Monday, April 14, 2008

aku yg blurrr

How do i respond to this:

"Sha tak 'kap ngan mama..sha 'kap ngan papa ye..."

or this..

"Sha ayang mama ngan papa yee..adik sha tak ayang.."

or even this..

"Jangan la akap ngan Sha..Sha awan papa yee..."

huhuhuhu...haruskah aku tidak memarahi langsung anak dara aku itewwww....

Friday, April 11, 2008

How do i...

1. how do i get the comments box to be on the side of my blog page?

2. how do i get the time/clock icon ticking on my blog?

3. how do i get the live traffic feed on my blog?

4. apa apa lagi nak me'live' kan blog aku yg aku rasa cam tak berapa cantek..


Alesha Razan

Alesha Razan @ 2 yrs 3 mos

Azhad Razan

Azhad @ 3 mos

Wednesday, April 9, 2008



Soalan : Sapa dia virgin terunggul di Jepun?
Jawapan: Tanakasi

Soalan : Siapa dia pelacur paling digilai di Jepun?
Jawapan: Itchibawa

HAhahahhah...tak tau la kelaka ke idak..tapi aku baru je melantak lasagna for lunch. uwaaaaa nampak tak stress level aku makin naik ni..

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

The vanity in me

This post is about me.. me the vain me.

I have always tried to potray myself as this confident 'young' lady despite i am a head shorter or 10 kilos heavier than the rest of peeps around me. I have always tried to say that i dont care how i look, i am easy in my own skin.

BUT seriously...who am i kidding. I wish i am 5'8" instead of 4'11". I wish i am 50++ kilos instead of 70++ kilos.

I know there is nothing i can do with my height. Except buy more 3" heel shoes. But my weight..hmm that is another issue.

Weight has always been my problem. Even before i was married, I was forever within the 60 - 65kgs range. If my memory serves me right, with the help of a particular pill, i managed to reduce to a suprising 60kgs for my wedding. And i looked damn good. Clothes fitted nicely on me..and i remember feeling so great and sexy.

Now after 4 years in marriage and 2 kids after that, i am 10 kilos heavier. *sigh* sigh*

I dont feel quite so good about myself now..and come on...who can feel sexy with 2 screaming kids demanding attention and such.

But feeling great and looking sexy are just not for people around me. I need to feel great and desirable for myself. So i can still 'feel' as a woman rather than a mom.*sigh*sigh* again.

Just another luahan rasa coz i think my XXL pant is getting tighter around the waistline these couple of days..huhuhuhu...camna nak kurus ni!!

Friday, April 4, 2008

Just my 20-sen

I was reading Fid's blog about excuses moms gave to NOT bf their children.

Some of her comments were simple hilarious. Her sumpah seranah was simply too kelakar for it to have actual impact (on me that is). But i tend to agree with her.

All the 'soalan sesak' napas tu memang simply out-of-this-world. Maybe boleh buat buku kot '50 Soalan-Soalan Sesak Napas Berhubung Penyusuan Anak'...Hahahaha

I mean, with due respect, i think the mothers who posted the question, only have the purest intention at heart and the posting came about only because they are seriously thinking of breastfeeding their lil' ones.

Tapi bak kata Fid la kan....kena la fikir logik.

When i decided to breastfeed Azhad, i think i asked petty questions too. I repeat : PETTY but not SESAK NApas OK!! (korang yg aku penah tanya boleh la tolong clarify kan aku ni)

And i tend to agree with Fid - the bottom line in breastfeeding your baby is yourself. There are no 2 ways around it. Preseverance ..preseverance and preseverance. And being the expert mom of NOT Breastfeeding her 1st born, i know the meaning of preserverance.

Timing kerja etc etc tu should not be a problem. Of course, not having the time to pump at work is also my problem especially now with mountain of works waiting (hence you are seeing less of me here nowadays) but it should not be the main reason why you are not breastfeeding your child.

Like me now, i am pumping only once in the office due to time constraint. But i make it a point to pump while feeding Azhad once i am home. And most of the time, i get about 6 - 8 oz in 1 go. Not bad considering Azhad takes about 4 oz one time. And if i am not too tired, 1 more pumping session before i go to sleep.

On top of preserverance, i think 1 good mantra is 'just go with the flow'. For me, i never put high expectation. I mean..well we have to believe in rezki tuhan bagi, right? As for me, it may not be in mata wang ringgit, but in my 'sufficient' milk production.

And when i say 'sufficient' it is really cukup-cukup..ok. I dont have like 2 months stock in freezer. My 'stock' is only for about 1 day. And there were days when it was damn hard for me to even get 4 oz. I sometimes had to spend close to 1 hour to express both breast to get about 3 oz.

I tried not to get gabra about it. Not to the point of posting the same popular question : cam mana nak tambah susu badan. Come on people, the answers are already posted on the 1st page of the thread!!! tak payah la nak keep on tanya kan. Aku naik nyampah nak bukak the thread sebab whenever it surfaces, it is still the same old question (ingatkan ada la soalan/jawapan baru)

As for me, in a way its a blessing in disguise that i was never 'blessed' with susu yang melimpah ruah. So i am not overly gabra whenever my milk supply is on the low side. But as not to take things for granted, these people worrying about their supply kena la take pro active measures like me.

Measure no. 1 : always have dried longan stock. I boiled mine every week with honeyed sugar rock. lasted for about 1 -2 days in a fridge. A favourite with hubby too.

Measure no. 2 : always have dried red kurma. Boiled this whenever i need a break from dried longan. Not really a fav with the family.

Measure no. 3 : biji halba. Had these during my confinement. An experience i detest to repeat. But just for extra measure incase no. 1 and no. 2 are no help.

What i am trying to say is, you only try you best. Kalau kemalasan dan segalanya dah mencengkam jiwa. Then do not force yourself coz u might end up hating yourself or worse your baby in the process.

Hakikatnya , if there is rezki for Azhad, there is. If not, there is always susu dalam tin. Thats my motivation.