IM BACK

UWAAA...lama nya tak jumpa internet. Boleh meroyan rasanya tak dpt surf web-web yang aku slalu frequent.



hehehe guys..im back, but not for long. hari ni aku decide nak menjejakkan kaki ke opis. Nak refresh memory aku mana aku letak pen, mana aku letak documents.



untuk korang yg post comments in my previous post..dah slamat dah den nih!!



Wokey..cerita yang ditunggu-tunggu. Although a bit basi, tapi aku cerita gak la..More for my sake rather than yours..sebab nya kita ni kan maha pelupa.



Just what i said in my previous post, we intended to get it over and done with on 071207. Tapi after much thoughts and selepas sort kan activities laki bini, we finally decided that wednesday 051207 would be the suitable date to go to the hospital.



So pagi tu, aku pun lenggang kangkung kemas-kemas barang pakai cantek cantek gi spital. Tapi pagi tu, hehehe kena la pekena breakfast yg gempak sikit kan...almaklumla..lepas tu kan nak kena pantang.



So there we went to pekena Nasi Lemak Tanglin and mee kicap kat sana. Aku belasah cukup cukup..rasa nak order bertalam talam. Tapi all the while masa tengah makan, perut asyik rasa memulas nak membuang. Potong steam betul..tak kena pulak aku nak belasah bila perut rasa tak sedap ni.



Appointment was set at 830am..tapi aku sampai spital dalam pukul 11.00am. Sampai-sampai straight kena dok atas wheelchair and ditolak ke labour room. Apparently thats the procedure kat spital tu. Rather than waiting in the normal ward, they wheeled you to the labour room, which looked very much like a single bed ward and there you wait for delivery.



Sebabkan si cenonet tu ada tailing around, and only spouse and mother can teman you there in the room, hubby letak barang and balik hantar cenonet to her nenek.



About 12 noon cam tu, nurse datang check. Aku ni dah tak sabar sabar nak meng-induce-kan diri aku. Siap tanya dr. nak datang what time nak bagi ubat, what kind of ubat dr. akan bagi etc etc etc.



But the nurse calmly cakap, kita check dulu kak..dalam hati aku..aik...tak baca rekod ke apa..aku ni datang nak induce. Bukan nya normal delivery sakit ke apa. But what the heck..there i go..kangkang la mak..



Jeng jeng jeng...this come as a suprise to even me..aku actually dah 3cm dilated. DUh! rupanya sakit perut memulas nak membuang tu minor contraction la..ceeee



So there goes my careful plan to induce the delivery. Nurse cakap we just wait and see la. Ceeehhhhh..Buang karan betul la. Kalau aku tau gitu, dah sakit maut baru aku datang spital..Takde la aku melepak boring kat spital sensorang. At this point, i called hubby and told him to finish whatever remaining jobs he had. Tak yah la datang spital pun sebab aku tak kan beranak any time soon.



At around 3 pm, aku dah mabuk boring dah ni. Puas la aku jenjalan siap dengar orang bilik sebelah beranak..siap nyibuk tengok nurse bersihkan baby tu..magazines kat waiting room tu jangan cakap la..dah naik hafal dah aku. Then only, dr. datang visit aku.



Cek la..mak pun kangkang la..Aisay..buang karan je aku jalan iya iya..still 3 cm. So doktor pun cakap...u gi naik atas la. Dok dalam ward. Alaaaaaa ni yg aku lemah ni.



So by 4 pm tu, aku pun di wheeled kan la ke normal ward. Lepak la kat sana borak borak yg member sebilik aku. tengah tengah borak aku dah rasa lain macam. Aiiyakk...sudah contraction la pulak. Masa tu aku dah rasa nyesal lak sebab pilih normal ward.



Bukan apa...aku cam dah tak terdaya nak mantain macho depan member se-ward. Memula tu eksyen, bukak tirai tu. Abis bila dah sakit lain macam, aku pelan pelan tutup cover tu. Kena la cover kan bila contraction tu datang..Takkan la aku menggelupur depan member tu.



Sambil tu aku jalan jalan jugak la..Lepak kat waiting room tu..semua orang tau bila aku contraction. takde la aku jerit jerit pun..cuma aku menggelupur je la grab kusi la..tekan kepala la..gitu gitu je la..



Sampai point aku rasa aku tak leh nak duduk and maintain dignity masa contraction tu, aku pun panggil nurse. Dah rasa lain macam dah ni.. Dia pun time la contraction about 5-6 min apart. By 6 pm, aku diwheeledkan balik to my labour room. vaginal check by the nurse, aku dah 5cm dilated.



Masa ni aku call laki aku cakap aku dah nak beranak kot. So dia boleh la datang spital. Tup tup dah pukul 7. Laki aku pun sampai..doktor pun sampai. Doktor cek lagi, and told me aku dah 8 cm. Aku masa ni dah hilang pertimbangan sikit la. rasa nak gigit kepala katil masa sakit tu pun ada jugak. Tapi maintain lagi la..paling paling pun aku grip tepi katil atau kusi yang aku duduk tu. Pendek kata, memang aku tak senang duduk la..kejab dok kat katil, kejab berdiri, kejab kat kusi..



Lepas azan maghrib (aku kan kat pusrawi-azan ada kat radio diaorang) team of doctor and nurses ambushed room aku. hehehe..takde la ambush..more like datang beramai ramai dan memeranjatkan aku yang tengah mengelupur tahan contraction. Rupanya doktor datang pecah air ketuban. Leeee...gini ke rasanya pecah ketuban. Basah kuyup aku dibuatnya..Kenapa masa alesha dulu tak messy cam ni? I wonder..



Anyhow..korang tau la what happened lepas pecah air ketuban. Mak datuk ya allah sakit nya..Again..kenapa masa alesha tak sakit cam ni? Aku pun tak tau. Memang masa tu aku vividly remember aku tak mo beranak lagi..aku tak mo normal delivery lagi..



Oohh..aku terlupa nak cakap..At about 5 -6 cm dilated, aku did ask the nurse for epi..tapi seperti zaman alesha..i was told it was too late for epi. Eiiiii...time tengah peak sakit tu, memang nyesal aku tak mintah epi. Nyesal nyesal nyesal!!!!



By 9 pm, there was sensation to push. Tapi very low la..But me being me..aku dah tak tahan sakit, aku push jugak. Doktor wasnt there yang ada hanya nurse..Memang puas la aku mintak vacuum la..potong la apa apa la to expedite kan beranak..Tak larat dah aku. rasa nak tercabut nyawa.



Last last nurse cakap ambik gas. Haaa..ini memang sesalan aku yang amat sangat. EEEeeeiiii gini rupanya ambik gas. Memang la ko macam leka je waktu contraction tu, tapi adeeeiii aku rasa aku macam mamat high. Sampaikan nurse suruh aku angkat kaki pun aku tak larat. All i could mustered was this groaning cum moaning answer yang sebenarnya bermaksud.."saya tak larat la kak.."



I heard story about gas ni, tapi tak sangka the effect was such, sampai i lost control of my bodily function. Sampai tahap nak push pun, i couldnt even master the energy to push. Nak cakap pun dok slur slur . Eiiii kalau aku mati la time tu, memang mati anjing je la..



Dek kerana 'kemalasan' aku tu..nurse ordered hubby to stop supplying the gas. Lupa lak aku..this delivery, laki aku tu official gas mask holder. Hahhaha...i only have to moan slightly..and the gas mask will be automatically placed on my face. Bagus tak laki aku. Memang active betul dia this time.



By 945 pm, the effect of the gas was finally wearing off me. The doctor was there and my feets were both up in the air. This was when i felt a sensation between my legs.. not a really good sensation i must tell ya. More like warm tearing feelings.



But aku ni yang hilang pertimbangan and acting like a first time mother (duh! kenapa aku boleh jadik gitu eh???) boleh tak- tak tau that its my baby coming out..Cam tu ye rasanya..Its good and not so good feeling..Boleh tak describe gitu??



Between crazy pushing and rambling mad for vacuum delivery..i had somehow manage to push the baby out. But like the rest of women of the world said, nothing beats the feeling of baby on your tummy.



And this time, the doctor did put the baby - blood, umbilical cord and all on my tummy and i did hang on to his arm when doctor was cutting his umbilical cord. What an amazing feeling eh?



I remembered doctor was asking me..you ingat tak i cakap u dapat baby apa masa check up..and i answered slurringly of course..lelaki..and yes..it is a boy!! masa tu aku mamai mamai mintak balik glasses aku.. sebab nak tengok baby.



Aku memang tekad delivery kali ni aku nak pakai spek mata aku. sebabnya masa alesha tu, everything went so fast dan aku sangatla rabun tak nampak apa sebab bukak spek. So kali ni..hell no im not taking my glasses of. Sometime during aku majal gas tu, nurse suh aku bukak spek so help me pushing - jgnla tanya aku camna it helps..aku pun tak tau logiknya. Tapi hubby did take my spec off and minah mamai ni tak de kederat la nak say no.

So at 945pm..beranak lah aku. By 1030pm, i have succesfully breastfed lil one.

Gitu la kisah beranak aku. Nothing exciting but pain pain and more pain. Itu aje dah cukup untuk jadik contraceptive aku for the time being. Hehehe

note: this entry was written on 31 Jan 2008