (READ= aku memang tak suka nak pakai perkataan kubur ke apa ke sebab aku tau ini memang arrogant nak mampos n cam nak mencabar agama kita - tapi u get what i mean)

And for those who do not say anything and still hang out ngan aku despite my kejab ada kejab takde tudung - and for knowing i am more than my sexy baju when i dont wear my tudung and my muslimah tudung when im putting my tudung on - Thank you n May God Bless You.

NITE FEEDING - EBM

2008-11-28T16:15:00.002+08:00

Saya rasa saya tanya kat sini je lah. tak yah bukak thread baru. Rasa dah baca semua post kat thread ni tapi tak cakap pun camna aturan ebm masa waktu malam. camna u guys buat? Baby tak jerit-jerit ke memalam waktu kita perangatkan ebm? ada advice tak on fastest way to prepare ebm?

hEHHEHE di atas adalah post aku di forum yang sangat di'sukai' oleh Fid. (kuikuikui). But seriously, camna aku nak have the fastest ebm nite feeding? Semalam aku buat trial-run, he woke up about 5 times, but not for constant feeding, merely suckling 5 minutes cam tu je. Aku dok memikirkan cara nak menyenangkan my SIL since u'll know la the pressure suh aku stop ebm to Azhad. Akku tak mau le benda-benda yang overly nyusahkan dia ni meng-demotivated kan dia untuk tolong aku continue bf azhad.

aku merasakan begini tau aku nak buat:

Option A:
Simpan 2 -3 0z dalam 3 -4 botol. Botol tak payah letak dlm fridge. Biar kat room temp. So bila dia nak minum, sumbat aje the room temp ebm

Kerisauan 1
Tapi tahan ke ebm tu? FYI, aku tak rasa its gonna be fresh ebm. MEsti aku ambik dari freezer and leave to thaw kat luar aje until its time to be consumed. Apa yg aku risau, ialah ebm yg dah dekat2 subuh n early morning tu

Option B:
Simpan all ebm dlm peti. Put 1 ebm dalam bottle warmer on constant on - slow heat. Bila dia nangis pukul 2-3 am tu, straight sumbat. (provided tak terlalu panas la). Lepas pakai that ebm, immediately top-up new ebm dlm bottle warmer untuk next feeding time.

Kerisauan 1:
Bottle warmer tu akan keep warm ke? atau off automatik kalau dia dah panas. Camni basi la kan kalau dia auto off bila dah panas?

Kerisauan 2:
Kalau dia keep warm, boleh minum lagi ke ebm tu kalau dia dah on warmer for more than 1 hour? tu kan?

camna orang kat umah korang handle ebm untuk korang masa malam if korang takde?

cam tak betul aje

2008-11-28T00:54:00.000+08:00

Your Blogging Type is Pensive and Philosophical

You blog like no one else is reading...
You tend to use your blog to explore ideas - often in long winded prose.
Easy going and flexible, you tend to befriend other bloggers easily.
But if they disagree with once too much, you'll pull them from your blogroll!

What's" Your Blogging Personality?

2008-11-28T00:21:00.004+08:00

I have been wayyyyyyyyy too busy with work to actually update my blog. So much to tell and so little time. and when i have the time, the muse seems to be withering away. sheesh..

i have promised to update some pic on my latest tudung craze..despite the norm of people scratching their faces or plastering smileys all over them, i am the brave few (ahaks!) who will embrace my ketembamam (ahaks! lagi) and have it criticised by the entire world (macamla ramai naa yg baca blog aku)

the pic here is my version of anak tudung + munawarah outer layer

material : vericose rm45 p/mtr (typo tu abaikan - asalkan ko paham)

Awning; kain langsir (hehehe) rm2.80 p/mtr

type : short tudung (i.e. cover neck and rambut kat blakang je

Awning is a bit tebal. U have to press when ironing to get the crisp finishing. Good value since u can use the in/out sides. In side a bit on greyish part. Out side a bit blueish .Im thinking blue/grey/black/cream (there are creamy/white dots on the material) tudung to match the awning if u plan to have long/big sekali sarung tudung type. (i prefer short tudung + separate outer layer)

Yang ni vericose material jugak for both Awning & Short tudung

I wear this with a long printed scarf - printed strategicly placed cascading down by shoulder & head. Lupa lak nak tangkap entire look.

(FID/MEK: when i said my tudung jadik muncung - please see this and the subsequent picture. I tried taking out my glasses but still jadik ropa gini)

Awning: Brocade Rm45 (+-) p/mtr

Tudung: Jersey RM45(+-) p/mtr

Style: short tudung worn with long scarf too. (moi loves the color combination and total effect of this look)

I have another 2 long tudungs made with lower/cheepo jersey material of RM2.50 p/mtr. Pictures tak sempat nak d/load from my camera. Will do later maybe (or not)

as for the above pictures, please dont misinterpret the blurry-ness as my attempt to cover my vogue-ness (haha) it was simply because my h/p (with which i took the above pictures) was covered with slime-my (dey camna nak spell benda ni daa) from Azhad's mouth. Jahanam hp haku.

There goes. Janji telah ditunaikan. Will update more if ada hasil yg menarik selepas ini.

sepetang ahad yg lalu

2008-11-24T10:00:00.003+08:00

A day at burger king@ where the parents were happily eating their hearts out.

Tiny Me

2008-11-19T13:04:00.001+08:00

My supplier came just now.

so this is my weight after 7 days into HL

Day 1

weight: 74.5kg
water: 40.9
organ's fat: 10
Muscle: 39.2
Physical :3
BMR: 1330/5565

Week 1
weight: 73.7kg
water: 41.2
organ's fat: 9
Muscle: 39
Physical :3
BMR: 1321/5565

i only know the significant of the 1st 2s. Yang lain ntah apa maknanye dah. So this week's resolution = TAKE 2 HL IN 1 DAY

Tiny Me

2008-11-18T10:05:00.003+08:00

NOTE: ALL MY HL POSTS WILL BE TAGGED TINY ME. FEEL FREE NOT TO READ SINCE MOST OF THE RAMBLINGS ARE FOR MY PERSONAL REFERENCE ONLY.

7 days into HL and i have yet to follow the routine. Grrrrr.. it seems im having problem of taking 2 shakes in 1 day and still feel the temptation to munch. My craving for sweet things have not been curbed. Just yesterday, i grabbed 4 big cornflakes cookies after my HL shakes. arrghhh!!! MUST. BE. STRONG.

For my record:

DAY 2
B/fast : f1
Lunch: 1/2 mee goreng mamak
Dinner: Steamboat (makan cam nak muntah!!)
Water: 2 tea 1 h20

Day 3
B/fast : f1
Lunch: dave Deli roasted chicken
Dinner: Lauk pauk sahaja
Water: 2 tea 2 h20

Day 4 - weekend
B/fast : 1/2 roti canai 1/3 nasi lemak (uwaaaaaaaa)
Lunch: lauk pauk sahaja
Evening: cekodok pisang (uwaaaaaa)
Dinner: Steamboat (makan cam nak muntah!!)
Water: 1 tea 1 h20

Day 5 - weekend
B/fast : 3 slices of Toast'em
Lunch: lauk pauk / root beer A&W
Dinner: sup daging + 1/3 mee goreng
Water: 1 h20

Day 6
B/fast : NIL
Lunch: 1/2 rice, ayam goreng, 2 veggies
Dinner: HL, lauk pauk, 4 keping cornflake cookies (mati la akuuuu!!)
Water: 1 tea 1.5 h20

Now people, u see why i am fat. Weekends memang ke laut la jawabnya. And come couple of weeks, its birthdays times (the kids and anak buah 3 -4 orang) where for Segambut's clan it means makan-makan time.

untuk memburukkan lagi keadaan, i plan to bake brownies, pies, tarts, etc etc for the party. So i know the temptation will get to me. Cornflake cookies tu dah jadik habuan. And im telling ya, the big fat chuncks that i ate were the hangus batches. Imagine how many i can take if its the 'menjadik' batches. sheesshh... ni nak bertambah gemuk ke nak kurus ni!!!!!

Tiny Me

2008-11-12T23:59:00.003+08:00

today would marked the day i put my foot down and start 'preserving' myself.

For my own record:

Bfast - 3 scopes of F1

Lunch - 1/2 plate rice/ikan bakar/pucuk manis

Dinner - small bowl of tomyam/5 ketul udang masak petai (ni mak metua masak - tak leh tahan aku)

Water consumption: 3 litres of Tea

My Stats:

Weight: 74.5 (yes people..i am THAT heavy!!)

the Razans Story

2008-11-11T00:07:00.004+08:00

I havent been writing for quite some time. Reason no. 1 = my nites were bz with Singer. hehehhe not that my handiworks are anything to be impressed with - but somehow the satisfaction of sewing and wearing my own handiworks are just so satisfying. Maybe the novelty will wears off in couple of days but whatever it is, i have bought myself 1 singer. So im thinking baju gown for Alesha. But that is another story alltogether.

pic tudung yang dibuat. Sila abaikan tanganku yg dompot itu.

No. 2 = kids were ups and downs with fever. First it was Azhad, then Alesha, then Azhad again and so forth the 'trend' continued. I was catching one too last week that promted my MC untuk yang kesian kalinya. isk isk isk bad kpi. especially now its year end - assesment time.

no. 3 = i am simply busy. Works are mounting just when i am thinking of a long-awaited cycst operation that i should be 'suffering' last February. Yes..i have delayed THAT long. partly because im such a scaredy-cat (spelling peeps!!) a quarter because im afraid of the bulging-flapping tummy (as if la ni tak ada cam extra thick tongue on my middle part) and another 3 quarter (is that more that 1 full round already??) is because Azhad is still on susu ibu.

On that note, i have lost hope on trying to campur susu him. I mean i was trying (not much of an effort though - it was SIL yang beriya try) to mix his feed with FM. Bought a small can of Enfa and a total waste of my Rm49 (i think) as he hardly took a spoonful. So now im taking a more 'liberal' approach to just leave things as they are. Not getting much support from people around me though. coz MIL and my more than 2 SILs were bebeling that i should train him on FM especially since i will be hospitalised for more than 3 days. Arrgh..malas nak fikir. worse case scenario, i would just drag hubby to sleepy with me at the hospital and bring along a comforter and he and azhad can sleep on the floor and he to carry Azhad to me whenever he wants to susu. Dont think hubby will agree to it, but im crossing my fingers in case my stok tak capai 2 days consumption come mid December.

Ini pic Azhad tengah tido waktu demam. Sila abaikan baju pink itu kerana itu baju dipilih oleh kakaknya yang sangat rajin menolong ibu mengambil baju adik di dalam almari.

On Alesha, she got some bling-bling for her ears. The cutesy has been asking for earings ever since she is into make up. So last Saturday i was like what the heck, lets get your ears pierced. She was all geared up and hyped about it. When the adik sprayed that cool-spray thingy on her left ear, she was still maintain-maintain gitu. then come the stapler thing, still ok lagi - with a lil' smile on her face. I think she thinks the spray is the end of it la. When the adik kedai emas snapped the stapler thingy, member punya muka priceless. Its between 'ouch that hurt! is that it! is there more! and hand quickly went cupping the ear. Tapi masalahla sebab she can anticipated the pain already. It took almost 5 sprays tapi tak jadik stapler before i gripped her between my thighs and adik kedai emas did her job. Not so fine sebab i noticed 0.01 milimeter off as compared to her first pierced ear but what the heck..the job is fine. Im guessing no infection coz i dont see slobby 'mucus-look-alike- bendair around the pierced areas.

Ini muka calm tengah marking her ears

ini muka excited sementara tunngu budak pasang stapler.

ini muka eksyen tayang bling-bling

ini pose mengancam tunjuk telingar

Thats the story. No pictures today. been in front of pc since 11.00 pm settling some works. i need to tido now coz tomorrow i have another long day of meeting. (managed to selit pictures today- penat dlm meeting 1 satu takdak mood aku nak kerja)

tata peeps

mek twain..Thank You!!!

2008-10-31T09:52:00.006+08:00

I slept at 4 a.m. this morning and woke up at 7.00a.m. This is the reason why:

Mek Twain...THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!! the design ni lain sket dari design u. ni ala ala tudung dubai but with awning.

eh...kalau i buat bisness, mek tak marah kan? Sapa nak beli???????? ahahhahaha

TAMBAHAN: JAHITAN PAKAI MESIN NAMPAKNYA BERJAYA. MASALAHNYA BENANG BOBBIN DAH ABIS AKU TAK TAU CAMNA NAK MASUKKAN ..HUHUHUHU..DAH SEBUKU BENANG ABIS JAHIT SALAH!!TENSIONNYA AKUUU

Duit Duit di Mana Kau Duit

2008-10-28T20:54:00.003+08:00

i was watching Oprah at 8pm and was struck at how similar i am to the 1st couple on air. NOt 3 cars or big house like that..but at how crazy similar i am to her shopping addiction. yes sir!! i am a shoppaholic. But im not THAT crazy to buy and sell all my clothes just so i can buy more.

nonetheless, the point in writing this is just another reminder to me that i could end up like her due to my spending habits.

Truthfully, i think my financial situation is bad. I should be having more money saved and some health insurance for the kids (like what the what-so-great-and-mighty Suze Ormon said). But in my situation, the medical for the family is paid by the company. I am not thinking far ahead of having to actually pay for my kids medical. What do you think? Should i start thinking of some health insurance or education insurance or just continue saving rm100 for each kid like what im doing now. Any idea?

On spending on cards..well..this is truly our problems as a family. Apart from having to use the cards for petrol, i have urges (very similar to that of choc-craving during period) to shop. Hence..the use of cards.

Apart from that, there are (yes.. ARE) also personal loans i have 'accumulated' over the years for some cash emergencies required.

in total i have about RM40K on me. Alarming? Yes. SO the best way out is to have more loan. NI kira kes gali lubang tutup lubang la ni.

I have applied for a personal loan to settle all my cards, my 1 car, my 2 personal loans and to purchase a 2nd house. The loan will also settle husband's 2 personal loans and maybe reduce some of his card. By paying all these with that specific personal loan, i still have to pay for a monthly instalment of my current house, astro, phones, and utilities. In a total, i reduces about Rm1K of the total payments i have to made pre-personal loan.

But i have conflicting advice on this. 1 friend told me these;

1. should have apply for a different housing loan for my 2nd house;

2. should continue with current car loan reason 1. i have only until dec 09 for the tenure. reason no. 2 the rate of car loan is lower than personal loan. (all a matter of calculation, which causes me headache to understand let alone writing it down)

3. the extra from personal loan (if i opted for no. 1 and no. 2) should be put to 1/2 saving and 1/2 unit trust since the units are selling very cheap now.

But my justification of sticking to my plan, is for me to not worry about paying this and that. in a long run (talking interest rate and tenure and all) i may be at losing end, but at least until the next 5 years, i would be in a safe zone, with extra for saving and alesha's school - i hope.

I am also thinking of refinancing my house to Islamic loan. Part because of the increasing rate of conventional banking and part because im pissed at the Officer who slammed the phone on me the other day. Well, it was entirely another story but i am determine to write to the Bank and stating this as part of my reason for changing financier.

Any of you good at restructuring your finances? Care to advice me? And the medical insurance? Should i be thinking about it?

AeonFlux

2008-10-25T00:07:00.003+08:00

It 12 a.m now. I am here in front of the tv with lappy before me. Azhad is sleeping on the mat at the floor with occasional coughings. The cik abang sayang is outside having drinks with friends. yeah yeah yeah..im a very sporting wife i am. And guess who beside me paying attention to what on tv. Yes. cik Alesha Razan is sporting an interest at the moves Charlize Theron is making.

now..she just asked me..kakak yang kulit dia hitam tu mana? dah mati ke?

hehehhehe...about 10 minutes ago she was gasping (with hands cupping her mounth - i must tell you!!) when the PELULU was firing at AeonFlux. Yup. Pelulu!! That was approximately the time when i feel i must write thsi down. hehhehe..well..she is asking for shu shu..be right back..or not. we'll see.

UPDATE: Hahaha tak sempat den nak bangun buat susu, minah ni dah lalok terkulai atas sofa. hehehe. Aku pun nak tido dah ni. esok is an early day for us, nak bertolak pi Penang ke Kedah ke (im bad at geo ok!!) menghantar my lil bro meminang. isk isk dah besar dah adek aku tu.

Cya guys..and happy holiday!!

entry untu faRizza

2008-10-23T23:34:00.003+08:00

entry untuk farizza

aku boleh kot tulis kat komen ko tu za, tapi cam dah banyak sangat la.

apa yg diaorang tu tulis semua tu betullah. tapi a simple but worth remembering advice from me is pick a good solicitor to handle you file. Ive seen money wasted down the drain for simply stupid mistakes done by the lawyers handling the file.

Tak leh nak tulis bebanyak, nanti ada lak kenkawan makan jantung ngan aku laks.

azhad yang lemau

2008-10-23T00:42:00.004+08:00

AZHAD is having a fever and a very bad case of flu and cough. He is sleeping beside me now, i can hear his snoring rather badly and i can quite see the mucus hanging from his nose (he is on his side btw). His temp is 38.3.

I havent given him any medication. The date on the flu/feve/cough bottles in the fridge goes as far back as in August 2008. Not sure whether the time of the medicine will have any affect on its effect (or effect on affect ??!!). Im too kesian at him to wake him up for me to administer the medicine on him, simply because when he is awake, he will be crying - and you know how bad flu and cough can do to you when you cry - and when he cries, he will need his susu - and i tak sampai hati hearing his breathing and seeing him gasping for air (as he is breathing through his mouth) when he is susuing. So i have prepare itu ubat bontot. so maybe hubby will administer come 1 or 2 am.

mmm risaunye...as if baru i ni baru 1 st baby. I seems to forget how to care for a sick child. Come to think of it, i (think) am an expert at this as Alesha was forever sick during her 1st year. Every month we'll be off to clinic for this or that penyakit. Not to mention sleepless nites menjeram her and calming her crying crazines in the middle of the nites.

Maybe because after 10 months, now would be the really really 1st time Azhad is sick. Hence im getting to get used to it. Or maybe muka Azhad yg sememek itu makes my heart go goey tak sampai hati nak force medicate him like when i used to do with Alesha.

haii....risaunya..

ohh in case why any of you wondering why this is typed at 1 a.m. i am pleased (maybe not so once i start paying them bill la) to announce i have opted for unlimited data packet deal from my hp line. So no mr. max or ms. com broadband for me. pakai aje la kenkonon hp 3G hamba ni to access internet for rm99 permonth.

tag tak diundang

2008-10-15T11:45:00.004+08:00

Si yan telah membuat tag ini. ahhahaha..walaupun nama aku tarak dalam list invite dia, aku syok sendiri nak buat (walaupun sebelum ni siap declare tak reti nak buat tag). So here is my 'tag' perasan:

1. The age you'll be on your next birthday:
32. Tapi i feel very much like 25 except with 2 extra attachment of temper tantrum kids and 12 kgs heavier..isk isk.

2. Place you want to travel to:
only if the family is by my side ..mcD tepi jalan pun ok. kuangkuangkuang..kenkonon ibu mithali la. But going to Korea would be nice kan (think korean drama yg citer dayang masak-masak tu)

3. Your favorite place:
Tempat sejuk + dingin.(JUGAK!! yang marah ya kak yan)

4. Your favorite food:
Makanan yg sedap.(JUGAK!! tapi aku suka ketam nipah la aku rasa)

5. Your favorite pet:
tak de. AKu bukan animal friendly.

6. Favorite color combination:
red and black and shades of red

7. Favorite piece of clothing:
Sun dress (tapi takleh pakai-camna lak aku nak bf).

8. Your all time favorite song:
Ni aku suka lagu Kump. Febians Untukmu Sayang dengan lagu kumpulan Fatamorgana antara realiti & fantasi.. HIDUP ROCK KAPAK!!

9. Favorite TV show:Criminal Minds kot (tapi i can live without watching them)

10. First name of your significant other/crush:Significant other? Mohd (JUGAK!! Dahnya orang melayu. Standard la nama tu kan)

tapi kalau Crush? hmm.. aku memang ada mega turn on ngan hugh jackson in X-Men, yg berlakon citer gladiator tu sapa? tapi pokoknya aku memang babas syiok kat lelaki yg ala ala hunky begitu.

11. Which town do you live in: Kuala Lumpur - Mukim Batu

12. Your screen name/nickname:pinkylollytoe - dah dekat 10 tahun aku pakai nick ni. jgn taya how i got it, aku pun dah lupa

13. Your first job:hehehhe..kenkonon cecita nak jadik penguam. dapat la kot sekejab

14. Your dream job:
SAHM (JUGAK)

15. One bad habit that you have:Procrastinator (JUGAK) but the list is endless

16. Worst fear:trapped in small dark space -clautraphobic ke ape ke namenya ni.

17: Things you'd like to do before you die:Mengucap and dalam sedar (as opposed mati masa koma)

18. The 1st thing you'll buy if you get $1,000,000: maybe another house for investment. (Pastu aku mampos kena kejar ngan LHDN sebab beli umah cash). tapi seboleh mungkin aku nak aku laki bini idup debt free

19. Your husband/wife:cik ajib sayang (uwaaa kenkawan laki aku mesti jelek baca ni)

Aku tak tag sesapa sebab aku buat ni pun coz aku syok sendiri. haha

another blabbering post

2008-10-09T12:25:00.006+08:00

Just random silly-absolutely-ridiculous things i want (mimpi nak tapi sendiri tau takkan nye aku gi beli) :-

1. spek mata - mata lalat. The bigger the better. Perasan angie jolie.

ala-ala gini........

2. high waisted skirt - perasan tyra banks. (maybe aku patut tulis i want body yg sesuai untuk pakai high waisted skirt kot)

maybe yang ini untuk pi jenjalan...

3. peep toe stillettos

yang cenggini.... yg ni aku ada la ala-ala ini dalam 2 pasang tapi serious aku ni mmg addict nak bagi blakang aku sakit.

atau yang ini....

4. charm bracelet - i have figure out what charms i want to add. heheh giler psycho case.

ala-ala gini la aku nak beli. Emas putih lagi...

hahahaha..cukup tak post mengarut aku ni...

blabbering..

2008-10-09T11:32:00.002+08:00

Seriously tak de mood nak blog.

I have like thousands things to say when i am anywhere near the internet, tapi when i switch on, langsung nada. Takde idea. So i ended up blog hopping.

I have come accross several single mom bloggers. all were force into the situation when the spouses fell ill and later passed on. Reading their thoughts sometimes makes me re-evaluate my situation.

Like any other couples, we have our ups and downs, yes? But at times, i think i am tested to my limit. I at times asked my self, how 'deep' the downs that i can handle? when would it be my last 'down'? I dare not answer the question and i dare not think of it further.

But whatever 'downs' there be, i am pretty certain it will not be as bad as having to lost your spouse forever. Maybe time heals all wounds, but it will surely leave a dent in your heart, and a gaping holes in your children. That i know as the case of the demise of my mom.

As coward as i am to think of my own possibilities, i know for a certain the kids wont be able to stand life without their dad. Not a chance. He is very much a part of them as i hope i am the other part.

Why am i writing all these craps? Blame it on the lack of blogging-motivator. Where la my muse ni?

kesabaran ya puan-puan

2008-10-07T17:57:00.003+08:00

tag mende.

sesungguhnya aku tak brape reti nk paste la letak pic. reti sesikit je, tapi sbb tangan aku tgh guna megepam , maka nya aku tk brapa ada kesabaran nk godek-godek mengepaste pic.

so to fid n ms lola ..buleh tak anggap aku dah buat tag korang tu walau sbnarnya aku tak buat. hehehe buleh gitu?

jalur lebar oh jalur lebar?

2008-10-06T21:55:00.001+08:00

WHICH TO BUY

maxis broadband ke?

or celcom broadband?

any idea?