kelmarin..
Scenario: kejadian tengah malam terjaga sambil pandang muka alesha.
alesha : " semalam kakak dengar mama cakap i love u alesha razan"
me HATI KEMBANG
Semalam...
Scenario: Azhad tido awal. By the time i got home,dia memang dah tertido sampai pagi. At about 1am, dia tergaru garu kena gigit nyamuk. tetiba dia bangun, alihkan the dad's hand from my side, pulled my hand straight and landed his head on my arm.
me : "i love u azhad"
Azhad: angguk walaupun mata tertutup and continue sleeping
me HATI KEMBANG
thank u GOD. ALHAMDULLILAH.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
hambik ko!!
hahhaha setahun dowh tak blogging.
I do feel the urges to write once in awhile. simply because i need to be reminded of whats happening in my life.
Baru tadi dok baca entry before before - wow anak aku macam tu ke dulu? kenapa sekarang jadik lain? oohh well kids grow up. apa lagi jawapan nye ye dak.
I am 30 weeks pregnant. yeehaaa!!it was purely planned of course. Though i wonder whether it will ever be time yang aku tetiba tak plan mengandung and ngandung plak. Ohh please GOD - tak sanggup ok!!
It is a heavy one this one. Thank God i am not fat FAT, weight is still under control, but again me is being me - yang dah sememangnya gemuk cam tong drum kan. ive gained about say 5 -6 kgs up until now. weight is about 80kgs. so go figure how fat i was pre-pregnancy. :)
A note to self : like i said, it was a purely planned one. Yes we did want to have all babies in December, but alesha is starting standard 1 come 2012, and mak yang sappy and soappy ni tak sanggup tak hantar her to school on her 1st day. Plus dia yg beriya cakap mama teman kakak 5 hari je lepas tu tak payah. Which was really impressive since she was one cry baby when she started her kindy. Nonetheless, told hubby now way im waiting another december baby in 2012, will be too old by then. so if u wanna have another one, lets get on with it.
So here i am, 7 months after, dengan perut yang rasa nak terpecah whenever there is movement. Baby #3 is somewhat different from Alesha n Azhad. I remembered Alesha's movement macam butterfly in stomach gitu. dainty blurping movement in my tummy. Azhad was more agressive with a kick and punches here and there. tapi yang ni...korang tengok tak movie Constantine yang part baby dlm perut heroin tu.Haa lebih kurang ni. im cramping a lot. and when it moves, its like the entire tummy rumbles and mengeras. Macam tak cukup space and the baby is forcing my tummy to accommodate it.
Health wise alhamdullilah baby is doing ok. we did a full scan for the 1st time. giler freak out aku because we didnt have one for the 1st two. and when i googled for it, i got to know full scan is when u know whether u gonna have like health probs baby - sumbing la, jantung probs la, spina bifida etc things like that. Laki mak cool giler sebab he couldnt be bothered pun nak tau apa purpose full scan tu, but when the radiologist (what do u call the expert yg buat ultra sound tu?) bagitau ohh tak sumbing etc, baru cam meloncat. Eh ada possibility ke anak dia sumbing? Haaaa...baru ko tau gabranya aku before scan tu.
Imagine hearing bad news and knowing its your unborn baby? tak ke cam nak tercabut nyawa?
but like i said, alhamdullilah, semua ok. Aku je la yg tak berapa sihat. Will be doing my kencing manis test next week. Darah tinggi tu on off and semanjang on the high side. Im on trundate - ke apa nama ubat darah tinggi tu. tapi aku ni mmg hampeh.tak reti nak makan ubat on daily basis. kejab makan kejab tak makan. camna nak buat tu?hmm tawakal aje lah. dah memang sendiri yg carik penyakit.
Kali ni cam freak out sikit nak beranak. I am seriously considering epi. mak kan ala ala macho beranak 2 orang drug free. Siap refure any drug kan. sekali ambik ko, sakit cam nak tercabut pankreas masa beranak azhad. so la ni cam tengah tergiang giang rasa sakit beranak tu. apakah aku mampu nak tahan kali ni. But im a believer that God will not give u something that u cannot endure. Chet - cakap aje, nanti tunggu beranak aku cerita lagi.
Lain kali cerita lagi. have tonnes of things to write. later later la wokey.
I do feel the urges to write once in awhile. simply because i need to be reminded of whats happening in my life.
Baru tadi dok baca entry before before - wow anak aku macam tu ke dulu? kenapa sekarang jadik lain? oohh well kids grow up. apa lagi jawapan nye ye dak.
I am 30 weeks pregnant. yeehaaa!!it was purely planned of course. Though i wonder whether it will ever be time yang aku tetiba tak plan mengandung and ngandung plak. Ohh please GOD - tak sanggup ok!!
It is a heavy one this one. Thank God i am not fat FAT, weight is still under control, but again me is being me - yang dah sememangnya gemuk cam tong drum kan. ive gained about say 5 -6 kgs up until now. weight is about 80kgs. so go figure how fat i was pre-pregnancy. :)
A note to self : like i said, it was a purely planned one. Yes we did want to have all babies in December, but alesha is starting standard 1 come 2012, and mak yang sappy and soappy ni tak sanggup tak hantar her to school on her 1st day. Plus dia yg beriya cakap mama teman kakak 5 hari je lepas tu tak payah. Which was really impressive since she was one cry baby when she started her kindy. Nonetheless, told hubby now way im waiting another december baby in 2012, will be too old by then. so if u wanna have another one, lets get on with it.
So here i am, 7 months after, dengan perut yang rasa nak terpecah whenever there is movement. Baby #3 is somewhat different from Alesha n Azhad. I remembered Alesha's movement macam butterfly in stomach gitu. dainty blurping movement in my tummy. Azhad was more agressive with a kick and punches here and there. tapi yang ni...korang tengok tak movie Constantine yang part baby dlm perut heroin tu.Haa lebih kurang ni. im cramping a lot. and when it moves, its like the entire tummy rumbles and mengeras. Macam tak cukup space and the baby is forcing my tummy to accommodate it.
Health wise alhamdullilah baby is doing ok. we did a full scan for the 1st time. giler freak out aku because we didnt have one for the 1st two. and when i googled for it, i got to know full scan is when u know whether u gonna have like health probs baby - sumbing la, jantung probs la, spina bifida etc things like that. Laki mak cool giler sebab he couldnt be bothered pun nak tau apa purpose full scan tu, but when the radiologist (what do u call the expert yg buat ultra sound tu?) bagitau ohh tak sumbing etc, baru cam meloncat. Eh ada possibility ke anak dia sumbing? Haaaa...baru ko tau gabranya aku before scan tu.
Imagine hearing bad news and knowing its your unborn baby? tak ke cam nak tercabut nyawa?
but like i said, alhamdullilah, semua ok. Aku je la yg tak berapa sihat. Will be doing my kencing manis test next week. Darah tinggi tu on off and semanjang on the high side. Im on trundate - ke apa nama ubat darah tinggi tu. tapi aku ni mmg hampeh.tak reti nak makan ubat on daily basis. kejab makan kejab tak makan. camna nak buat tu?hmm tawakal aje lah. dah memang sendiri yg carik penyakit.
Kali ni cam freak out sikit nak beranak. I am seriously considering epi. mak kan ala ala macho beranak 2 orang drug free. Siap refure any drug kan. sekali ambik ko, sakit cam nak tercabut pankreas masa beranak azhad. so la ni cam tengah tergiang giang rasa sakit beranak tu. apakah aku mampu nak tahan kali ni. But im a believer that God will not give u something that u cannot endure. Chet - cakap aje, nanti tunggu beranak aku cerita lagi.
Lain kali cerita lagi. have tonnes of things to write. later later la wokey.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
HPV...Did u get it?
The office has been nice to arrange a talk on cervix cancer to all the female staff.
Inclusive in the talk, was the offer for the 3 jabs of HPV vaccine done at the office. It cost about RM490 paid in instalments.
I took up the offer.
Today was the day for the first jab. not so painful. boleh lah...
Inclusive in the talk, was the offer for the 3 jabs of HPV vaccine done at the office. It cost about RM490 paid in instalments.
I took up the offer.
Today was the day for the first jab. not so painful. boleh lah...
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
OMG !!!! IM BACK
Yes peeps - i am still alive!!
the long long hiatus was merely a writer block - and a bit of thinking whether i should stick to this blog, or move on to another new blog talking about new things.
as i said in my last post - which was yeah - almost 7 months ago, this year was all about me.
So far, i have replaced 2 compact powders, a tube of mascara, bought 3 shades of blusher, 2 tubes of primer and fixer..tried on purple barbie-styled lens (and sticking with it!) and mostly glasses-free when im out and about. Dear Hubby after sooooo many years with me, finally admitted moi look better without glasses. I am pretty sure he was saying that only because i have smacked lotsa eye make-up to cover my tired panda eyes ; which actually gave him the illusion i have hot smocking eyes *ok - now someone please slap me back to reality!!*
And i am again being real to myself - fashion style of course.I can pretend that im ok with the muslimah get-up - i am vain and i like what i have and still am wearing. So im totally over with jubah and such and sticking to my original outfit and suits my body type the most.
The fight against the bulges is still on. though hubby so dearest has actually scolded me like 'pesal la nak kurus - i tak penah mintak pun ok' - langsung haku sentap wokey - when i humbly (which is not a very often occasion) admitted that baby..i dah tak leh kurus dah..ni le badan wa ok!
so the question now - sapa yg ngada nak kurus? sendiri jawab wokey
Kiddos are doing great. demam sini sana with asthma attack dekat si Azhad. Alesha is getting taller and thinly. pegang tangan pun macam pegang chopstick je gayanya. But she is one cute to be hot chick 1 day. bapak nye dah risau, aku ok aje. let her live her life.
Azhad still as headstrong as ever - if not more. hari hari kena marah sampai i think he will be the death of me - well he is also my pride n joy (too) but his strong personality is a challenge to hubby n me - sampai laki mak takut nak beranakkan mak wokey!!!
All in all life is great - friends are around me , families are still healthy - i couldnt possible ask for more (except bonus BOSS!!!!)
tata peeps,and until the muse to write is here with me again.
the long long hiatus was merely a writer block - and a bit of thinking whether i should stick to this blog, or move on to another new blog talking about new things.
as i said in my last post - which was yeah - almost 7 months ago, this year was all about me.
So far, i have replaced 2 compact powders, a tube of mascara, bought 3 shades of blusher, 2 tubes of primer and fixer..tried on purple barbie-styled lens (and sticking with it!) and mostly glasses-free when im out and about. Dear Hubby after sooooo many years with me, finally admitted moi look better without glasses. I am pretty sure he was saying that only because i have smacked lotsa eye make-up to cover my tired panda eyes ; which actually gave him the illusion i have hot smocking eyes *ok - now someone please slap me back to reality!!*
And i am again being real to myself - fashion style of course.I can pretend that im ok with the muslimah get-up - i am vain and i like what i have and still am wearing. So im totally over with jubah and such and sticking to my original outfit and suits my body type the most.
The fight against the bulges is still on. though hubby so dearest has actually scolded me like 'pesal la nak kurus - i tak penah mintak pun ok' - langsung haku sentap wokey - when i humbly (which is not a very often occasion) admitted that baby..i dah tak leh kurus dah..ni le badan wa ok!
so the question now - sapa yg ngada nak kurus? sendiri jawab wokey
Kiddos are doing great. demam sini sana with asthma attack dekat si Azhad. Alesha is getting taller and thinly. pegang tangan pun macam pegang chopstick je gayanya. But she is one cute to be hot chick 1 day. bapak nye dah risau, aku ok aje. let her live her life.
Azhad still as headstrong as ever - if not more. hari hari kena marah sampai i think he will be the death of me - well he is also my pride n joy (too) but his strong personality is a challenge to hubby n me - sampai laki mak takut nak beranakkan mak wokey!!!
All in all life is great - friends are around me , families are still healthy - i couldnt possible ask for more (except bonus BOSS!!!!)
tata peeps,and until the muse to write is here with me again.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
new year and new resolution ..again?
hey peeps,
oohh it is 2010 already? *shivers* time flies!!
havent been writing much, yes i know. but somehow, memang takde idea nak tulis. the happenings in life - of course la banyak kan. but then again, tak terasa nak tulis.
Alesha is off to school like a big girl she is. day 1 and day 2 we were waiting outside her new class. but by the 3rd day, she was ok and in fact insisted that i dropped her by at the main gate, where she walked very confidently to her own class at level 2. Mak beamed with pride tapi so sedeh too coz my baby girl doesnt need me anymore *sob* sob* oh well..life goes on.
She requested for a ballet class this year. have been talking about it since last year infact. tapi im not so confident of letting her stay away more hours at school sebab last year was her 1st year in school. She had her 1st ballet class last week, and couldn't wait to go for the next class -which is every friday. Now demanded we buy her tutu and shoe and the blardy expensive ballet gear la kan. rabak poket mak. Allocation ready dah , but not so confident of purchasing because her 'kakak malu' attitude tu kekadang makes her quit half way. sheesshhhh!! camna nak buat??
Baru masuk 1st month teacher is making notation in her reading book - REVISION AT HOME PLEASE!! nampak naa the momsy tak buat revision. apa la teacher ni. im not pushing her to read pun. so what if her classmates dah sampai book 20 she is still at her book 5? tapi sebab dah teacher remarked like that, me stressed tak tentu pasal. Plus im a bit worry coz she tends to write terbalik. Alesha is correct (she can write her full name) but sometimes 'e' ngadap 'l' and 's' ngadap 'e'. whats the penyakit? dyslexis? (sp.) rasanye tak kot. coz i know some of ur girls are also having the same prob.
nonetheless, mak masih hari hari pakai mantra 'no peer pressure! no peer pressure!' i never believe in pressuring for school excellence. Life is much more than being good in school. lagipun, setakat pandai sampai darjah 6 aje, bila dah masuk secondary ke laut buat apa? Of course im talking from experience!!
Azhad is still the baby me. Mouth is getting cleaver also. Favorite sentences ..'mama niiii...' accompanied with muka n mata yg kerut kerut pissed off giler kenkonon. 'or pweeeaaseee..' if rasa rasa permintaan akan ditolak. He is getting chubbier each day and loves me like nobody in this world. Of course la any son would loves his mother (any daugther too) but he is very expressive with his feelings..definitely my boy la kan. like suddenly mouth-kiss me with 'i youu mama..' read 'i love u mama', or hands on my cheeks and very cheeky smiles with eyes kerut kerut, followed with a big hug.
because of this, we had decided to put on hold the idea of another baby. damn..dah 2 tahun dah pun on hold, when the original plan was to have babies every 2 years. tapi mak is not complaining as this baby-on-hold thing is very much related to my new year resolution.
the vain me decided 2010 is a time for me and me and me. jan 2010 started very shitty ok! but lets not get into that. work wise too depressing. but not an excuse for me not to proced with my new year resolution.
2010 is a time to look GOOD babe! as in bodylicious-make-up-forever-stilettos-allthetimes!! but god knows la berapa lama aku nak continue pakai high heel kan coz mmg dah ada history sakit pinggang if pakai heels. nonetheless, lets see how long this year's resolution last.
until later peeps, wa nak tido dulu. i leave u with my perasan vogue pic ..of course ngan side kicks 2 orang itu kan..tata
oohh it is 2010 already? *shivers* time flies!!
havent been writing much, yes i know. but somehow, memang takde idea nak tulis. the happenings in life - of course la banyak kan. but then again, tak terasa nak tulis.
Alesha is off to school like a big girl she is. day 1 and day 2 we were waiting outside her new class. but by the 3rd day, she was ok and in fact insisted that i dropped her by at the main gate, where she walked very confidently to her own class at level 2. Mak beamed with pride tapi so sedeh too coz my baby girl doesnt need me anymore *sob* sob* oh well..life goes on.
She requested for a ballet class this year. have been talking about it since last year infact. tapi im not so confident of letting her stay away more hours at school sebab last year was her 1st year in school. She had her 1st ballet class last week, and couldn't wait to go for the next class -which is every friday. Now demanded we buy her tutu and shoe and the blardy expensive ballet gear la kan. rabak poket mak. Allocation ready dah , but not so confident of purchasing because her 'kakak malu' attitude tu kekadang makes her quit half way. sheesshhhh!! camna nak buat??
Baru masuk 1st month teacher is making notation in her reading book - REVISION AT HOME PLEASE!! nampak naa the momsy tak buat revision. apa la teacher ni. im not pushing her to read pun. so what if her classmates dah sampai book 20 she is still at her book 5? tapi sebab dah teacher remarked like that, me stressed tak tentu pasal. Plus im a bit worry coz she tends to write terbalik. Alesha is correct (she can write her full name) but sometimes 'e' ngadap 'l' and 's' ngadap 'e'. whats the penyakit? dyslexis? (sp.) rasanye tak kot. coz i know some of ur girls are also having the same prob.
nonetheless, mak masih hari hari pakai mantra 'no peer pressure! no peer pressure!' i never believe in pressuring for school excellence. Life is much more than being good in school. lagipun, setakat pandai sampai darjah 6 aje, bila dah masuk secondary ke laut buat apa? Of course im talking from experience!!
Azhad is still the baby me. Mouth is getting cleaver also. Favorite sentences ..'mama niiii...' accompanied with muka n mata yg kerut kerut pissed off giler kenkonon. 'or pweeeaaseee..' if rasa rasa permintaan akan ditolak. He is getting chubbier each day and loves me like nobody in this world. Of course la any son would loves his mother (any daugther too) but he is very expressive with his feelings..definitely my boy la kan. like suddenly mouth-kiss me with 'i youu mama..' read 'i love u mama', or hands on my cheeks and very cheeky smiles with eyes kerut kerut, followed with a big hug.
because of this, we had decided to put on hold the idea of another baby. damn..dah 2 tahun dah pun on hold, when the original plan was to have babies every 2 years. tapi mak is not complaining as this baby-on-hold thing is very much related to my new year resolution.
the vain me decided 2010 is a time for me and me and me. jan 2010 started very shitty ok! but lets not get into that. work wise too depressing. but not an excuse for me not to proced with my new year resolution.
2010 is a time to look GOOD babe! as in bodylicious-make-up-forever-stilettos-allthetimes!! but god knows la berapa lama aku nak continue pakai high heel kan coz mmg dah ada history sakit pinggang if pakai heels. nonetheless, lets see how long this year's resolution last.
until later peeps, wa nak tido dulu. i leave u with my perasan vogue pic ..of course ngan side kicks 2 orang itu kan..tata
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
JUA, SILA AHH PILIH KAMI..
AUNTIE JUA, SILA PILIH KELUARGA KAMI KERANA..
Kami ni ibarat keluarga 69. Pak sedara saya baru je umor 6 tahun, walhal abang sedara saya aka cousin saya dah pun nak masuk darjah 4. Itu tak termasuk saya yg dah umor 5 tahun, tahun depan.
saya rasa, bila saya besar nanti, mesti cam terkonpius nak panggey pakcik saya apa.La ni memang la abang sedara saya tu dok jerit jerit Pak Cik Pak Cik kat pak cik saya tu masa main wrestling WWF, tapi gamaknya kok nak mintak rokok sebatang ke bila dah umor 30-an nanti (uisshh idak le saya nak dorang tu merokok hookay) mesti cam awkward je gitew.
Pak cik saya tu pun satu, kekadang tersasul sasul panggil diri sendiri nama dia..(bukannya pakcik cam yang kitaorang panggey)..itu belum lagi dia panggey mama saya auntie. ada ke kakak dia , dia boleh tersasul panggey auntie.
tapi tak kisah apa pun, saya rasa gamba raya kitaorang ni memang paling GLAM skali. rasa cam boleh jadik cover kaset kumpulan rock dulu dulu pulak - ini mak saya la yang kata. Tak pun jadik gambar model susu cap gantung untuk budak budak membesar sihat.
Auntie Jua, saya tahu saya tak cukup syarat - tapi quote mama saya - ada aku kesah??? - kerana sememangnya saya ni datang dari keluarga yang suka GLAM GLAM sebegini.
So Auntie Jua, pilihla foto ni sebab saya rasa saya sefamili sangat vogue gitew..
Ini lah gambar family saya yang sangat vogue itew...
cerita sket pasal pic ni. Ni kat kampung rumah unyang saya. Nampak tak frame kat blakang tu? tu semua gambar lama lama atok/nenek/uncles etc etc mama saya. Saya pun dah tak berapa kenal la diaorang tu. semua cam dah janggut janggut buncit pun ada. yang dah meninggal sah sah la saya tak kenal kan. Rumah ni ala ala rumah tinggal la jugak. Cuma atok saya je yang balik seminggu skali tengok keliling. Chantek kan gamba saya ni!!
salam sayang;
Alesha Razan
p/s: mama saya budget budget takkan menang, so dia paksa letak 2 pic sebab giler glammer yang teramat.
Kami ni ibarat keluarga 69. Pak sedara saya baru je umor 6 tahun, walhal abang sedara saya aka cousin saya dah pun nak masuk darjah 4. Itu tak termasuk saya yg dah umor 5 tahun, tahun depan.
saya rasa, bila saya besar nanti, mesti cam terkonpius nak panggey pakcik saya apa.La ni memang la abang sedara saya tu dok jerit jerit Pak Cik Pak Cik kat pak cik saya tu masa main wrestling WWF, tapi gamaknya kok nak mintak rokok sebatang ke bila dah umor 30-an nanti (uisshh idak le saya nak dorang tu merokok hookay) mesti cam awkward je gitew.
Pak cik saya tu pun satu, kekadang tersasul sasul panggil diri sendiri nama dia..(bukannya pakcik cam yang kitaorang panggey)..itu belum lagi dia panggey mama saya auntie. ada ke kakak dia , dia boleh tersasul panggey auntie.
tapi tak kisah apa pun, saya rasa gamba raya kitaorang ni memang paling GLAM skali. rasa cam boleh jadik cover kaset kumpulan rock dulu dulu pulak - ini mak saya la yang kata. Tak pun jadik gambar model susu cap gantung untuk budak budak membesar sihat.
Auntie Jua, saya tahu saya tak cukup syarat - tapi quote mama saya - ada aku kesah??? - kerana sememangnya saya ni datang dari keluarga yang suka GLAM GLAM sebegini.
So Auntie Jua, pilihla foto ni sebab saya rasa saya sefamili sangat vogue gitew..
Ini lah gambar family saya yang sangat vogue itew...
cerita sket pasal pic ni. Ni kat kampung rumah unyang saya. Nampak tak frame kat blakang tu? tu semua gambar lama lama atok/nenek/uncles etc etc mama saya. Saya pun dah tak berapa kenal la diaorang tu. semua cam dah janggut janggut buncit pun ada. yang dah meninggal sah sah la saya tak kenal kan. Rumah ni ala ala rumah tinggal la jugak. Cuma atok saya je yang balik seminggu skali tengok keliling. Chantek kan gamba saya ni!!
salam sayang;
Alesha Razan
p/s: mama saya budget budget takkan menang, so dia paksa letak 2 pic sebab giler glammer yang teramat.
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