Thursday, November 26, 2009

loveless us

Ive been married for more than 5 years and have been with the same guy for total of close to 15 years. Of course married life has its ups and downs. sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit kata orang. with 2 kids and more we are planning..i am ok with my life now.

but i often wonders about people around me. I have at least 4 friends who are in a loveless marriage. Yes they go about living life like anyone else. they have the occasional sex and good times vacationing and such, but being a friend whom they shared intimate stories - i just dont see love in their eyes anymore.

One outrightly declared so that she is in because of money. not to blame her since we all have loans under shared names. I was even the one who asked her to stay in the relationship when she was talking about divorce and such. Looking at her situation, i couldnt really put the fault on her. His infidelity was the breaking point.

One because of the kids. Well..we all love our kids dont we. but i just dont know how you can go home and stay loyal to a person you are not in love with. i think thats an affair-waiting to happen, but what can i say. at least he is a good father. A good husband - maybe so too, but i really couldnt blame him if he do have an affair one day. I guess, thats what happened after 10 years if u married someone 'because it was the right time' to do so.

One jumped head down into marriage life though i think it was the biggest mistake of his life. and the fact that the wifey is close to 10 years older than him will not be helping at all. Now he is lovey dovey and even expecting first born less than 5 months after being married. 2nd biggest mistake i see coming. But i couldnt be telling him that since kids shouldnt the be problems. They have bring me heavenly joy so far.

But we all know raising a kid (or kids) is not an easy tasked. most couple even fight over matters concerning kid. that will add more pressure to an already 'steaming' condition. I just hope he will be a good husband and a loyal one too.

One is still married though i really dont see the point if both of them are flirting and having relationship with other people. The relationship is a puzzle to me even.

I dont know what i will do if im in such situation. do i expect love or loyalty? could i live with just one or will i just wither and lose all hope?

Will you be in a relationship if u are not in love anymore and remain loyal though you know there is someone out there for you?

Thursday, November 12, 2009

make up case

ada idea tak nak beli make up case yang rupa camna?

semenjak menjak ngengada nak touch up muka ni, giler bersepah ok make up. rasa cam ada yang ilang lak sebab part tu kat beg ni, part yg tu lak kat beg ini, tapi yg paling menyakit hati bila brush aku kemek kemek beg tak cukup panjang nak simpan brush tu.

option no.1..beli something cam ni.


Ni kira standard make casela kan. tapi aku dok pikir-pikir time travelling, ala ala ngengada nak make up muka cam burung merak color color itu ini, mesti laki aku hangin satu badan tak pasal pasal kena tambah satu luggage.tapi if letak kat rumah aje, confirm cam tersusun aje mak bapak berus ntah apa apa dalam beg aku tu kan. tapi dok pikir pikir balik cam tak cukup ke commpartment nak simpan brush tu. kang kemek lagi brush aku


Option no. 2 : standard cam ni lak


Lebih kurang cam yang no. 1 tadi la, tapi ala ala clear gitu, aku boleh la humban semua masuk. brush aku pun dah memang casing..ngan casing casing aku boleh campak dlm tu. tapi isu time nak travel nanti la. kena makan penyepak aku kang. oohh no no no..saya tak leh downsize make up saya time travel yea. kot la laki aku tetiba suh dress up gaya maut..kang ke nyesal tak cukup 'ammunition'.

option 3: ala ala beg komputer cam ni


memang menarik sebab boleh himpap masuk beg besar time travel. tapi aku dokpikir, if aku simpan kat rumah, tak ke serabut atas meja ada beg pc gabak cam ni. pastu lak, tetiba lak aku terasa nak bawak makeup kat opis, tertinggal lak dalam keta, tak pasal pasal keta aku kena pecah orang nak pau beg ni sebab ingat beg komputer. itu yang cakap cerita semua make up aku ilang ok. mau menangis kuar mata darah aku kang..

cam na eh? korang yang perasan vogue tu simpan make up kat mana?

btw: credit kepada owners of the pictures ok.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Oppss Dia dah Kantoi

oohh baru sekejapan tadi bloghopping..tetiba sangkut lak ngan blog minah ni yang baru aje masuk family aku..ohh sila jangan tanya banyak banyak, sah sah nanti kang aku lak kantoi mengata orang.

Tapi really eh..kalau orang cakap 'cakap malam pandang pandang' (hehe betul ke ni?) cakap dalam blog lagi kena cover. Hmmm ni yg buat aku nak caras entry lama lama tu.

Aku takde la nak blame minah ni coz aku paham la yang dia nak lepas tensi..tapi apa hal kutuk family aku weh!!

FIRST RULE : ko bukan kawen ngan dia aje..KO KAWEN NGAN FAMILY DIA TERMASUK LA SEPUPU SEPAPAT ETC ETC ETC. if rasa rasa nak kawen sendiri, pi kawen lari, balik register, pastu tinggal la kat ulu perlis ke mana..aku rasa cam aku takde la sedara mara ..yang jugak sedara mara laki ko kat sana.

SECOND RULE: so what kalau kawen orang sini sana bising. Itu la namanya cabaran. CINTA sampai nak muntah pun if ko tak masuk kan elemen elemen luaran tu, ko takkan tahu tahap cinta ko tu. Masa tu la ko nak test power, betul ke aku ni dah sedia..betul ke budak jantan ni responsible? ini belum lagi cabaran lepas kawen. Ishhh masalah sebelum kawen tu sekelumit aje la. Masalah anak..masalah time..dapat lak anak sakit..uwahhh boleh rasa nak letak kepala dalam pasir ok!!

THIRD RULE: tak de third rule. Aku cuma nak cakap pandai pandai la bawak diri. Dah la ko kawen ngan di antara yg ter kecik in the family, sedar sedar memang ramai la 'PENASIHAT TAK RASMI'. rasa rasa tak mau dengar, time masalah jangan lak datang jumpa family. Ini kes lempang pun, nak jumpa aku, kes tangkap polis aku gak..itu belum kes nak pinjam duit lagi. Sendiri mau ingat la.

hmm sapa agaknya sedara mara aku yg baca blog aku?hmm..nasib korang la yea. aku tak jemput sangat pun. if ada yg rasa rasa sentap tu..silala buat blog n kutuk aku cam aku kutuk minah tu. hahhaha