Wednesday, December 31, 2008

tag fid

Dari Fid (mekasey yea...ada gak orang ingat kat aku huhuhu):

Syarat dan peraturan:
1. Apabila telah terpilih dengan malangnya, silalah menulis 16 perkara paling rawak sama ada tentang fakta, perangai tak senonoh ataupun hala tuju hidup anda.
2. Silalah hasut 16 orang lain untuk melakukan perkara ini - sah sah ni tak mampu buat. Tak terhasut seramai tu la..cyber frens aku kenkorong je laa
3. Sila tanda manusia yang telah menanda anda di peringkat awal - dah tanda dah.tuu atas tu
.4. Ketahuilah, jika anda terpilih ia adalah kerana anda juga manusia biasa yang perlukan perhatian dan kasih sayang yang secukupnya ketika bayi.
Here goes
1. Aku ni sewel sket. Aku suspek aku ada angin meroyan. Ada masa-masa aku akan mengamuk/moody/ overly sensitif. Ni bukan datang bulan tau. Ni meroyan tak tentu pasal sampai penah rasa nak terjun bangunan. Laki aku tak caya..tapi kenkawan aku yg 2 3 kerat tu tau la kenapa bila kenkadang aku kena di'entertain'kan untuk mengelakkan aku ter-royan.
2. Aku ada masalah untuk meneruskan friendship. Cam korang ni kan..aku mesti ter-eksyen kalau jumpa 1st time. tapi aku memang cenggitu. nak warm up tunjuk true kaler slow sket
3. Aku kalau nervous aku akan cakap non stop. Haaa kalau korang jumpa aku 1st time, aku cakap tak tentu hala ntah apa apa siap cakap omputeh lagi, tu maknanya aku nervous/panic
4. Aku suka menari dan perasan aku ada groove.. hahaha.
5. Aku suka heart-2-heart. Tapi takde orang nak layan aku. huhuh so slalu aku heart-2-heart ngan girlfrens aku yg masih single mingle le. Kekadang kalau girls nite out siap boleh mengupas hati dan perassan character movie/story books tu. ntah apa pekdahnya aku pun tak tau.
6. Aku ada short attention span. If buat MCQ masa sekolah dulu, apa ketikanya aku tak baca soklan pun, aku main tick aje. sampai la la ni.Sebab tu aku gagal PTD test. hahaha
7. Aku suka makan. hahahha..obvious giler la kan. apa maknanya aku bagitau benda ni pun aku tak paham.
8. Aku jumpa laki aku masa aku part-time tunggu SPM result. hahahha...dah naik muak dah dia tengok muka aku-aku rasa.
9. Aku suka kawan ngan korang. ececece..walaupun sememangnya aku tak sangat melayan gathering jumpa jumpa party dan sebagainya, gamaknya kalau keta korang rosak depan umah aku dan aku ada umah, boleh la call aku naik umah aku minum air.
10. Aku ada very high self esteem. Aku perasan aku cantek, aku kurus, aku pandai aku la segala-galanya. Tapi sebenarnya la kan, aku rasa aku ni ada very low self esteem. So in order to present myself in public, aku kena la meng-high-kan self esteem aku. make sense tak aku cakap ni?
11. Aku sangat sangat sangat sayang bapak aku. walaupun..ni tak yah citer kat sini la kan.
12. Aku sangat independent. kalau saya ambik rm laki saya pun, saya rasa nak bayar balik. hampeh betul aku ni..Untung ko laki!!
13. Aku malu nak sebut pekerjaan aku dan malu kalau orang cakap ko kan..ehem ehem. ?
14. Aku hanya ada 2 pairs jeans yg aku pakai sekali setahun agaknya sebab suami saya tak suka saya pakai jeans.
15. Aku memang tak suka ber sporting. tapi laki saya sangatlah sporty orangnya. sampaikan dia membelikan saya 3 pasang kasut sport yg berjenama. apa kah maknanya aku ada sampai 3 sneakers tapi tak memakai jeans? paham dak
16.Aku suka projects. Ni aku mentafsirkan sebagai attempt aku untuk curb meroyan aku. So if im busy aku tak melayan perasaan meroyan sangat. ritu aku giler baking. pastu giler manik, la ni tengah giler tudung DIY.

Wokey..sudah cukup kan 16?

Fid..aku raihan yang apa? hehehhehehh ngengada nye haku ini.

Monday, December 29, 2008

home alone

i am home alone with 2 sleeping kids. One is hanging by his mouth to my chest as if his dear life depends on it. Whilst the other one is hugging my left arm as if my arm is her life support machine. Yes people, i am super woman who can type with only her right hand. Too many days of IRC-ing back in college years i must say!!

Hubby is out with his friend to a massage parlor. Hehhehe bunyi KTV je sebut massage parlor. He is out getting his feet (and and maybe body) massage. Called me while he was doing fish spa and called me again to let me know his massage turn is up. Hehehhe..i bet itu perasaan guilty yang mencengkam sebab moi have to stay home with kids.

But as usual, i am very good at manuevering the kids to sleep. Azhad is pretty simple case of drugging him to sleep. Best drug ever!! hehhehe..susu gantung moi is the best drug to put him to sleep.

Alesha ..well..i dont think she would be sleeping yet but for the little trick i used. heheh bad mama. Its the cat behind you trick!!Simply tunjuk n cakap Sha cat kat belakang.. she was jumping with fright and terselit celah ketiak sampai tertido ketakutan. Its simply ridiculopus since we are in the living room before the tv. Mana la pulak nak datanng cat.hehe. Asalkan menjadi for them to go to sleep. lantaklak.

and Alesha, in case your kids and husband asked u where/how u got your cat phobia, just know that on Saturday 28 December 2008, while u were seating cutely on the 2 chairs papa stacked up for u, di Gerai Kondo tunggu order dinner kita, a cat sneaked up behind u with u realising it only after several seconds. Itu pun after mama terperanjat beruk dengan menjerit sedikit ketakutan yang telah menambahkan ketakutan Sha

Sunday, December 28, 2008

u jump i jump

Aku baru lepas layan U JUMP I JUMP. hahhahha..sorry yea..bukan mak yg tekan remote, laki mak yg ngengada nak layan sementara nak tunggu bola dia on air.

fakta menarik yang aku telah rumuskan selepas menonton kali kedua selepas 10 tahun dengan status terkini bini orang anak 2

1. mende la bodo nak mampos si Rose tuh? takde survival instinct langsung. Demsel in distress sampai aku rasa nak cucuk bijik mata dia mongok sangat.
2. awatnya si jack bangang tu nak hop in skali naik atas plywood tu? lee first time memang la kena adjust adjust sesikit. yg si gemuk kegempul rose mangang tu pulak berat bontot nak gerak. (note: aku tak rasa pun si rose tu gemuk tapi sebab dia tu badan berat nak mampos nak jalan pun kena tarik tarik memang aku sakit hati)
3. kenapa la ko tak lompat awal-awal sambil pegang plywood mana-mana yg ko jumpa. kan senang tak yah nak rebut rebut pastu. macamla boat aje yg boleh terapung atas air. kayu atas dek tu pun buleh buat jadik rakit la sengal!!
4. kenapa la sesapa tak baling je kepala anak kapal ngan memana plywood bagi pengsan diaorang tu yang sibuk dok suh orang calm down ngan pistol. Aku rasa kalau keadaan sebenar memang dah tak terkawal la dek rusuhan kan. (note: aku tau la keadaan sebenarnya memang cenggitu kot sebab dah ada rekod berapa banyak yg mati, tapi gamaknya nampak sangat la tongol orang orang mat saleh dan seangkatan dengannya ni. takde darah mat kilau tu!)

Ada banyak lagi la. tapi aku sepanjang-panjang citer tu asyik ngutuk je. as compared dedulu kala yang rasa uwaaaaa romantiknyaa...pooorahh!!

Laki aku lagi kelaka...siap buat statement..."eeee ngerinya.." and guess when he said that. Masa Rose mode tua jalan pakai nightie. Hahahah memang hampeh laki aku tau. Sakit tempat operation aku gelak.

Moral: U jump I take your Life Jacket la doink!!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

The Minah Saleh in Me

Ni surat aku yang tengah hangin. Apa point post ni? Hahahha..aku cam terkujat je aku leh marah cam omputih. kuikuikui..

22 December 2008

Aku Yang Tgh Geram & sakit


Ntah Apa-apa punya Insurance

Dear Sirs,

Appeal for Reimbursement of Medical Fees

I refer to the above matter.

For your information, I was admitted in Hospital Pusrawi Sdn Bhd (Pusrawi) on 15 December 2008 to undergo an ovarian cycst operation. I had on Friday, 12 December 2008 requested for a Guarantee Letter from MediXX Sdn Bhd (MediXX), to which MediXXX had faxed over a piece of paper I had forwarded to Pusrawi. I am unaware of the content of the letter and the purpose of the letter faxed by MediXXX.

The operation was a success and I was admitted in ward for 4 days until Thursday 19 December 2008. Upon my discharged, I discovered that MediXXX has refused to bear the costs of my operation totaling RM6,277.60. I was then forced to bear the costs as the Doctor in charged had signed off my discharged papers without having prior knowledge of the rejection by MediXXX.

I had immediately contacted one Dr. Andrew from MediXXX to express my dissatisfaction on this issue. Upon my conversation with Dr. Andrew, he informed that he had issued the rejection letter as the description stated by my Doctor was Dermoid Cycst, as in my request for GL faxed on 12 December 2008. He further informed that such cycst was a congenital defect which was not covered by the insurance.

His explanation was a shock to me, as even as layman I know that my condition only occurred during the later term of my third pregnancy (1st pregnancy was a miscarriage) and one month after I had my second baby through my post natal check-up. I have without failed consulted doctors on monthly basis for all my pregnancies where ultra sounds were conducted each time (within the time span of 3 years) and none until my recent pregnancy, I was told of my condition. To be informed that my condition was congenital and not worth the insurance coverage was simply unbelievable.

I believe Dr. Andrew had mistakenly endorsed the GL-Rejection letter without full information of my case. I seriously believe that initiatives should have been taken by this Dr. Andrew or any representative from MediXXX to confirm my situation as he had full 6 days (including weekends) subsequent to my request for GL and prior to my discharge to clarify the matter to me or to my Doctor.

I have then further seek explanation by my Doctor namely Doctor Habibah Abd Ghani of my condition, which she confirmed not a congenital defect. I am neither from the Medical field nor have the basic knowledge to explain my condition, but I believe that my case worth to be assessed again as the initial assessment from MediXXX has been done hastily.

Therefore, I wish to submit my appeal for the medical fees (as enclosed) incurred for the operation to be reimbursed by your good company. I enclosed herewith the supporting letter from Doktor Habibah to reaffirm my condition. Please feel free to call me directly or Doktor Habibah of Pusrawi personally to obtain clear picture of my condition in your assessment of my appeal.

I await a favorable reply from your goodselves.


Thank you.


Nama aku


c.c Office aku


memang jahanam la si andrew tu. Aku memang tak pedulik nak letak nama betul dia. Kot iye ke nama betul. Dia ingat dia tu ala ala Doktor Phil Oprah Winfrey je ke nak go by 1st name aje. Mamposs la ko kat situ.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Komen aku tentang post cik Non

Sebab aku ni giler glamer, aku pasti-pasti comment aku yang dah terlambat sokmo ni takkan dibaca orang kat blog kak non (wei kak oi - aku confirm confirm ko tue dari aku sket lps baca tag mu ittew, tapi sebab dah semua orang -ececece cam ramai amat - terpanggey kak non aku continue aje la) almaklumlah ada 23 comments dah pun!! Lagi satu, aku tak reti nak link link yea, korang pepandai la carik sapa Kak Non sebab aku tak leh nak include blog dia dlm list aku kerana bedebah mike haru yang blue tu still akan kuar sementelaah aku cuba berkali-kali mengcorrectkan address ko Kak Non.

OK..here goes yea. Eh sebelum tu, sesiapa yg terasa pedas sini sana kerana telah membuat komen itu selepas membaca komen aku, anggap aje la ada benda yg anda tak tau nyata dan ada benda yg memang anda akan tertau lepas baca post aka komen aku ni hokey..tarak hurt(heart?) feelings wokey

OM5 punya connection ngan sedara mara tu dengan itu nyer company memang tak benar sebenar benarnya. Kalaupun apa asas pertubuhan company itu ada percampuran OM5 dan sedara maranya (yang aku sendiri tak tau yea) , mungkin secara kebetulan. MUNGKIN kerana aku tak tau la..OM5 tu bukan sedara aku.

tapi YANG NYATA, mereka yg bekerja kat kompeni tu semua makan gaji dan memang ikhlas untuk menaikkan integriti halal. Kalaupun ada sengal sengal kat sini sana yg cakap diaorang tu busines minded la etc la , TOLONGLAH PERCAYA DAN YAKIN bahawa integriti Halal itu terjaga. company konon konon tu sungguh nak bantu orang Islam Malaysia dan aim utamanya adalah untuk pastikan produk Halal Malaysia dikeluarkan oleh orang Islam dan kalau bukan orang Islam, dari pengeluar yang mematuhi peraturan pengeluaran produk makanan Halal yang diiktiraf Jabatan Standard dan ada ISO nyer. tak yah la aku tulis apa coding guide tu yea kekawan..tak masuk periksa pun. Dan tak payah la jugak aku mengexplain significant Guide ni sebagai ISO iktiraf sebab aiyahhhh tu dah nak masuk chapter lain tuh dan separuh orang dapat bayaran ok buat benda tu!!!!

YANG NYATA nya, produk halal di malaysia dan negara luar dipelopori oleh orang BUKAN ISLAM. Ini ada statistik yang aku tak kuasa nak bagi kat sini sebab aku ni bukan buat laporan kat MIDA hahahhaha...So part of the mission kompeni tu ialah memastikan pengeluar halal ini orang Islam. Sasaran peringkat antarabangsa kompeni ni ialah memastikan produk Halal segempaq kosher. Kalau korang yg tinggal obersee tu, maybe bboleh confirm kan la yg korang kekadang lagi nampak & consume Kosher dari halal sebab Halal tarak. Aku ada statistik nyer jugak purata Kosher dan Halal products internationally. tapi tak kuasa aku nak quote la kan.

YANG NYATAnya, Islam ni ada pelbagai mazhab. Aku sah sah la bukan pakar bab ni. Aku nak cakap yg Pak arab tu bukan amal islam betul, samalah aku rasa cam Pak arab tu kata kita tak amal islam betul. Korang pahamtak? Bagi pak arab, katak memang dia boleh telan. babi memang boleh dia pegang. Babi pada diaorang memang tak leh makan je. So jangan terkujat lak dan cakap pak arab bukan Islam (kalau dah memang bukan Islam lain hal la kan) kalau dia pakai kasut pig lining. Yang pasal minum arak tu, aku tak leh nak cakap panjang sebab aku tak de ilmu pasal ni. tapi untuk makluman korang, Majlis Fatwa sendiri tak sebut dengan jelas berapa % alcohol yang tak dibenarnya. cuma sebut 'sedikit' aje. So sedikit engkau ngan sedikit aku beza kan? Tolong tegur aku kalau reference pada Majlis Fatwa tu salah. Tapi terkini yang aku tahu, memang diaorang tengah bincang nak decide berapa is 'sedikit'. Jangan melompat dulu, tunggu keputusan yang muktamad.

YANG NYATAnya, negara kita ni sangat disegani di mata antarabangsa tentang kearifan kita tentang halal. Aku rasa pasal inilah si OM5 itu telah mengambil kesempatan dan menubuhkan kompeni untuk ride on this fact. BUkan untuk kepentingan peribadi, tapi untuk kepentingan orang Islam Malaysia dari segi ekonomi secara amnya. Ini pendapat peribadi ok. so korang tak leh nak gaduh ngan aku pasal ni. Sukati aku la nak bagi pendapat lagu mana. JAKIM tak leh nak take on this sebab mandat JAKIM tu hanyalah kemajuan Islam Malaysia. Dah namanya gitu kan. So kat Malaysia je lah kuasa JAKIM tu. Dari itu, untuk mengenengahkan Islam Malaysia diperingkat antarabangsa, makanya korang dengar la itu perkataan Hub Halal. Tak kuasa aku nak terangkan apa Hub Halal tu la. cari sendiri la kat suratkabar lama. Kemajuan kita ni bukan saja pada Guide yang kita telah developed, tapi kemajuan sains & teknologi yang kita telah bawa. Korang jangan tak tau, saintis kita dah cipta macam-macam dalam bidang Halal ni. Aku penah tengok mata kepala sendiri ada alat yang boleh sniff - ya betul BAU produk n tau berapa banyak kebabian di dalam produk itu. Dalam bidang pharmaseutikal jugak kita sangat hebat. Ko ingat kapsul halal mende kejadah tu sapa yg research? Kompeni Malaysia jugak.

YANG NYATANYA undang-undang Malaysia ni ada sikit bengong. Again ini pendapat peribadi Pasni aku masuk ISA, aku pasti. Segala benda dalam ruang lingkup Islam adalah dibawah kuasa YM SUltan negeri masing-masing. Of course, federal states tak termasuk. So bila ko sebut Halal, makanya Sultan aje yang ada kuasa. Susulan dari itu, mestila ada masalah sket pasal penguatkuasaan. Orang-orang JAKIM (dan even kompeni ni pun) tak leh buat apa-apa sebab diaorang takde kuasa untuk impose punishment atas kesalahan yang tidak diklasifikasikan dibawah kuasa mereka. JAKIM kan di bawah federal. Pehal pulak nak gi ambik tindakan atas kompeni yang terletak di say...Perak..Haaa sah sah itu negeri Bulan. Nak carik pasal ke apa?

YANG NYATAnya lagi..JAKIM pun tarak kuasa enforcement. Yang ada kuasa ialah KPDNHEP bawah akta ehemm (lets not get technicalla yea) itupun enforcement power hanyalah sekiranya penggunaan Halal itu pada produk tak halal. Kiranya kalau ko letak Bismillah pada makanan tu, dan memang makanan tu disembelih mengikut sharak, memang kira halal la. Tapi kalau letak bismillah dan tak halal, kalau korang adu kat KPDNHEP, barulah boleh buat tindakan. Itupun aku nak ingatkan korang, Halal nyer tu bukan la se'HAlal' mengikut Guide yang aku cakap tu. Halal kalau seperti yang dedifinisikan oleh Guide tu adalah mengikut sharak dan bersih. Kalau sembelih ikut sharak pastu baling ayam kat lantai penuh taik ayam TAK HALAL ya puan-puan (dan tuan tuan kalaulah ada).

YANG NYATAnya, kita tak ada kuasa undang-undang untuk compel orang mengeluarkan produk makanan Halal sahaja. Itu in contradiction dengan Federal Constitution yea korang - hak berugama. Kita ni memang nampak Halal ni sebenarnya dari segi ekonomi dan pengeluaran makanan, tapi orang lain nampak - pehal ko nak suruh aku kuar makanan ikut itu agama Islam. Aku ni kristian, nak tarbiyah aku masuk islam la tu, Eh mana hak beragama aku - Ini adalah diantara argumen yang aku boleh nampak la. Sementelaah itulah, mana-mana kerajaan pun Tak kisah la dacing ke bulan jatuh ke riba ke, bahkan roket ke bulan pun (kalau la mika teringin nak wajibkan Halal) tak kan MAMPU berbuat demikian.

Wah..cukup tak aku jawab komen-komen yang banyak kat post Kak Non. aku dah penat nak baca satu-satu la weh. Kalau aku tertinggal, sorry la. nak pasti makanan betul halal? potong ayam sendiri, kisar tepung sendiri (halal tu masuk bersih tau, aku rasa kilang tepung tu takyah pikir la bersih ke idak) dan buat segala mak datuk raw materials sendiri. Tak pun, ko boleh jadik cam aku, yang yakin dan suci hati dan serah semuanya pada Allah.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Tentang Perut

The ordeal is done

I planned to write about it before the actual event took place, but due to time constraint, i havent been able to do so. Yess.. i have cut myself up (not me la!! the doctor!!) and took out the growing cycst from my left ovary yesterday at 12.00 noon.

Itu pun main tipu siap kena sound ngan doktor eh lambat ye..hahahha..kena la pulak aku ngelat cakap anak aku demam smalam pagi tadi nak ngurus dia makan ubat bagai. In a way not entirely a lie coz alesha monday morning memang badan suam suam dan aku yg termalas ni telah menidurkan diri aku lepas alarm bunyi pukul 7 pagi and later woke up at close to 830 am - aku supposed to be warded at 830 and operation scheduled at 10.00 am

nothing visual to write about as mak yang rabun ini telah dipaksa membuka specknye before operation. sheesh apa daa..tapi on 2nd thought bagus gak so i dont see all them scary needles. hahhaha..

the usual, masuk OT kena buat drip insertion. Ini je dah mentraumatisekan aku yg memang tau my precious veins ni susah nk dicari. so after 3 attempts sampai tangan aku bengkak bengkak, IV itu baru berjaya dimasukkan. Not blaming the doctor coz im so used to this.

Lepas tu the epidural injection. Adeeeiii..aku memang tobat la nak beranak normal kalaulah that is the same injection yg korang ambik masa beranak c-sect. sakit nye tak leh nak cakap la , and what i hate most is the numb feeling bila ubat dah masuk. Tapi nye kalau tak numb kang, tercabut lak nyawa aku masa operation tu dak? hahaha

Bila dah start nak numb tu, barula baring and the nurses prep itu ini. Tapi aku pelik satu ajelah...wajib ke OT tu sejuk cam tu? kalau tak sejuk tak leh ke? aku sampai clatter teeth ni tahan sejuk tau.

Bila doktor dah masuk, barulah the real deal begun. tapi aku rasa yg ni la cam tak happening sangat- simply because by then dah tak rasa apa-apa. But i know she said my right ovary cantek (direct quote ok! aku rasa makna nya normal la tu) my tiub pun ok (uwaaa boleh beranak banyak ni!!) and the cycst looks a bit like hati ayam size besar sket (ter off aku nak telan hati ayam pas ni)

tapi as expected, aku muntah masa operation. i have a very low tolerancy towards bius ok. masa operation aku muntah, masa nak sorong balik bilik aku muntah, pendek kata aku muntah sampai malam la!. sakit? Jangan cakap la..tak belah perut pun sakit kalau muntah, ini kan pulak perut terbelah sambil muntah. By 4 pm tu epidural pun dah wore off, so aku memang in pain la and in hunger!! bayangkan last meal aku pukul 11.30 malam Senin, pukul 11.30 malam Selasa pun tak makan lagi tau.

Now at 3.00 pm, IV dah dibuka, salur kencing pun dah bukak. I have been walking bit by bit cam nenek tua. Now am seating down while writing this. Malam ni hopeful aku boleh bawak hantu susu tu tido ngan aku kat spital. SIL kat umah report dia sibuk tarik baju orang nak susu memalam. hahahha...Rindu pulak aku kat bebudak ni.

p/s : fid& fara, gamba awning tu nanti-nanti la aku upload ok

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Tentang Cinta

uWAA rasa cam berzaman tak memblog. so will do this in segments (kalau aku ada mood la yea)

Last friday was my last official day in the office for this year. I am writing this post while seated on my not so comfy dinner chair yg tak tarak span and lappy on a dinner table yang penuh dengan dishwears aku dan segala mak datok benda yg aku fikirkan takkan dicapai oleh Azhad yang masih lagi muat diletakkan di atas meja ni.

First thing first, hubby got back from his la-la fun land holiday with his friends early this month. Aku yg terhegeh-hegeh menjaga 2 budak yg sangatlah tak reti perkataan NO and tercicir kain nak kejar dateline kerja dek nak bercuti panjang terpaksa redha dengan mencipankan diri dan mengambil kesempatan umah inlaw yang sepelaung sahaja jauhnya itu telah membuat muka tak malu dengan berkhemah selama 2 hari kat sana. heheh..hari jumaat after work aku telah mengelat kali ke 2 dengan membribe anak-anak buah cik abang dengan piza yg telah dimakan oleh Cik Erna kita iter (serious aku memang terliur piza itew okeh!! pastu kupon tu lak asyik buat nak order lagi & lagi & lagi!!) untuk spend the nite at my house supaya aku boleh la mengemas rumah sebelum kekasih aku tu balik bergumbira ngan kenkawannya and the kids can entertain anak-anak burung aku yg sentiasa ketagihan attention tu.

Sungguhpun aku dah nak sampai tahap meroyan Mizz Britney menjaga anak (hahaha sah sah tak leh jadik SAHM) tapi aku rasa ok gaks kalau me and hubby ada this time for ourselves once a year (heheh..yang sebetulnya aku dah plan nak gi holiday ngan my girlfrens lepas budak nyonyot tu wean off). After err soooo many yearsss of together and 4 years as a married couple, aku cam dah write off la wish list nak dengar suara laki aku kala usia percintaan baru 2 tahun. Alaa..time time gayut phone sampai telinga rasa panas tapi suara mantain je ayu and manja walhal badan dah melepek penat bercakap berjam jam. Hehehhe..alaaa..korang pun tau la kan aku maksudkan apa ni.

Rupanya distance (and maybe a speck of guilty consciense kerana meninggal anak-bini dirumah) boleh menyemarakkan perasaan..hahahhaa..well..nak kata dia tu bertepuk sebelah tangah , tak la gak..aku ni pun dah tahap tepuk kaki dan tangan dah ni!! eeehhh mestila rindukan..laki aku!! siap call hari hari tu..cam la dok dalam satu malaysia cakap telephone. Mau tobat pasni lepas tengok bill hp. hahahha..padan muka aku.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

entry sakit hati

U all know im wearing today to work, right? But i have to confess that i dont wear one when im out and about during weekends or after office hour. There were even times, when i wore tudung 1 time and just pulled it off my head and shoved in my beg.

Does that make me a hypocrite? I dont know and i dont care to answer (nor i want you guys to answer too coz this is just one of the question that should be left unanswered if you dont want to be deleted from my bloglist - hehehhe..this does not come from me but from the result of that Blog Personality that i took la..)

A dear friend once called me a pretender and a person who is lost in her identity. I took no offense (well- a bit offended NOT because of being called as such but the gall of another person to streotype another person). I am not a pretender and most definitely know who i am and how to dress my self.

There were also people who gave me this 'look' when they see me without my headcover. This offense me most as opposed to the remark by the friend.

There were also people who placed me on a 'league' of my own. READ = i am such a bad-ass person and its not worth to even speak to me. This i dont mind coz a person of such narrowed mind does not even worth a blink of my one EYE. Sebelah mata pun aku tak sudi nak kawan ngan ko ok!!

The point in writing this? PEOPLE.. PLEASE MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS. I could be going Pamela Lee decotelege (eh- ni ke ko spell nyer?) one time and my jubah one time.. but serious people, ini kubur aku (READ= aku memang tak suka nak pakai perkataan kubur ke apa ke sebab aku tau ini memang arrogant nak mampos n cam nak mencabar agama kita - tapi u get what i mean)

And for those who do not say anything and still hang out ngan aku despite my kejab ada kejab takde tudung - and for knowing i am more than my sexy baju when i dont wear my tudung and my muslimah tudung when im putting my tudung on - Thank you n May God Bless You.

Friday, November 28, 2008

NITE FEEDING - EBM

Saya rasa saya tanya kat sini je lah. tak yah bukak thread baru. Rasa dah baca semua post kat thread ni tapi tak cakap pun camna aturan ebm masa waktu malam. camna u guys buat? Baby tak jerit-jerit ke memalam waktu kita perangatkan ebm? ada advice tak on fastest way to prepare ebm?

hEHHEHE di atas adalah post aku di forum yang sangat di'sukai' oleh Fid. (kuikuikui). But seriously, camna aku nak have the fastest ebm nite feeding? Semalam aku buat trial-run, he woke up about 5 times, but not for constant feeding, merely suckling 5 minutes cam tu je. Aku dok memikirkan cara nak menyenangkan my SIL since u'll know la the pressure suh aku stop ebm to Azhad. Akku tak mau le benda-benda yang overly nyusahkan dia ni meng-demotivated kan dia untuk tolong aku continue bf azhad.

aku merasakan begini tau aku nak buat:

Option A:
Simpan 2 -3 0z dalam 3 -4 botol. Botol tak payah letak dlm fridge. Biar kat room temp. So bila dia nak minum, sumbat aje the room temp ebm

Kerisauan 1
Tapi tahan ke ebm tu? FYI, aku tak rasa its gonna be fresh ebm. MEsti aku ambik dari freezer and leave to thaw kat luar aje until its time to be consumed. Apa yg aku risau, ialah ebm yg dah dekat2 subuh n early morning tu

Option B:
Simpan all ebm dlm peti. Put 1 ebm dalam bottle warmer on constant on - slow heat. Bila dia nangis pukul 2-3 am tu, straight sumbat. (provided tak terlalu panas la). Lepas pakai that ebm, immediately top-up new ebm dlm bottle warmer untuk next feeding time.

Kerisauan 1:
Bottle warmer tu akan keep warm ke? atau off automatik kalau dia dah panas. Camni basi la kan kalau dia auto off bila dah panas?

Kerisauan 2:
Kalau dia keep warm, boleh minum lagi ke ebm tu kalau dia dah on warmer for more than 1 hour? tu kan?

camna orang kat umah korang handle ebm untuk korang masa malam if korang takde?

cam tak betul aje

Your Blogging Type is Pensive and Philosophical
You blog like no one else is reading...
You tend to use your blog to explore ideas - often in long winded prose.
Easy going and flexible, you tend to befriend other bloggers easily.
But if they disagree with once too much, you'll pull them from your blogroll!
I have been wayyyyyyyyy too busy with work to actually update my blog. So much to tell and so little time. and when i have the time, the muse seems to be withering away. sheesh..

i have promised to update some pic on my latest tudung craze..despite the norm of people scratching their faces or plastering smileys all over them, i am the brave few (ahaks!) who will embrace my ketembamam (ahaks! lagi) and have it criticised by the entire world (macamla ramai naa yg baca blog aku)
the pic here is my version of anak tudung + munawarah outer layer
material : vericose rm45 p/mtr (typo tu abaikan - asalkan ko paham)
Awning; kain langsir (hehehe) rm2.80 p/mtr
type : short tudung (i.e. cover neck and rambut kat blakang je
Awning is a bit tebal. U have to press when ironing to get the crisp finishing. Good value since u can use the in/out sides. In side a bit on greyish part. Out side a bit blueish .Im thinking blue/grey/black/cream (there are creamy/white dots on the material) tudung to match the awning if u plan to have long/big sekali sarung tudung type. (i prefer short tudung + separate outer layer)
Yang ni vericose material jugak for both Awning & Short tudung
I wear this with a long printed scarf - printed strategicly placed cascading down by shoulder & head. Lupa lak nak tangkap entire look.
(FID/MEK: when i said my tudung jadik muncung - please see this and the subsequent picture. I tried taking out my glasses but still jadik ropa gini)
Awning: Brocade Rm45 (+-) p/mtr
Tudung: Jersey RM45(+-) p/mtr
Style: short tudung worn with long scarf too. (moi loves the color combination and total effect of this look)
I have another 2 long tudungs made with lower/cheepo jersey material of RM2.50 p/mtr. Pictures tak sempat nak d/load from my camera. Will do later maybe (or not)
as for the above pictures, please dont misinterpret the blurry-ness as my attempt to cover my vogue-ness (haha) it was simply because my h/p (with which i took the above pictures) was covered with slime-my (dey camna nak spell benda ni daa) from Azhad's mouth. Jahanam hp haku.
There goes. Janji telah ditunaikan. Will update more if ada hasil yg menarik selepas ini.

Monday, November 24, 2008

sepetang ahad yg lalu

video

A day at burger king@ where the parents were happily eating their hearts out.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Tiny Me

My supplier came just now.

so this is my weight after 7 days into HL

Day 1

weight: 74.5kg
water: 40.9
organ's fat: 10
Muscle: 39.2
Physical :3
BMR: 1330/5565

Week 1
weight: 73.7kg
water: 41.2
organ's fat: 9
Muscle: 39
Physical :3
BMR: 1321/5565

i only know the significant of the 1st 2s. Yang lain ntah apa maknanye dah. So this week's resolution = TAKE 2 HL IN 1 DAY

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Tiny Me

NOTE: ALL MY HL POSTS WILL BE TAGGED TINY ME. FEEL FREE NOT TO READ SINCE MOST OF THE RAMBLINGS ARE FOR MY PERSONAL REFERENCE ONLY.


7 days into HL and i have yet to follow the routine. Grrrrr.. it seems im having problem of taking 2 shakes in 1 day and still feel the temptation to munch. My craving for sweet things have not been curbed. Just yesterday, i grabbed 4 big cornflakes cookies after my HL shakes. arrghhh!!! MUST. BE. STRONG.

For my record:

DAY 2
B/fast : f1
Lunch: 1/2 mee goreng mamak
Dinner: Steamboat (makan cam nak muntah!!)
Water: 2 tea 1 h20

Day 3
B/fast : f1
Lunch: dave Deli roasted chicken
Dinner: Lauk pauk sahaja
Water: 2 tea 2 h20

Day 4 - weekend
B/fast : 1/2 roti canai 1/3 nasi lemak (uwaaaaaaaa)
Lunch: lauk pauk sahaja
Evening: cekodok pisang (uwaaaaaa)
Dinner: Steamboat (makan cam nak muntah!!)
Water: 1 tea 1 h20

Day 5 - weekend
B/fast : 3 slices of Toast'em
Lunch: lauk pauk / root beer A&W
Dinner: sup daging + 1/3 mee goreng
Water: 1 h20

Day 6
B/fast : NIL
Lunch: 1/2 rice, ayam goreng, 2 veggies
Dinner: HL, lauk pauk, 4 keping cornflake cookies (mati la akuuuu!!)
Water: 1 tea 1.5 h20

Now people, u see why i am fat. Weekends memang ke laut la jawabnya. And come couple of weeks, its birthdays times (the kids and anak buah 3 -4 orang) where for Segambut's clan it means makan-makan time.

untuk memburukkan lagi keadaan, i plan to bake brownies, pies, tarts, etc etc for the party. So i know the temptation will get to me. Cornflake cookies tu dah jadik habuan. And im telling ya, the big fat chuncks that i ate were the hangus batches. Imagine how many i can take if its the 'menjadik' batches. sheesshh... ni nak bertambah gemuk ke nak kurus ni!!!!!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Tiny Me

today would marked the day i put my foot down and start 'preserving' myself.


For my own record:

Bfast - 3 scopes of F1

Lunch - 1/2 plate rice/ikan bakar/pucuk manis

Dinner - small bowl of tomyam/5 ketul udang masak petai (ni mak metua masak - tak leh tahan aku)

Water consumption: 3 litres of Tea

My Stats:

Weight: 74.5 (yes people..i am THAT heavy!!)

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

the Razans Story

I havent been writing for quite some time. Reason no. 1 = my nites were bz with Singer. hehehhe not that my handiworks are anything to be impressed with - but somehow the satisfaction of sewing and wearing my own handiworks are just so satisfying. Maybe the novelty will wears off in couple of days but whatever it is, i have bought myself 1 singer. So im thinking baju gown for Alesha. But that is another story alltogether.

pic tudung yang dibuat. Sila abaikan tanganku yg dompot itu.

No. 2 = kids were ups and downs with fever. First it was Azhad, then Alesha, then Azhad again and so forth the 'trend' continued. I was catching one too last week that promted my MC untuk yang kesian kalinya. isk isk isk bad kpi. especially now its year end - assesment time.

no. 3 = i am simply busy. Works are mounting just when i am thinking of a long-awaited cycst operation that i should be 'suffering' last February. Yes..i have delayed THAT long. partly because im such a scaredy-cat (spelling peeps!!) a quarter because im afraid of the bulging-flapping tummy (as if la ni tak ada cam extra thick tongue on my middle part) and another 3 quarter (is that more that 1 full round already??) is because Azhad is still on susu ibu.

On that note, i have lost hope on trying to campur susu him. I mean i was trying (not much of an effort though - it was SIL yang beriya try) to mix his feed with FM. Bought a small can of Enfa and a total waste of my Rm49 (i think) as he hardly took a spoonful. So now im taking a more 'liberal' approach to just leave things as they are. Not getting much support from people around me though. coz MIL and my more than 2 SILs were bebeling that i should train him on FM especially since i will be hospitalised for more than 3 days. Arrgh..malas nak fikir. worse case scenario, i would just drag hubby to sleepy with me at the hospital and bring along a comforter and he and azhad can sleep on the floor and he to carry Azhad to me whenever he wants to susu. Dont think hubby will agree to it, but im crossing my fingers in case my stok tak capai 2 days consumption come mid December.

Ini pic Azhad tengah tido waktu demam. Sila abaikan baju pink itu kerana itu baju dipilih oleh kakaknya yang sangat rajin menolong ibu mengambil baju adik di dalam almari.

On Alesha, she got some bling-bling for her ears. The cutesy has been asking for earings ever since she is into make up. So last Saturday i was like what the heck, lets get your ears pierced. She was all geared up and hyped about it. When the adik sprayed that cool-spray thingy on her left ear, she was still maintain-maintain gitu. then come the stapler thing, still ok lagi - with a lil' smile on her face. I think she thinks the spray is the end of it la. When the adik kedai emas snapped the stapler thingy, member punya muka priceless. Its between 'ouch that hurt! is that it! is there more! and hand quickly went cupping the ear. Tapi masalahla sebab she can anticipated the pain already. It took almost 5 sprays tapi tak jadik stapler before i gripped her between my thighs and adik kedai emas did her job. Not so fine sebab i noticed 0.01 milimeter off as compared to her first pierced ear but what the heck..the job is fine. Im guessing no infection coz i dont see slobby 'mucus-look-alike- bendair around the pierced areas.

Ini muka calm tengah marking her ears

ini muka excited sementara tunngu budak pasang stapler.
ini muka eksyen tayang bling-bling
ini pose mengancam tunjuk telingar

Thats the story. No pictures today. been in front of pc since 11.00 pm settling some works. i need to tido now coz tomorrow i have another long day of meeting. (managed to selit pictures today- penat dlm meeting 1 satu takdak mood aku nak kerja)



tata peeps

Friday, October 31, 2008

mek twain..Thank You!!!

I slept at 4 a.m. this morning and woke up at 7.00a.m. This is the reason why:



Mek Twain...THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!! the design ni lain sket dari design u. ni ala ala tudung dubai but with awning.


eh...kalau i buat bisness, mek tak marah kan? Sapa nak beli???????? ahahhahaha

TAMBAHAN: JAHITAN PAKAI MESIN NAMPAKNYA BERJAYA. MASALAHNYA BENANG BOBBIN DAH ABIS AKU TAK TAU CAMNA NAK MASUKKAN ..HUHUHUHU..DAH SEBUKU BENANG ABIS JAHIT SALAH!!TENSIONNYA AKUUU

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Duit Duit di Mana Kau Duit

i was watching Oprah at 8pm and was struck at how similar i am to the 1st couple on air. NOt 3 cars or big house like that..but at how crazy similar i am to her shopping addiction. yes sir!! i am a shoppaholic. But im not THAT crazy to buy and sell all my clothes just so i can buy more.

nonetheless, the point in writing this is just another reminder to me that i could end up like her due to my spending habits.



Truthfully, i think my financial situation is bad. I should be having more money saved and some health insurance for the kids (like what the what-so-great-and-mighty Suze Ormon said). But in my situation, the medical for the family is paid by the company. I am not thinking far ahead of having to actually pay for my kids medical. What do you think? Should i start thinking of some health insurance or education insurance or just continue saving rm100 for each kid like what im doing now. Any idea?



On spending on cards..well..this is truly our problems as a family. Apart from having to use the cards for petrol, i have urges (very similar to that of choc-craving during period) to shop. Hence..the use of cards.



Apart from that, there are (yes.. ARE) also personal loans i have 'accumulated' over the years for some cash emergencies required.



in total i have about RM40K on me. Alarming? Yes. SO the best way out is to have more loan. NI kira kes gali lubang tutup lubang la ni.



I have applied for a personal loan to settle all my cards, my 1 car, my 2 personal loans and to purchase a 2nd house. The loan will also settle husband's 2 personal loans and maybe reduce some of his card. By paying all these with that specific personal loan, i still have to pay for a monthly instalment of my current house, astro, phones, and utilities. In a total, i reduces about Rm1K of the total payments i have to made pre-personal loan.



But i have conflicting advice on this. 1 friend told me these;



1. should have apply for a different housing loan for my 2nd house;

2. should continue with current car loan reason 1. i have only until dec 09 for the tenure. reason no. 2 the rate of car loan is lower than personal loan. (all a matter of calculation, which causes me headache to understand let alone writing it down)

3. the extra from personal loan (if i opted for no. 1 and no. 2) should be put to 1/2 saving and 1/2 unit trust since the units are selling very cheap now.



But my justification of sticking to my plan, is for me to not worry about paying this and that. in a long run (talking interest rate and tenure and all) i may be at losing end, but at least until the next 5 years, i would be in a safe zone, with extra for saving and alesha's school - i hope.



I am also thinking of refinancing my house to Islamic loan. Part because of the increasing rate of conventional banking and part because im pissed at the Officer who slammed the phone on me the other day. Well, it was entirely another story but i am determine to write to the Bank and stating this as part of my reason for changing financier.



Any of you good at restructuring your finances? Care to advice me? And the medical insurance? Should i be thinking about it?

Saturday, October 25, 2008

AeonFlux

It 12 a.m now. I am here in front of the tv with lappy before me. Azhad is sleeping on the mat at the floor with occasional coughings. The cik abang sayang is outside having drinks with friends. yeah yeah yeah..im a very sporting wife i am. And guess who beside me paying attention to what on tv. Yes. cik Alesha Razan is sporting an interest at the moves Charlize Theron is making.

now..she just asked me..kakak yang kulit dia hitam tu mana? dah mati ke?

hehehhehe...about 10 minutes ago she was gasping (with hands cupping her mounth - i must tell you!!) when the PELULU was firing at AeonFlux. Yup. Pelulu!! That was approximately the time when i feel i must write thsi down. hehhehe..well..she is asking for shu shu..be right back..or not. we'll see.

UPDATE: Hahaha tak sempat den nak bangun buat susu, minah ni dah lalok terkulai atas sofa. hehehe. Aku pun nak tido dah ni. esok is an early day for us, nak bertolak pi Penang ke Kedah ke (im bad at geo ok!!) menghantar my lil bro meminang. isk isk dah besar dah adek aku tu.

Cya guys..and happy holiday!!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

entry untu faRizza

entry untuk farizza

aku boleh kot tulis kat komen ko tu za, tapi cam dah banyak sangat la.

apa yg diaorang tu tulis semua tu betullah. tapi a simple but worth remembering advice from me is pick a good solicitor to handle you file. Ive seen money wasted down the drain for simply stupid mistakes done by the lawyers handling the file.

Tak leh nak tulis bebanyak, nanti ada lak kenkawan makan jantung ngan aku laks.

azhad yang lemau

AZHAD is having a fever and a very bad case of flu and cough. He is sleeping beside me now, i can hear his snoring rather badly and i can quite see the mucus hanging from his nose (he is on his side btw). His temp is 38.3.

I havent given him any medication. The date on the flu/feve/cough bottles in the fridge goes as far back as in August 2008. Not sure whether the time of the medicine will have any affect on its effect (or effect on affect ??!!). Im too kesian at him to wake him up for me to administer the medicine on him, simply because when he is awake, he will be crying - and you know how bad flu and cough can do to you when you cry - and when he cries, he will need his susu - and i tak sampai hati hearing his breathing and seeing him gasping for air (as he is breathing through his mouth) when he is susuing. So i have prepare itu ubat bontot. so maybe hubby will administer come 1 or 2 am.

mmm risaunye...as if baru i ni baru 1 st baby. I seems to forget how to care for a sick child. Come to think of it, i (think) am an expert at this as Alesha was forever sick during her 1st year. Every month we'll be off to clinic for this or that penyakit. Not to mention sleepless nites menjeram her and calming her crying crazines in the middle of the nites.

Maybe because after 10 months, now would be the really really 1st time Azhad is sick. Hence im getting to get used to it. Or maybe muka Azhad yg sememek itu makes my heart go goey tak sampai hati nak force medicate him like when i used to do with Alesha.

haii....risaunya..

ohh in case why any of you wondering why this is typed at 1 a.m. i am pleased (maybe not so once i start paying them bill la) to announce i have opted for unlimited data packet deal from my hp line. So no mr. max or ms. com broadband for me. pakai aje la kenkonon hp 3G hamba ni to access internet for rm99 permonth.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

tag tak diundang

Si yan telah membuat tag ini. ahhahaha..walaupun nama aku tarak dalam list invite dia, aku syok sendiri nak buat (walaupun sebelum ni siap declare tak reti nak buat tag). So here is my 'tag' perasan:

1. The age you'll be on your next birthday:
32. Tapi i feel very much like 25 except with 2 extra attachment of temper tantrum kids and 12 kgs heavier..isk isk.

2. Place you want to travel to:
only if the family is by my side ..mcD tepi jalan pun ok. kuangkuangkuang..kenkonon ibu mithali la. But going to Korea would be nice kan (think korean drama yg citer dayang masak-masak tu)

3. Your favorite place:
Tempat sejuk + dingin.(JUGAK!! yang marah ya kak yan)

4. Your favorite food:
Makanan yg sedap.(JUGAK!! tapi aku suka ketam nipah la aku rasa)

5. Your favorite pet:
tak de. AKu bukan animal friendly.

6. Favorite color combination:
red and black and shades of red

7. Favorite piece of clothing:
Sun dress (tapi takleh pakai-camna lak aku nak bf).

8. Your all time favorite song:
Ni aku suka lagu Kump. Febians Untukmu Sayang dengan lagu kumpulan Fatamorgana antara realiti & fantasi.. HIDUP ROCK KAPAK!!

9. Favorite TV show:Criminal Minds kot (tapi i can live without watching them)

10. First name of your significant other/crush:Significant other? Mohd (JUGAK!! Dahnya orang melayu. Standard la nama tu kan)

tapi kalau Crush? hmm.. aku memang ada mega turn on ngan hugh jackson in X-Men, yg berlakon citer gladiator tu sapa? tapi pokoknya aku memang babas syiok kat lelaki yg ala ala hunky begitu.

11. Which town do you live in: Kuala Lumpur - Mukim Batu

12. Your screen name/nickname:pinkylollytoe - dah dekat 10 tahun aku pakai nick ni. jgn taya how i got it, aku pun dah lupa

13. Your first job:hehehhe..kenkonon cecita nak jadik penguam. dapat la kot sekejab

14. Your dream job:
SAHM (JUGAK)

15. One bad habit that you have:Procrastinator (JUGAK) but the list is endless

16. Worst fear:trapped in small dark space -clautraphobic ke ape ke namenya ni.

17: Things you'd like to do before you die:Mengucap and dalam sedar (as opposed mati masa koma)

18. The 1st thing you'll buy if you get $1,000,000: maybe another house for investment. (Pastu aku mampos kena kejar ngan LHDN sebab beli umah cash). tapi seboleh mungkin aku nak aku laki bini idup debt free

19. Your husband/wife:cik ajib sayang (uwaaa kenkawan laki aku mesti jelek baca ni)

Aku tak tag sesapa sebab aku buat ni pun coz aku syok sendiri. haha

Thursday, October 9, 2008

another blabbering post

Just random silly-absolutely-ridiculous things i want (mimpi nak tapi sendiri tau takkan nye aku gi beli) :-

1. spek mata - mata lalat. The bigger the better. Perasan angie jolie.

ala-ala gini........






2. high waisted skirt - perasan tyra banks. (maybe aku patut tulis i want body yg sesuai untuk pakai high waisted skirt kot)

maybe yang ini untuk pi jenjalan...





3. peep toe stillettos

yang cenggini.... yg ni aku ada la ala-ala ini dalam 2 pasang tapi serious aku ni mmg addict nak bagi blakang aku sakit.

atau yang ini....


4. charm bracelet - i have figure out what charms i want to add. heheh giler psycho case.

ala-ala gini la aku nak beli. Emas putih lagi...





hahahaha..cukup tak post mengarut aku ni...

blabbering..

Seriously tak de mood nak blog.

I have like thousands things to say when i am anywhere near the internet, tapi when i switch on, langsung nada. Takde idea. So i ended up blog hopping.

I have come accross several single mom bloggers. all were force into the situation when the spouses fell ill and later passed on. Reading their thoughts sometimes makes me re-evaluate my situation.

Like any other couples, we have our ups and downs, yes? But at times, i think i am tested to my limit. I at times asked my self, how 'deep' the downs that i can handle? when would it be my last 'down'? I dare not answer the question and i dare not think of it further.

But whatever 'downs' there be, i am pretty certain it will not be as bad as having to lost your spouse forever. Maybe time heals all wounds, but it will surely leave a dent in your heart, and a gaping holes in your children. That i know as the case of the demise of my mom.

As coward as i am to think of my own possibilities, i know for a certain the kids wont be able to stand life without their dad. Not a chance. He is very much a part of them as i hope i am the other part.

Why am i writing all these craps? Blame it on the lack of blogging-motivator. Where la my muse ni?

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

kesabaran ya puan-puan

tag mende.

sesungguhnya aku tak brape reti nk paste la letak pic. reti sesikit je, tapi sbb tangan aku tgh guna megepam , maka nya aku tk brapa ada kesabaran nk godek-godek mengepaste pic.

so to fid n ms lola ..buleh tak anggap aku dah buat tag korang tu walau sbnarnya aku tak buat. hehehe buleh gitu?

Monday, October 6, 2008

jalur lebar oh jalur lebar?

WHICH TO BUY

maxis broadband ke?

or celcom broadband?

any idea?

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

raksasa gigi

im getting nervous.

itu milk moster is spotting 2 budding teeth. Takuttttt!!
TAMBAHAN: I WAS WRONG. THEY WERE 4 TEETH 2 ON BOTH GUMS. AND 1 MORE SPOUTING ON UPPER GUMS. AARRGGHH

it was a delayed development i think. But none i would expediTe. His other development is still on cue. I might as well write about this before i forget all about it.

turn on tummy - 4 mos
crawling - 7 mos
standing up - 8 mos
crusing - 9 mos
teething - 9 1/2 mos

simple mamma (mama) /appa (papa) - 9 mos
pok amoi-amoi - 9mos
climb down bed - last week (yet to be an expert - help required from parent, except on 1 - 2 occasion bila mak terlelap tetiba sedar anak hilang rupanye dah masuk bawah katil)
wave bye - baru smalam


will update proper later. ni tgh type sebelah tangan while pumping.

ohh and he is still exclusive on susu mama. hurray!!!!

Kenapa Raya

i hate hari raya..

apart from the fact that you tend to spend more that you can afford : read duit raya, baju raya, kasut raya, kuih raya, makanan raya.. there is also these endless soapy (did i get the spelling rite) raya drama that went on..and on...and on...and on ...Sheesh..enough!! i know la derhaka if i neglect my orang tua and favor my husband (or usually wife) over my elderly. And pleasessssss no more anak yatim story la!!! I am anak yatim myself...ok je time raya.

Reason no. 2
Penat seh!!!! the gerombolan yang tiba with the spirit of hari raya..Eh...korang tau tak tuan rumah cam nak tercabut kaki tangan pinggang bagai korang datang sampai 7 8 keta sekaligus!!! Bukan organ badan aku je nak tercabut, rumah aku tu kalau boleh dia angkat kaki lari tak mo bagi orang masuk tau!! (Somehow aku rasa entry kali ni lagi best tulis dalam bahse melayu)

Reason no. 3
Bermaaf maafan. Ok ok aku paham la kena bermaaf maafan..tapi kalau tak maaf-maaf ni tak leh raya ke? Lagi-lagi kalau maaf ala ala drama tv 1 yg melutut lutut nangis-nangis cam nak tercabut mata. Adakah ini tuntutan agama ke amalan masyarakat. kalau tuntutan agama, kena maaf-maaf masa raya, aku tarik balik la. (aku rasa bermaaf maafan tu kena hari-hari, bukan time raya je)

Reason no. 4
Aku yg terpressure sendiri. mempressure nak set rambut la, nak touch up muka la, nak make up la..last last, semua jadik memek berminyak sebab asyik dok kat dapur je. Ntah sapa-sapa la yg nak tengok muka vava voom aku pagi raya tu. Perasaan betul.

p:s betul aku sengal tak tau nak tulis apa.

KEPADA KORANG, SELAMAT HARI RAYA...

Monday, September 15, 2008

Aku Dilema

Kindy 1
RM2200 for 6 months. SUPERB!!!! mak rasa mak pun nak belajar sana nyah!!! Of course the price exclude extra classes for agama, ballet, taekwando, swimming etc etc yg mak bapak tak penah gi pun. Anak masuk gerenti cakap omputeh berabuk. Tapi dijangka akan inferiority complex kerana mak pak budak lain hanta anak-anak diaorang dalam kereta mewah tahap jaguar sey..as compared to Kancil 850cc kepunyaan mak.

Rega sangat hampir pada gaji bulanan mak yg take home pay nye ialah negative balance. Apa citer?

Kindy 2
RM1300 for 6 months. SO-SO. Ada Iqra and claimed to be islamic based. tapi sangsi akan keupayaan berbahasa inggeris sebab mak rasa mak lagi pandai cakap omputih dari cikgu-cikgunya. Malah cikgunya cakap "alaa..nanti budak pandai cakap omputih sebab kenkawan cakap omputeh." hmm sungguh tak memberansangkan. Habisnya kalau tahun tu budak yg enroll semua ala ala anak aku, tak ke gamaknya anak aku cakap bahasa minang gak? mende la...
Tapi conscience mak clear sebab anak blaja agama.

Kindy 3
RM900 for 3 months. Ok la sebab ni franchise and system already has track record. Tapi mak tak bekenan cha ya nun alif kelas pertengahan (and maybe ade kot upper class) majority di situ. Mak rasa cikgu nye tu cam SPM leaver je..hmm..tak confident sangat.

Kindy 4
RM800 for 3 months. Pun franchise jugak. tapi mak tak berkenan sebab rumah banglo 2 tingkat. tangga ada ke pakai polished marble (ini ke right term - ala marble yg kilat-kilat tak de permukaan kasar tu) ni kalau kaki basah mau terus kebawah je tergelincir. Mak dah terbayang bayang darah yg memancut sebab edges tangga tu tajam. (uwaaa active imagination okay!!) dah la budak tu jalan kelong. letak la carpet ke apa ke..mende la. Definitely cha ya nun alif conquer. Ni lagi sengal sebab ada ke dia cakap kids tak leh bawak pork n meat aje. Abisnya ayam katok kalau anak aku telan apa citer??

Hmm..KEMAS berapa ringgit?

UNTUK MAKLUMAN: KAWASAN YG DISURVEY ADALAH TTDI - KEPONG - MANJARALA - SEGAMBUT . dekat ngan umah la wehhh

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Picture Perfect?

I saw this on the way to work this morning:

Cutsie lil' bundle of joy about Alesha's age (or smaller) and frame, in cute pink hooded sweat shirt, pink pant and stripes of red and pink socks, hugging dear Dad tighly, with face tucked under the Dad's chin and arms sneaking out under the Dad's armpits - grabbing at the Dad's back shoulder in 2 cute grips and 2 small legs circling the Dad's waist.
Picture perfect dont you think?

NO!! NOT WHEN SHE WAS ON A MOVING BIKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG. I really dont understand where the dad coming from, having the gall to carry her daugther that way. I mean, come on, i know you may not afford a car, but to carry her THAT WAY??

EEE...i am still having flashes of the scary image in my head.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

ILL RAZANs

The family has been ill for the past week.
First it was the shocking phone call from my step mom asking me to rush home from work coz my father was asking for me. Very serious and very the ‘at the death bed’ request, scares the shit out of me. Fact was my dad had a very serious fever-flu attack (and maybe coupled with anxiety attack) when he couldn’t breathe normally. Im guessing his sinus was working overtime and some more.
Two days then Alesha was on high fever. Temp was at 39.8 and not less than 1 degree lower for the next 2 days. I was practically a walking zombie and she was either drenched in her own sweat or me sponging her. In the middle of the ordeal, she was catching flu too. I blame it on me for over sponging her. But I stand corrected that I would rather see her selebet with flu smeared on her cheeks than having her brain on frying pan. So to speak.
By Saturday, Azhad was acting up too. Not as cranky as Alesha but I put him on normal dose of paracetamol still. The thought of 2 sick kids for me to care was simply nothing that I wish to experience. Lucky for him (more to me) it was only a scare.
Unfortunately, with 2 kids and myself not feeling so jovy, hubby decided to caught some of my dad’s virus. And with 1 ½ kids (azhad was still on thermo) and I big kid, I was a seating duck. Took 2 days off on Thurs n Fri with the initial intention of getting some rest for my feverish body.
Almost a week passed, my voice is sounding more sexy than Ratu Rock and Alesha is my sidekick. Hahahha…both of us sound like a cross of drag queen and ella at her best, particularly Alesha coz she still continuing speaking in her loud volume.
Alhamdullilah, the fever zone is now fever free. (fingers crossed). Just writing to keep the post flowing.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Medela oh Medela FOR SALE

Ive got a confession to make.

During one of my rampant buying spree, i have 'accidently' purchased a Medela-E Plus. Accident read saja saja masuk kedai tak bawak duit tapi bawak credit card and dah terbeli the pum.

Masalahnya, i think the pump is not working for me. I mean..its good but i am not so fortunate enough to be blessed with more than 2 'opened' milk duct. Aisay..you get what i mean ke? Maknanya whenever aku pum, 1 2 lubang aje la yg kuar susu.

Dari aku sakit hati memandang pump itu, i have decide to let it go for RM600 only. I know its a bit on the high side, but FYI ive only used it for 3 times. BTW, i bought it last MOnday. The offer is open for 2 weeks, in which time, i will not be using the pump.

I'm selling the complete set together with the box.

So, there goes..i hope there is a buyer out there.

Tangisan Bulan Madu

Korang baca/tengok tak cerita ni?

I caught glimpses of the series now and then. Caught (as in stop at rtm2 when channel browsing and somehow ended up watching the series) the time when Bogart was saying things about not touching Mira..Fast forward..i caught the the series when Razlan was in the picture (i put two and two together and pretty much guessed Bogart dah kiok). Bad Razlan and then later 'mellowed' Razlan. Can only figure out he was so hostile to Mira coz Mira doesnt want to accept him. (Ye ke?)

and last nite, i caught it the series by accident again. This time it was Norman Hakim as Dr. What(?) and Mira married to him (as second wife?) with kid and a madu(?)

Aisay..complicatednyer cerite ni. Can somebody summarised it all for me so i know what is the ending??? Pleaseeeee

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Thank you

First of all..thank you friends...

kenapa thank you?? I dont know whether im giving vibes away..or GOD in his mysterious way is helping me see light..but when i am thinking of something..either all or some of the blogs ive frequented will write about it.

For e.g. this potty train thingy. I was considering it for some time. Then i read about it @ fid. So..taking the lead from her..i pursued Alesha's potty training. And believe it or not..she is now diaperless day & nite (except when she wants to poo but that doesnt count coz she actually said she wants to poo and go cry like crazy - aku pun pelik kenapa dalam nak membuang tu pun dia buleh nangis cam nak kuar bijik mata - for a diaper). Now gloating about potty-training Alesha, i read about it at nunumom's blog. She is now potty-training her daugther. Also kak yan and her *Alis. Welcome to the club i must say.

another thing is about kindy. I was seriously considering kindy for Alesha. In fact, last monday, i took leave of work simply to try out some kindies. I did not get to ask questions to the owners. In fact, i really dont know what to ask. And today, i get the long what to ask list from fid (*Again*). I sure dont remember asking her what should i do etc etc in sourcing for the right kindy for alesha. But then, there she is..writing about it for me to view.

and then there was this thing about kenduri kendara. Fid wrote about this, and one new blog i frequented also writes about it. I recently experience kenduri (where you masak sendiri berkampung ramai-ramai etc etc kind of kenduri). again, i get to see the FUN side of kenduri (i think GOD wants me to be thankful that i have to get to experience the joyful berkampung feeling) as opposed to keep on complaining how penat memotong bawang, menyiang daging dan sebagainya.

So u get me where im coming from...God is certainly showing me light. Not a big neon bright light staring me right at my face..but more subtle light and require me to spend a bit of time destressing from work by bloghopping. I get to be more sensitive, more courageous and more motivated to achive my goals.

hmmm and now who says blog hopping is no good? ahaks!!

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

SELINGAN

Selingan : can u believe it i forgot to bring ebm to MIL? Lenggang kangkung (NOT! Was carrying sleepy Azhad, big hand beg (kenkonon berangan stylish nak bawak duffel beg yg bagak itu) and Avent, car key) to MIL dengan semangatnya sebab baru pukul 8.15 a.m. 1st time sampai ofis 8.30 am dude!! Come 9.00 a.m. laki aku dah menjerit dari umah. Alesha was still sleeping.

Asked SIL to give him formula on Alesha's bottle. Trying out my luck coz he likes to suckle her bottle.

Just called SIL. Azhad refused to drink. (Amin..dalam hati dah terdetik..inikah era berakhirnya ebm aku. Nasib baik dia tak mo) Now he is outside tengok burung while waiting for papa and kakak datang jalan kaki bawak ebm.

hahahaha. berpeluh ketiak la dua beranak tu jalan kaki. Tu la..orang kejut suruh bangun tak mo.

Shivers

I was screaming my head off at Alesha while we were driving to someplace for something that she did(now i cant seem to remember why i was so angry - punya la immaterial punya hal boleh mengamuk cam giler) . Within seconds of me breathing fire..she asked me these..



Her : Ma sayang Sha tak?

Me: Sayang! (in a very tak sayang tone)

Her: Kalau sayang kenapa marah sangat?

Me: *gulp*



So dear friends...tell me how do i respond to that.

I would like to think that i am raising a emotionally genius child (as opposed to brain genius - quoting Diyanazman - geniuses are freaks, normal is awesome) who is perceptive to people's feelings around her, hence she asked me that question. But definitely not when i was being put under the above situation.

If she can asked me this at 3 years old, imagine what she will be asking (or retaliating) when she is 13 yrs old? *shivers* *shivers*

I was brought up old school. Canning and mom shouting from the top of her lung at me (think berleter in BOSE speaker turn at high volume) where the neighbors right left and 3 houses down from either side can hear her. Definitely NOT the psycho-therapy session family where no cubit-cubitan and lempang-lempangan are allowed.

Not denying that i am turning into my mom, i am worried for Alesha. For all the screamings and yellings and etc etc, i think i turned out good. But will she be 'good' too?

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Muhammad Azhad

I didnt post this story, just because i dont think that there was any interesting story to tell. But i was reading Mak Andeh's blog just now and this come to mind.



Sometime early July, the family took a vacation to go to a place where passport and boarding aeroplane was required. Though i have reservation in bringing 2 lil kids on a plane, the anticipation is very similar to bringing kids to see movies. (those yg penah bawak - u will know the feelings)



So there were we, on the way to our destination. the 2 hours flight there was not so hard. But for very similar-monkey action by Alesha yang terpanjat-panjat the kerusi to get to her friend who was seated at the front seat. Azhad thankfully was sleeping all the times. Albeit the fact that i think the passenger seating accross me can see glimpses of my chest area, i managed to curb the anxiety level of the lil kids. Very low disturbance level for other passengers - i hope.



The travelling back part was a bit tricky. not to mention that we had to climb stairs to get to the departure door - with stroller and beg susu , but we had to walk to some distance under the hot sun to get to the plane. phew! Berpeluh ketiak mak tau!!


But good thing was, Azhad was sleeping the entire time (hence menambahkan kepeluhan ku itu). Once boarding the plane, all settled down, we waited for about a full 10 minutes before the stewardess announced 1 passenger had checked in but couldnt not be counted in the plane. Hmm gi buang air kot - thats the thing that crossed my mind.


5 minutes after that another announcement boomed : Please report any of your travelling companion not with you - we listened without paying much attention. And starting to get piss - pesal la orang ni tak naik-naik ni.


5 minutes later - Muhammad Azhad please report to the front - Wow i thought.. ada jugak orang nama Azhad - I have not come accross anybody with this name before. Starting to get pissed again but was on the look out to see sapa la the lucky guy yg nama sama ngan anak aku ni. Nobody come forward. Commotion started to build in the plane.


5 minutes later - A name similar to my FILw was called out. Hmm...now i started to feel a bit suspicious. nudged hubby on my side and told him you kot. A name similar to our family friend was also called out. Sah dah ni. Hubby went to the front had a lil chit chat with the stewardess and several AA staff yang dah berkumpul kat cockpit area tu. Turned around with a big DUH!! smile on his face.


Guess who Muhammad Azhad was? Its Azhad Razan who was happily sleeping on the sling!! Apparently when they did the click-click head count, they did not see Azhad in the sling. hence, the passenger list was short of one.


Hehehe sorry you guys..His name is Azhad Razan. Not Muhammad Azhad. If you called out Razan Azhad pun i would have responded. :P


This was how Azhad in the Sling. 1 pic he was sleeping and the other pic he was nursing. Can you really blame the stewardess for not seeing him? hehehe

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

BF..yummy

I forgot to blog about this last Friday.

Can you guys guess where ive been last friday? Kuang kuang kuang. No Dark Night to rescue me, but i was hung on Mummies. Yup..you guess right. I went for The Mummies.

I am not gonna yap about the review. Who am i to write all that? Plus i am bad at memorising names and titles and such. I cant even remembers what the full title of the movie. I know its the Mummies movie and Brendan Fraser is it in.

A bit on the background check - I LOVE BRENDAN FRASER....back from his With Honors movie (dont bother to check whats his 1st movie), the crazy rock singer character he played who went to hijack (bloody hell - i cant think of the right word for this) the radio station (what movie eh?) and whatever movies he's on. I remember listing all his movies (back then where got internet laaa - even if there is any, mana tau guna) and giving the list to the VHS rental shop. Yup..its VHS dude!

Anyways..you get my drift. I am a big (but not crazy) fan of BF. He is like brad pitt to me or Justin Timberlake to some teenager girls (ye ke? - whats hot now?)

The Mummies for me is like James Bond for some 40ish woman, or Indiana Jones for some , or even Star Trek. You get what i mean. The Mummies does it for me!! Maybe it was produced during my years (=when i was growing up and into movies) or maybe because BF was in. I cant really pinpoint what does it for me.

So if you ask me know, whats the review, i am bias.

But Hubby went to watch it yesterday. (yes ladies - my hubby do go out with friends - without me!!). and he said it was not as good as the other Mummies. The Mummies aka Jet Li is not evil enough for him and Evie..arrgh..what an eye sore.

I cant say much about Jet Li. If BF is my dreamy mat saleh actor, than i have to say Jet Li is his Chinese counter part. Dont get me start on Jet Li's VHS i have rented, i wouldnt be able to tell you -the titles were in chinese. but suffice to say, i watch too many of his kungfu movies, that i seriously think that he has long front shaving hair. Hmm..maybe he does have hairs like that.

Anyways.. few days before hubby making the comments, i was making the same comments to a friend. FYI, we (hubby and me) do not talk about movies as detailed as they way we speak to other friends. Hubby asked me hows Mummies , i said ok la..best apa. I asked hubby how Mummies. He said ok la..Mummy dia tak best. Bini dia pun tak cun. (the para before is my interpretation of his words..wife ada hak nak elaborate!!)

But i tend to agree with him on bini tak cun. I mean. .racheal weiss (??) is like the epitome of sexy va va voom to me. A bit on a fleshy side (kenkonon nak relatekan ke diri i la tu - ahaks!) that makes you feel that you the character. and her husky voice is undeniable an attraction, dont u think/

The off thing will this Mummies, firstly would be the evie charater. Dont know who she is, (though she looks a bit familiar to me) and i dont think her english accent is actually working well. But DUH!! who am i to say on this. moi pun cakap slang malayish. But pairing her up with BF, alahai..no fire la. U have this hunk of a guy as hubby, and bini muka berkedut-kedut and tak attractive langsung, bleh? eeee semak mata memandang.

That is one, secondly, the son. I mean, i know that several years have passed (dont care how long exactly) but get la some kid who has some sweet looking face to play Alex. They looked more like brothers rather than father-son team la. And whenever BF wants to pull his fatherly gig, so not happening to me. Maybe the casting director should have 'hobbit dude' on his mind when casting for the role. Barula believable sket to match the hunky BF, tak ke gitu?

All in all, like i said, Mummies have a special place in my heart. I dont care if its gonna be the 10th Mummies movie pun, i will be buying a seat to watch. (Or maybe i should put an exclusion remark - only if BF is in it.)

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

I'm a proud mother. I am!!

Being a mother, you know that your children will somehow (more like inevitable la doink!) grow up and become their own persons. And of course, deep down, you never want them to grow up. Having being just a mother for roughly 2 and a half years, i think it would be too soon for me to start having another person in the household as opposed another kid being an extension of me and hubby. Now..this is definitely confusing..but you know what i mean..right?

back to the original intention of the post, we all know Alesha is reaching her 3 years this December. and we all (we all meaning all my cyber friends with kids Alesha's age) know how kids this age can throw tantrum and basically disobey our commands though we are shouting fire from our nostril. If yours dont-mine is definitely ignoring me at times (thank GOD it is only at times - though at times nowadays are like most of the times!!!). If she knows the saying "TALK TO THE HAND" - i am most sure she will just put up her right hand at me and having me talking to it without stopping whatever she is doing!!!

But despite all these, i can not NOT be a proud mother of her.

Reason no. 1.
Several months ago, she stopped night feedings. I am most thankful of this as i was (and still is) getting comfy with 'selak and feed' the lil azhad. It was just a drag having to wake up for a mere 3 oz feeding couple of times at night. Hubby was assuming the job but the level of his crankiness having to wake up to buat susu - yikes..lets not go there.

Reason no. 2
Couple of months ago, she started wearing her own baju. First it was depan-belakang terbalik. But given couple of days, she understood that picture-front button in front and the rest at the back. Then it was the problem with the pant. Again, she will keep on flipping the pant on herself while asking ' cam ni yea mama?' 'ni depan yea mama?' 'ni yea?' - even when i was on the jamban doing my bussines. (i had to peeked out while she paraded in front of me).
Again, in a matter of days, (after i figure out there is no way i could be postponing my 'business' just for her to ask me mana depan mana belakang) of teaching her the side with the tag (or yang ada tanda tu!!) is supposed to be on your back, she grasped the concept and begin wearing her own clothes.
Its our routine, that i bathe myself, then Alesha (dry her up and let her go menganginkan bam bamnya), then Azhad. But before i step on the bathroom, all the clothes will be laid down for wearing on the katil or some nearby sofa.
Usually she will do her own bussines after i bathe and dry her. (meaning terkinja kinja lari tengok tv or gi menulis or apa apa suka hati dia) while waiting for me to monitor her pakai baju session. But to my suprised, few days ago, just when i stepped out of bathroom with wet Azhad, she emerged at the door, fully clothed (no front back mixed up) with a comb on her hand and an announcement to my delight : MA..Sha pakai baju sendiri..betul tak ma?
My heart flowered.

Reason no. 3
Alesha is potty trained. Or half potty trained. Up until yesterday, she wore diapers during napping and sleeping at nite. Or when we go out jalan jalan coz mom and pop tak kuasa nak mencuci dia di public toilet yang dikuatiri tahap kebersihan. But yesterday, SIL told me that she napped diaperless. Heart flowered again. and last nite, for the first time i go kamikaze by having her diaperless at night. I woke up at 2.30 a.m to feed feverish Azhad (am on half day to bring azhad to see paed today), stirred Alesha up.
and this is what happened: Moaning and crying and moaning with in between nak susu and moaning and crying. Hubby got fed up, throw a diaper at me and passed a bottle to Alesha. half way bottle, i stroked her and said..'jom kencing yayang..' She passed me the bottled, and lifted up her bam bam for me to pull her pant down and extended her arms to be lifted to toilet. (but not before winking at Azhad and saying hii Adikkk..with all the commotion, si Azhad tu dah bangun sambil tersengih-sengih memandang kakaknya) and wallah..what do u know...she actually did her business in the loo...WAAAAA.
As at 8.30 a.m when hubby put her half closed sleepy eyes on MIL's sofa, she was still diaperless and yet to go to the loos. (crossed fingers she doesnt leak on MIL's sofa when i was off to office).

SO..despite the fact that i am sooo sleepy due to the lack of sleep (menjeram Azhad yang demam dan risau si kecik tu menghancingkan tilam) i am ONE PROUD MAMA and my ALESHA is now a girl in the house.

Friday, July 25, 2008

Impian ku Musnah

huhuhuhu..impian nak menonton wayang terkabur..(padan muka aku sapa suruh eksyen tulis kat blog!!)

Reason being : aku punya la asyik beratur dari pukul 11.00 pagi nak beli pampers Warehouse Sale Mommy Poko!!!! By the time borong semua, dah pukul 12.00 noon. By the time aku punggah semua naik opis, dah pukul 12.15 p.m. Tengok the latest show eiii..pukul 12.00 p.m. the other earliest show was on 1.00 p.m. tak sempat la ni. huhuhuhu..

Tapi if its any consolation, i bought 4 L44 MommyPoko pampers for RM30.00 each. Ni nak turun pi beli lagi.....

:P

tambahan: enam jahanam...dah abis pulak size L. grrr...

Thursday, July 24, 2008

I heart Friday

I HEART FRIDAY!!!

Duh! Who wouldnt right? Particularly since it would be the last day of the week and you would be having 2 days of completely non-working-salary-paid work (as opposed to 'working' as a mom!! which is 10x tiring i must say!!!). And of course, added bonus for me is the thought of NOT HAVING to pump - sorry u guys...aku dah nak termuntah mengepam di opis, tapi sebab budak genius tu, aku dayakan jugak -. So in a nutshell...i am in great anticipation of Fridays.

BUT lately, there is another good reason why i heart friday. hahaha...very genius and very entertaining activity indeed. I go movie watching during friday lunch time!! HAHA!! BEst kan..

Comeon tell me...where in the world can u find a mom with 2 kids - no helper - who has the opportunity to catch up with the latest movie in the market - not counting those who beli pirated la of course. I am talking about caramel-crunchy-popcorn-ear-shattering-soundsystem-cold and sometimes teeth clattering aircondition-and big screen in a dimmed ligthing noise muffled/padded area of CINEMA!!! And to top it off, no screaming toddler to watch over and no baby who is practically hanging to your chest while watching the movie!!!!!!!

2 weeks ago it was HANCOCK, last week it was Journey to the Centre of the Earth. I wonder what will be the 'CINEMA MENU' for this Friday? Hell Boy? Wanted? Hmmm

Monday, July 21, 2008

HERBA WORLD YUCKS

AKU MAU KURUS!!

Entry specifically dedicated for the fats in me. The Battle begins on 14 July 2008 where i consumed the 1st yucky tumbler of HL.

Still failed to be honest to myself and after 1 week, i think i am only able to consume HL in A.M - while driving to work. Taking lunch like nobody's bussiness, 2 - 3 occasions of HL dinners. and bread (3 -5 pieces with yummylicious ikan bilis goreng) and full non-HL meals on weekends ..Arrgggg PENIPU!!

AKU MAU KURUS ..AKU MAU KURUS.

HIP HIP HURRAY!! HIP HIP HURRAY! HIP HIP HURRAY!!

IN COuple of weeks, Azhad will turn 8 months. Makanya genaplah 6 bulan aku exclusive bf dia and top with 3 mos failed attempt to get him on formula.

Boleh percaya tak? Budak yang bertuah lagi sangat pandai itu boleh reject FM. Nak kata aku begitu semangat nak bf..ada la sesikit. But then again, like i said in my previous post, FM is the option i was considering for my sanity. And i did in fact bought a tin of FM that costs me close to RM50.00.

Tapi kuasa Tuhan lagi besar, itu budak pandai tak mo even a sip of FM. He suckled at first. Ada la kot..2x 2 oz he drank, lepas tu, he just refused to take more. Even if we tried, he will suckle 1 time, and turn his head the other way refusing the nipple. SIL even store the pre-ready FM in the fridge and go thru the same EBM warming ritual (while carrying him) to convince him that FM = EBM.

Makanya AKU DENGAN BANGGA NYA (although none of it is my doing - But mak mesti boleh tumpang glamer anak kan) nak kata AZHAD IS STILL ON BF AND GOING STRONG!!!! HIP HIP HURRAY!! HIP HIP HURRAY! HIP HIP HURRAY!!

YOU HAVE OUTDONE MAMA, AZHAD!!! I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!!

Operasi Gagak Hitam

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Aktiviti pada satu minggu yang damai...Cuba teka yang mana saya? kuang kuang kuang.

SABAR

EIii rasa cam dah empat tahun tak memblog. Bz bukan main..And whenever there is time to do it, takde pulak idea yang melimpah ruah.

My piling works are still as high. But i think for the sake of my sanity, i have to take a breather and update my lil online diary of the happenings in the house of Razan.

Alesha is as joyful as she can be. Still singing Air Pasang Dalam with the alternate of 'pokok bunga telor..' and 'pokok bunga melor'. Still showing tantrums whenever she feels like it. Both parents are hangin on a thin thread before snapping and lashing a backlash. Hahahha...nah!! i dont think i will be using my 'backlash' on her yet. Hopefully not ever. But she is testing our patients. Mantra : Sabarrrr.. Think of her sweet smile and Sabaaaaarrrrrr

Azhad is a confirmed cry baby. He cries when he sees me, he cries when he doesnt see me. Long story short, he cries!! Both Parents are definitely not revisiting the idea of another baby soon..and Most definitely counting days when he will be a toddler. (Duh! did that with Alesha and now wishing that she remains an infant!). No matter how hard he cries, Azhad is the best baby in the world when he is in my arms. Makes everything worthwhile when his cries stop immediate when i pick it up and replaced with a big grin. Or so you think! Not when its 8.00 am in the morning and i am rushing to work with my tummy growling to do its morning ritual!!!
Again ..Mantra: Sabarrrrr....

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Homeskool??

I have been reading about homeschooling a lot now. Thanks to Fid, who writes about it, Anamiraa who has links to other blogs about it and Rizza who actually implemented homeschool.
Similar to Fid, i dont think i have the opportunity to do homeschooling simply because of the financial burden to the family. And by looking at how things are going, i doubt it that i will ever get the chance.
On this note, i have to say that i am deeply overzealous at my own incapacity to give the best for my children as opposed to 'housewives' moms out there.
I am writing this down simply as a reminder to myself that i have to change for the betterment of my children. Alesha will be in school come 2009 so she develops socially. I think she needs to be outside her circle so she will be more attune to people around her.
But more importantly, i have to make time for her. I was looking at various homeschool blogs lately and most definitely sure if i put just 1% more effort at making it work - even on weekends- my children will benefit from it.
Will write more about this when i can sort my schedule more.

Friday, June 27, 2008

LETS DO ENGLISH

A scene in a bathroom two mornings ago:-

Mama: Sha, wash your tummy
Alesha: (wash wash tummy) Angun pagi..gosok giiiigii etc etc

Mama: Sha, wash your armpit
Alesha: (raised 2 hands up on the air - continue singing)

Mama: Ok ok dah dah last..wash your face
Alesha: (hand go down to chest and give me the *is this face?* look)

Mama: No. YOUR FACE! (voice cracking up a notch high - Its 8.30 am and im late for work)
Alesha: (hands go even lower to tummy and give me the *is this face* look)

Mama: F!A!C!E!. Ni hah. FACE. (voice definitely at high pitch while pointing to FACE)
Alesha: (senyum kambing while washing her face)

Adeiii pengsan mak

What happened in Sat 21/7/08

We were baking!
YUp!! We were. I was on leave on Thurs due to some emergency back home. Hubby dropped by to buy some stationery and i looked to my left HAHAH BAGUS!!( As in BAGUS THE BAKERY INGREDIENTS SHOP)
Well, with 1 kid on sling and 1 chattermouth kid in her pretty terompah flip flop (damn bugger cost me RM30!!), we crossed the street and began our motivated journey (more aptly- mama's aspiration to become a cup cake maker!) to Bagus.
We bought tonnes of things which include muffin choc flour, vanila muffin flour, butter cake mixture and all the 'easy to bake' ingredients'. Gone the days of measuring baking powder, flour, etc etc. Now dump and mix!!
beli beli and beli - the Chatterbox Kid got excited with the variety of cuppies. Noticed 2 extra cuppies and 1 pack of flower confec i didnt put in the basket - We all know whose work is that.
Come Saturday...with the very high hope, the family 'berkampung' at the inlaw. FYI, my SIL is a great baker. She bakes everything from yummylicious mexicon bun to hot salivating creamy choc cake. Moi with the eagerness that beats a 21/2 years old kid begin mixturing the batter despite the high cry of the kid who refuses to be on his own (aka Azhad Razan yang manja)- to the extend my hubby muka kelat-kelat carrying crying Azhad.
Come decorating time, Alesha was at hard work decorating the flower confec (more like membenamkan the flower on the cuppies) and sprinkling the cuppies with smarties and things (i seriously dont know what u call all the lil leaves shape thingy)
POINT IN WRITING ALL THESE CRAP- Alesha, jangan cakap mama tak bake for you!!

BF Azhad

Cerita Azhad - i have finally feed him solid when he reaches 6 mos ++ days. On the same day too, i decided to buy FM for Azhad. I have finally admitted that it is too stressful for me to maintain pumping during office hours and to rush home after work, knowing that my stock is running low. I am sick and tired of getting phone calls telling me that only 2 oz left and i should be home soon. Alhamdullilah, God has given me a full 6 months rezki to feed Azhad on breastmilk completely.
Moving on, i dont think i have any regret. Though i have supply FM at home, it seems that Azhad is no really 'into' its taste. He is eating more and drinking plain water to substitute for the lack of FM in his diet. I am still pumping and manage to get about 10 - 12 oz as opposed to 20 - 24 oz a day. Azhad apparently fails to finish the usual 10 oz i supplied him daily.
I think Azhad now knows what he wants. It is direect feeding. Though it saddens me to see he is not drinking much during my absence, but it has somehow cheer me up knowing he wants my direct-feeding as opposed to bottle feed.
Keep it up dear Azhad. Mama loves you.

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Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Aktiviti Sekeluarga

Activity Family


Aktiviti 1 - Menonton Wayang.

wayang pertama, Azhad lepak ZZZZZ dari mula sampai abis. Alesha lak tak sampai 1/2 movie, dah ZZZZZZ jugak. Cerita Spiderwick Chronicles.

wayang kedua - Dr. Seus ntah apa apa says who (?) ni memang boring maut. Alesha dah boring tahap gaban sampai panjat kerusi. TU tak masuk dia whining jerit jerit tengah movie. Sabarrrr

wayang ketiga - Cerita narnia. Ini memang potong steam betul la. baru 15 min, Azhad dah jaga dari tido. Hentam melalak pastu asyik pandang belakang (kitaorang duduk belakang skali) aku pun naik seriau ada jembalang Narnia ke kat spot gelap belakang aku. Aku spend most of time kat luar menenangkan dia. Alesha lak 1/2 jalan dah tido. Hubby lak paip air nak bocor, dah tak tahan nak pangku Alesha. Gamaknya, 3/4 kitaorang keluar..Potong betul

wayang keempat KungFu Panda, ini memang syok gile. Seat depan kitaorang completely kosong and we went with family friends yg anaknya ala ala best friend Alesha. So kira aku dapat tengok wayang ngan damainya. Azhad lak woke up 3/4 of the movie. Tapi pakcik montel ni memang kartun freak kot (the only time i can leave him on his own when 613 is on the tv). Terbeliak-beliak tengok screen. So..yuhhuuuu attempt berjaya.



Aktiviti 2 - Karaoke

ahahhaha boleh caya tak? Haritu kitaorang anak beranak gi karaoke. Alesha balik balik nyanyi chorus lagu O! O! Ketahuan..dengan lirik ntah apa-apa. Azhad pun nyanyi jugak. jerit jerit up down seronok ntah apa sebab. Uwaaa..tapi tak leh direpeat selalu. Nanti pekak tuli anak-anak aku!!

Aktiviti 3 - Swimming
Wajarnya Alesha masuk swimming class next year. Aku tak mo masuk this year.Nak bg dia orientasikan minda dia dulu dgn alam persekolahan.Bila dah ok, baru nk enroll kan dia dgn the many classes yg suit my pocket. Haha

Aktiviti Papa
Laki aku takde aktiviti lain la except BOLA - BOLA - BOLA. Malam tengok bola, subuh tengok bola, tengahri citer pasal bola, petang main bola and the cycle continuers...BORING SUNNGUH

Aktiviti Mama
Uwaaa ini yang paling best. setelah hampir 5 tahun meniggalkan arena yg aku pernah berkecimpung ni, buat sekian kalinya aku menjejakkan kakiku kembali. boleh caya tak..Mak g clubbing!!! kuang kuang kuang. laki aku masa jemput aku pukul 2 tu aku tengok muka kelat semacam. Ala-ala rela dalam paksa gitu bagi aku gi. Lantak la labuuu..nak kelat camna pun. Dah bagi takkan la nak tarik balik pulak. tapi permasalahannya sekarang, kekawan aku ni dah cam naik syok pulak nak buat aktiviti ni untuk monthly basis. Yennadeyyy..ingat aku ni single lagi ke!!!

the Razans

havent been writing for quite sometime i believe.

But for the sake of me remembering the events in my life, i definitely have to write it down:

Alesha
At 2yrs 6 mos, she's a bubbly little me. I see traits of me in her - how she sings outloud, how she screams, how she gets angry. Its a reflection of me. I see too how the father's genes run deep in her blood. I see how easily she gets frustrated, her concentration on little things. She is definitely a little me who needs somebody like her papa to keep her grounded.

Azhad
at 6 mos, Azhad is a dear dear lil boy in my heart. I know he loves me wholeheartedly just by seing him jumping up and down whenever i come home from work. Azhad mesmerizes me daily on his affection towards me. Azhad started to turn on his tummy when he's 3 and now he is beginning to crawl.

Bringing up Alesha and Azhad are a total different experience to me. Alesha was a fussy baby and easily distracted with toys. She can spend time on floors surrounded with toys. Azhad? He couldn't even spend 5 full seconds on his own. Always demanding attention and always wanting my devoted attention. Azhad was never fussy except that he wants to suckle all the time.

I think the attachment Azhad has for me simply because he is a breastfed baby as opposed to Alesha. Good ? or Bad? I hope its for the best.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Dugaan

nak di jadikan cerita, moi went to look for dear hubs anniversary gift sehari dua lepas. Then again, the woman in me (ceewaaahh..) mana boleh tahan kan.Takkan nak window shopping pressie cik abang je. Kakiku yg lemah ni (walaupun langkahnya makin mantap) telah memasuki beberapa 'boo-tiq' berjenama ribuan ringgit.

Adeiii memang mencabar kesabaran aku betul la. Aku puasa pun rasanya tercabar sebegini melihat kasut kasut dan beg beg nan indah. Nasib baik la aku ni bukan hand-beg-girl. Tapi itu pun aku rasa cam goyah gak iman aku. Particularly sebabnya this E-say-tan store kat the Taman* ada buat membership prebiu hari tu. CORRECTION: Aku bukan member ok. I am not that high-maintenance. Yg member nya adalah kawan aku.

well..1st thing 1st, kalau aku shoping sensorang, tak de hal la aku nak masuk 'boo-tiq' yg sebegini. I mean, aku tak kan pasang niat nak window shopping pun sebab aku tau sangatla jauh lagi perjalanan aku nak beli barang barang branded cenggini.

Yang keduanya, takde nye aku saja saja nak window shopping di the Taman*. Buat sakit kaki aku je jenjalan nak beli air pun cost me Rm10. Abih boraih jo.

tapi kerana kawan aku ni ajak (Friend : in case ko baca post aku ni - no pun intended) Aku dengan GAH nye pun masuk la all these boo-tiq.

*Gulp* *Gulp* *Gulp*

Itula perasaan aku. Gamaknya kalau kan takde kawan aku tu, Jangan harapla aku nak sentuh beg beg n kasut kasut yg namanya ala ala orang Italian, kenya, Strawberi, Teka-Meneka dan sebagainya. Oohh Bootiq kereta kuda beg Cik Ana tu pun aku singgah. AND I WISH TO NOTE ZIP BEGNYA BRAND YKK. Kuang kuang kuang..(no offense to you Cik Ana and the rest of peeps yg wear the brand - ini cakap orang penuh PHD sebab tak mampu beli)

The point is..aku saja je la nak tulis betapa banyaknya rm orang keliling aku waktu tu. and more aptly nak cakap...how wish aku adalah di antaranya (tak kisah la zip YKK ke idak - janji mahal ahaks!!)