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Jawapan: Itchibawa

HAhahahhah...tak tau la kelaka ke idak..tapi aku baru je melantak lasagna for lunch. uwaaaaa nampak tak stress level aku makin naik ni..

The vanity in me

This post is about me.. me ..me..and the vain me.

I have always tried to potray myself as this confident 'young' lady despite i am a head shorter or 10 kilos heavier than the rest of peeps around me. I have always tried to say that i dont care how i look, i am easy in my own skin.

BUT seriously...who am i kidding. I wish i am 5'8" instead of 4'11". I wish i am 50++ kilos instead of 70++ kilos.

I know there is nothing i can do with my height. Except buy more 3" heel shoes. But my weight..hmm that is another issue.

Weight has always been my problem. Even before i was married, I was forever within the 60 - 65kgs range. If my memory serves me right, with the help of a particular pill, i managed to reduce to a suprising 60kgs for my wedding. And i looked damn good. Clothes fitted nicely on me..and i remember feeling so great and sexy.

Now after 4 years in marriage and 2 kids after that, i am 10 kilos heavier. *sigh* sigh*

I dont feel quite so good about myself now..and come on...who can feel sexy with 2 screaming kids demanding attention and such.

But feeling great and looking sexy are just not for people around me. I need to feel great and desirable for myself. So i can still 'feel' as a woman rather than a mom.*sigh*sigh* again.

Just another luahan rasa coz i think my XXL pant is getting tighter around the waistline these couple of days..huhuhuhu...camna nak kurus ni!!

Just my 20-sen

I was reading Fid's blog about excuses moms gave to NOT bf their children.

Some of her comments were simple hilarious. Her sumpah seranah was simply too kelakar for it to have actual impact (on me that is). But i tend to agree with her.

All the 'soalan sesak' napas tu memang simply out-of-this-world. Maybe boleh buat buku kot '50 Soalan-Soalan Sesak Napas Berhubung Penyusuan Anak'...Hahahaha

I mean, with due respect, i think the mothers who posted the question, only have the purest intention at heart and the posting came about only because they are seriously thinking of breastfeeding their lil' ones.

Tapi bak kata Fid la kan....kena la fikir logik.

When i decided to breastfeed Azhad, i think i asked petty questions too. I repeat : PETTY but not SESAK NApas OK!! (korang yg aku penah tanya boleh la tolong clarify kan aku ni)

And i tend to agree with Fid - the bottom line in breastfeeding your baby is yourself. There are no 2 ways around it. Preseverance ..preseverance and preseverance. And being the expert mom of NOT Breastfeeding her 1st born, i know the meaning of preserverance.

Timing kerja etc etc tu should not be a problem. Of course, not having the time to pump at work is also my problem especially now with mountain of works waiting (hence you are seeing less of me here nowadays) but it should not be the main reason why you are not breastfeeding your child.

Like me now, i am pumping only once in the office due to time constraint. But i make it a point to pump while feeding Azhad once i am home. And most of the time, i get about 6 - 8 oz in 1 go. Not bad considering Azhad takes about 4 oz one time. And if i am not too tired, 1 more pumping session before i go to sleep.

On top of preserverance, i think 1 good mantra is 'just go with the flow'. For me, i never put high expectation. I mean..well we have to believe in rezki tuhan bagi, right? As for me, it may not be in mata wang ringgit, but in my 'sufficient' milk production.

And when i say 'sufficient' it is really cukup-cukup..ok. I dont have like 2 months stock in freezer. My 'stock' is only for about 1 day. And there were days when it was damn hard for me to even get 4 oz. I sometimes had to spend close to 1 hour to express both breast to get about 3 oz.

I tried not to get gabra about it. Not to the point of posting the same popular question : cam mana nak tambah susu badan. Come on people, the answers are already posted on the 1st page of the thread!!! tak payah la nak keep on tanya kan. Aku naik nyampah nak bukak the thread sebab whenever it surfaces, it is still the same old question (ingatkan ada la soalan/jawapan baru)

As for me, in a way its a blessing in disguise that i was never 'blessed' with susu yang melimpah ruah. So i am not overly gabra whenever my milk supply is on the low side. But as not to take things for granted, these people worrying about their supply kena la take pro active measures like me.

Measure no. 1 : always have dried longan stock. I boiled mine every week with honeyed sugar rock. lasted for about 1 -2 days in a fridge. A favourite with hubby too.

Measure no. 2 : always have dried red kurma. Boiled this whenever i need a break from dried longan. Not really a fav with the family.

Measure no. 3 : biji halba. Had these during my confinement. An experience i detest to repeat. But just for extra measure incase no. 1 and no. 2 are no help.

What i am trying to say is, you only try you best. Kalau kemalasan dan segalanya dah mencengkam jiwa. Then do not force yourself coz u might end up hating yourself or worse your baby in the process.

Hakikatnya , if there is rezki for Azhad, there is. If not, there is always susu dalam tin. Thats my motivation.

Your input please

I am writing this post just to get input from you guys out there. Aku dah bf anak aku for approximately 3 mos now. At this i just a short cut way of handling ebm. This is by far the simplest and convenience method for me. It might not be your style, but should in any case my way is harming the ebm, please leave a comment.

Pumping Session 1 - Subuh
Use pump sterilised at 10.00 p.m. (?)
Once pump, pour in dispo beg and tied with rubber band in freezer
Usually gets about 6-7 oz (4 oz & 3 oz in a beg)

ebm stored in freezer for storage

Pumping Session 2 - 11-ish (At work)
Use pump sterilised after Pumping Session 1
Content of Avent Out & About Beg
- 1 small (or medium) iceman cooler pack
- 2 to 4 packs of techni ice (4 cubes in 1 pack)
- pump
- 3 -4 dispo begs

Pump and store ebm in dispo begs and store ebm in Avent Out & About Beg
Shake pump off from excess ebm and store in Avent Beg

Pumping Session 3 - 2 to 3 pm

Re-use Pump (without Sterilise)(??)
Repeat above process

Pumping Session 4 - 6 to 8 pm

Repeat Pumping Session 4

all ebms safely stored in fridge (for tomorrow's consumption) at about 9.00 p.m.

Question:
1. Boleh ke pakai pump tu tanpa sterelise? So far, anak aku takde la terbantut or cirit ke apa.
2. Tahan ke techni ice and coleman icepack tu? So far, by 9.00 p.m. tu, beg tu cam dah rasa sejuk sepoi-sepoi bahasa je.

Your input please.

He loves me

I just need to be reminded of how lucky i am whenever i read pausetoreflect.
So this entry goes to my dear Baby. I dont need your words of love..I am daily reminded by it when you..
1. do the laundry because u know i am too big to maneuver myself in our small laundry room (regardless whether i was pregnant or not!! Haha)
2. hang the clothes because u know i hate the sweat and the sun on me
3. wash the dishes when i was busy with our kids
4. wake up at nite for alesha's bottle time coz u know i am forever 'attached' on azhad
5. buy me choc and such despite the fact we both know i seriously need to loose more than 10 kilos!!!

i love you though at times its very difficult to show our loves with 2 kids arounds.

KENA TAG AKU NIIIIII

hISH...Aku kena tag ke? Dah la kena tag ngan cik lola sikit punya susah aku nak jawab. Reason being = oiii mak anak dah 2 takde masa nak baca buku daaaa - buku color and shape and animal aku baca la...bacakan untuk anak..

Tapi kerana aku tak penah di tag, aku pun jawab la jugak..

Last book read?
alaa tak hingat laaaa...But i know its some romance bs yg goey goey buat kita nak muntah.

Currently reading?
Tak de baca apa. paper pun aku baca heading je. Buku flip picture tu boleh kira baca ke? sebab aku hari hari alesha mintak baca buku tu ke dia

Favourite author?
Zaman aku muda remaja dulu (read=takde anak), aku suka this romance authors Susan Elisabeth Phillips and Rachel Gibbons (ke Gibbs?).

Favaourite Genre?
mak baca romance books je..but i love mystical jugak. Ala ala vampire gitu pun mak suka baca jugak. Ingat tak author citer bebudak Christopher Pike? Uwaaa..semua buku dia mak baca sampai khatam tau.

Favourite book
- fiction? takde kot , main belasah baca je
- nonfiction? takde la

3 books you wish to read next?
hehehhe haritu masa girls nite out, kawan aku (sah-sah dia ni bujang kan!!) ada cakap she is reading this romance-horror (ala pasal werewolves, vampires bercinta ngan mortal). Highly recommended because of the steamy scenes. Hahahaha lame tak haku?

Tak kuasa nak tag sesapa. Lagipun bukannya ramai sangat orang yg visit blog aku ni. Korang korang je sebenarnya.

Hatiku gundah gulana

Haiii..apa la nak jadik!!!

Aku ni bukannya peminat politik sangat pun. baca paper ada la kot seminggu sekali. Itupun ruangan hiburan kat paper kecik satu newspaper ni. I am that bad about worldnews and local news ok!!

Tapi aku runsing la tentang apa yg terjadi ke negara aku tercinta ni. Meskipun wheather Malaysia ni buat exzema aku makin menjadi-jadi, meskipun aku tak penah merasa main salji kat negara omputih nun, tapi aku tetap suka nak dok sini.

Bak kata aku tadi, aku bukan la peminat politik, tapi aku runsing. Runsing akan nasib anak cucu cicit aku. Aku sokong parti satu ni bukan sebab aku suka sangat ngan pemimpinnya, nor do i believe the party's punya memorandum. Tapi aku sokong sebab aku fikir ramai melayu (walaupun separuhnya bukan macam islam) yg memimpin parti tu. Yang paling aku suka pasal hak melayu walaupun kini kian dikurangkan, masih lagi terbela. Aku ni memang pro melayu ok!! Bangsa bangsa lain tu aku tak peduli sebab aku rasa anak melayu kita ni dioppress sangat sangat di corporate world -where the pool of money is.

Tak penah ada jaminan bahawa parti parti lain yg tengah naik and berjaya merampas 4 negeri tu akan membawa banner anak melayu. Apa yang aku nampak, parti ni semuanya menjaja equality among races - yang sememangnya aku tak setuju. Kesian kat anak cucu cicit aku kena bersaing ngan bangsa mata sepet. Mesti susah nak masuk uni, nak cari kerja, susah itu susah ini susah semuanya la!! Silap haribulan, anak cucu cicit melayu aku melarat cam boyan/indon yang makin banyak bertapak kat sini. Melarat = bukan takde rm (Indon umah aku kaya giler ok sebab ambik upah buat rumah) tapi melarat terpinggir dari peluang untuk maju globally.

Aku tau ada yg akan cakap dengan oppression, bangsa akan lebih berjaya. Akan lebih mahu bersaing dan sebagainya. Tapi pada aku, tok nenek aku yg susah susah dapatkan kemerdekaan, patutnya anak cicit aku jugak mesti dapat kelebihan!!Tak patut ada tolak ansur dalam isu ini. Lagipun, bangsa mata sepet tu dalam perasan tak perasan memang aim nak meng-oppress bangsa kita. Dengan opression yang sedia ada - ya aku mengaku melayu mmg oppress bangsa lain - bangsa mata sepet tu masih berjaya mengetepikan peluang-peluang anak bangsa melayu. Bayangkan, uni grad melayu kena bersaing for same position ngan spm holder mata sepet.

Itu yg terjadi sekarang. Bila parti yg menang 4 negeri tu berjaya buat kerajaan (nauzubillah) aku tak tau apa yang akan terjadi.

Lagi satu aku tak paham, apa la yg budak 28 tahun dapat buat kat lembah pantai tu? ish ish ish...Pelik aku dengan agenda bangsa melayu yang mengundi sekarang ni. Yg sepet dan yang terlebih tan kulitnya tu aku tak mau kata apa la..Kang jadik medan racial war lak blog aku ni kan..tapi yang melayu ni. Hmmm..cuba la buat aku paham kenapa la jadik macam ni.

Sebab harga minyak? harga barang? sebab rasuah? Hmm...abisnya kalau parti yang rupa bulan separuh kaler biru tu menang, takde rasuah? boleh control harga minyak dunia? Pemimpin parti tu kala jadik Menteri Kewangan dulu entah apa yang dibuatnya sampai boleh melabuh jatuh ekonomi Malaysia, kita tak fikir pulak rasuh yang dimainkannya, kan?

Yang salah bukan parti, tapi pemimpinnya. Yang gatal dengan pompuan mongolia bukan parti, tapi pemimpinnya. Sama jugak dengan parti lain, kalau ada agenda tersendiri, keadaan bukan saja teruk, malah boleh binasakan negara dan masa depan anak cucu..Hish..risau aku..

Aku harap generasi yang baru mengundi ni buka mata. Jangan ikut perasaan. Jangan marahkan orang tertentu, anak cucu cicit sendiri yang jadik mangsa. Orang tertentu tu bukannya boleh hidup 20 tahun lagi pun, tapi 20 tahun lagi tu zaman anak cucu kita nak hidup. Kita kena la beringat nak letakkan foundation yang kukuh untuk memudahkan kehidupan mereka.

Orang macam aku ni takde harta benda yang nak ditinggalkan..ini lah peninggalan aku.. Negara yang aman damai dengan peluang-peluang yang cukup menjaga kepentingan anak cucu cicit aku.


selingan: aku memang letak setting font aku kecik, tapi bila aku tengok kat pc aku ni, dia cam font 12 aje. ke setting monitor ngek aku ni yang buat nampak besar?