idea tarak

Idea nak memblog langsung tak de.

Azhad tetiba kena diagnose asthmatic. On monday, balik dari kerja berdesut jantung aku tengok dia dah napas pendek pendek. Nak pergi klinik pakar dah malam. Tried jugak ventolin nebulizer tapi tak berapa lega. cranky giler, tido pun prop-up atas bantal. Kejab kejab jaga merengek. makan tak nyusu tak makan..asyik nak dukung.

The next day langsung aku gerak pi pakar. siap kena sound ni kira teruk ni..berdesut lagi jantung aku sebab biar anak aku suffer sepanjang malam. Sekali kuar bilik doktor, siap berkepuk kepuk ubat campur inhaler sampai 2. huhuhu rabak mak. tak pe laa...asal anak aku sihat.

Hari ni dah nampak cam ok sikit. laki aku dah gundah gulana dia takde geng nak main bola. harapnyer prevention medicine tu works laa. aminn

my latest project

THESE ARE MY LATEST BABIES!!!
UNFORTUNATELY (or should i say FORTUNATELY!!) belum sempat posted here dah abis kena beli ngan semua orang.
Prices range from RM6 -RM10 per piece.
Orders are available yea.

hari apa?

ini hari sabtu....

ini pulak hari ahad..

uwaa melompat la anak aku tengok wayang hari hari..

pray for her

i have come a long way to accept my condition. truth be told, i have not accepted it nor have i dont anything about it. I am plainly scared. Scared of the possibilities.

I have lumps on my breasts - more prominently on my right breast. i have done ct scan about a year ago and was confirmed of some shaded results on both breasts. The next step is to get it out via surgery so proper diagnosis can be done. My surgeon has reservation on operating on me. AS azhad is still breastfeeding, there is a possibility that the shaded areas on the scan report were my blocked milk duct and operation may caused the milk to seep out from the wound. Scary thought - i am not ready to endure that.

i am also not ready to wean off Azhad. As advised by the doctor, it will be better if the operation be done after i have fully wean him off milk. another excuse for me not to go for the surgery.

but deep down, i know my ultimate reason. I am scared of bad news. I am not ready to fight. I need my strength for the kids and not for this battle. not yet.

For several months i have been gathering strength by reading cancer-survivors blogs. to know more - on what to expect and simply how to survive.

A blogger who writes really well and fights damn hard is again faced with a challenge. Do pray for her ...and for me for more strength and courage.

grrrr

hari ni masuk kerja pukul 8.12. giler awal. la ni pukul 8.45 aku dah naik boring. semua blog dah abis aku khatam. siut nganga la aku satu hari ni.. ish..Kerja ada tapi semua dah delegate. huang huang huang.
tetiba terlapar nak makan chic chop keluang station la pulak. hmmm


cik yan; barang belum pos lagi laaaa..ada ni atas cabinet aku.

macam macam

Cerita macam-macam no. 1.

Alesha last week tak mau pergi sekolah. ada la kot 2 hari dia pergi. the entire week tak pergi. macam-macam alasan la..termasuk la kena marah ngan teacher. aku malas nak layan sebab if kena marah pun, memang ada hal la tu.
hari ni pergi sekolah teacher cakap dia nangis last week sebab tak siap homework. lebih kurang sama dengan cerita dia la yg dia kena marah sebab tak siap kerja. Teacher cakap dia tak sempat nak marah anak aku dah melalak tak tentu pasal bila suruh pass up work. Ada kebenaran jugak tu sebab tau perangai melalak anak aku ada possibility dia buat camtu.
Hentam aje la alesha. tak di antar skolah kang serba serbi tak pandai. Academic tu aku tak berapa kisahkan sangat, after all, dia baru 3++ kan. Tapi social skills tu yg aku risau. Minah ni dah la surrounded with her sedara mara..tak reti nak carry herself socially.
Dia dah pandai A - Z and 1- 11. Boleh point the alphabet/number correctly. tapi dok sibuk eksyen nak sebut HBO/StarMovies sampai aku nak tengok tv pun potong stim. Number pandai hanya sampai 11 yea sebab lepas 11 dia jadik sixteen!. Mana dapat pun aku tak tau.

Cerita no 2
Gi tempah baju raya. aku ingat kan aku dah cukup kiasu tempah awal giler. rupannya tempat lain semua dah tak ambik tempahan. uwaaa tergezut aku. tema tahun ni kaler ijau. sungguh la aku tak berapa berkenan. tapi memikir semua warna lain dah try lepas kawen ni (alaa baru 4 kaler jek..kawin pun baru 4 taun) aku on aje la cakap laki aku.

cerita no. 3
Last week cuti sensorang kat umah aku hentam re arrange furniture. nak patah pinggang aku heret kusi meja. tapi ok la jugak in anticipation of raya. naik bosan dah aku tengok rumah aku selebet serabai dikerjakan azhad. bawah kusi bukak bukak pintu je dah nampak ketul ketul toys bawah kusi. aku alihkan kusi lekat dekat dinding. hehhehe..memang still berlambak toys, tapi takde la sakit mata aku nengok toys bawah kusi bila bukak bukak pintu.

cerita no. 4
Laki aku dok war war nak cat rumah raya ni. ada ke nak cat time raya. ilang akal ke? mau tak puasa aku mengecat rumah. tapi aku rasa cam tak berjaya je cadangan nak cat umah ni. tak start start pun planning nyer lagi. nak cat kaler apa je? kaler ijau gak ke? kuang kuang kuang..

yang sepatutnya

ni yg sepatutnya di pos berbulan bulan dulu.
kepada penerima..sorri la..aku takut tak sempat nak tunggu kaler idaman ko...ko dah meletup. if ni ko tak suka..agak-agak ko pakaila waktu basuh pinggan ke...lipat baju (..dalam gelap ke..) or waktu waktu seangkatan dengannya..