Seriously tak de mood nak blog.
I have like thousands things to say when i am anywhere near the internet, tapi when i switch on, langsung nada. Takde idea. So i ended up blog hopping.
I have come accross several single mom bloggers. all were force into the situation when the spouses fell ill and later passed on. Reading their thoughts sometimes makes me re-evaluate my situation.
Like any other couples, we have our ups and downs, yes? But at times, i think i am tested to my limit. I at times asked my self, how 'deep' the downs that i can handle? when would it be my last 'down'? I dare not answer the question and i dare not think of it further.
But whatever 'downs' there be, i am pretty certain it will not be as bad as having to lost your spouse forever. Maybe time heals all wounds, but it will surely leave a dent in your heart, and a gaping holes in your children. That i know as the case of the demise of my mom.
As coward as i am to think of my own possibilities, i know for a certain the kids wont be able to stand life without their dad. Not a chance. He is very much a part of them as i hope i am the other part.
Why am i writing all these craps? Blame it on the lack of blogging-motivator. Where la my muse ni?
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
kesabaran ya puan-puan
tag mende.
sesungguhnya aku tak brape reti nk paste la letak pic. reti sesikit je, tapi sbb tangan aku tgh guna megepam , maka nya aku tk brapa ada kesabaran nk godek-godek mengepaste pic.
so to fid n ms lola ..buleh tak anggap aku dah buat tag korang tu walau sbnarnya aku tak buat. hehehe buleh gitu?
sesungguhnya aku tak brape reti nk paste la letak pic. reti sesikit je, tapi sbb tangan aku tgh guna megepam , maka nya aku tk brapa ada kesabaran nk godek-godek mengepaste pic.
so to fid n ms lola ..buleh tak anggap aku dah buat tag korang tu walau sbnarnya aku tak buat. hehehe buleh gitu?
Monday, October 6, 2008
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
raksasa gigi
im getting nervous.
itu milk moster is spotting 2 budding teeth. Takuttttt!!
TAMBAHAN: I WAS WRONG. THEY WERE 4 TEETH 2 ON BOTH GUMS. AND 1 MORE SPOUTING ON UPPER GUMS. AARRGGHH
it was a delayed development i think. But none i would expediTe. His other development is still on cue. I might as well write about this before i forget all about it.
turn on tummy - 4 mos
crawling - 7 mos
standing up - 8 mos
crusing - 9 mos
teething - 9 1/2 mos
simple mamma (mama) /appa (papa) - 9 mos
pok amoi-amoi - 9mos
climb down bed - last week (yet to be an expert - help required from parent, except on 1 - 2 occasion bila mak terlelap tetiba sedar anak hilang rupanye dah masuk bawah katil)
wave bye - baru smalam
will update proper later. ni tgh type sebelah tangan while pumping.
ohh and he is still exclusive on susu mama. hurray!!!!
itu milk moster is spotting 2 budding teeth. Takuttttt!!
TAMBAHAN: I WAS WRONG. THEY WERE 4 TEETH 2 ON BOTH GUMS. AND 1 MORE SPOUTING ON UPPER GUMS. AARRGGHH
it was a delayed development i think. But none i would expediTe. His other development is still on cue. I might as well write about this before i forget all about it.
turn on tummy - 4 mos
crawling - 7 mos
standing up - 8 mos
crusing - 9 mos
teething - 9 1/2 mos
simple mamma (mama) /appa (papa) - 9 mos
pok amoi-amoi - 9mos
climb down bed - last week (yet to be an expert - help required from parent, except on 1 - 2 occasion bila mak terlelap tetiba sedar anak hilang rupanye dah masuk bawah katil)
wave bye - baru smalam
will update proper later. ni tgh type sebelah tangan while pumping.
ohh and he is still exclusive on susu mama. hurray!!!!
Kenapa Raya
i hate hari raya..
apart from the fact that you tend to spend more that you can afford : read duit raya, baju raya, kasut raya, kuih raya, makanan raya.. there is also these endless soapy (did i get the spelling rite) raya drama that went on..and on...and on...and on ...Sheesh..enough!! i know la derhaka if i neglect my orang tua and favor my husband (or usually wife) over my elderly. And pleasessssss no more anak yatim story la!!! I am anak yatim myself...ok je time raya.
Reason no. 2
Penat seh!!!! the gerombolan yang tiba with the spirit of hari raya..Eh...korang tau tak tuan rumah cam nak tercabut kaki tangan pinggang bagai korang datang sampai 7 8 keta sekaligus!!! Bukan organ badan aku je nak tercabut, rumah aku tu kalau boleh dia angkat kaki lari tak mo bagi orang masuk tau!! (Somehow aku rasa entry kali ni lagi best tulis dalam bahse melayu)
Reason no. 3
Bermaaf maafan. Ok ok aku paham la kena bermaaf maafan..tapi kalau tak maaf-maaf ni tak leh raya ke? Lagi-lagi kalau maaf ala ala drama tv 1 yg melutut lutut nangis-nangis cam nak tercabut mata. Adakah ini tuntutan agama ke amalan masyarakat. kalau tuntutan agama, kena maaf-maaf masa raya, aku tarik balik la. (aku rasa bermaaf maafan tu kena hari-hari, bukan time raya je)
Reason no. 4
Aku yg terpressure sendiri. mempressure nak set rambut la, nak touch up muka la, nak make up la..last last, semua jadik memek berminyak sebab asyik dok kat dapur je. Ntah sapa-sapa la yg nak tengok muka vava voom aku pagi raya tu. Perasaan betul.
p:s betul aku sengal tak tau nak tulis apa.
KEPADA KORANG, SELAMAT HARI RAYA...
apart from the fact that you tend to spend more that you can afford : read duit raya, baju raya, kasut raya, kuih raya, makanan raya.. there is also these endless soapy (did i get the spelling rite) raya drama that went on..and on...and on...and on ...Sheesh..enough!! i know la derhaka if i neglect my orang tua and favor my husband (or usually wife) over my elderly. And pleasessssss no more anak yatim story la!!! I am anak yatim myself...ok je time raya.
Reason no. 2
Penat seh!!!! the gerombolan yang tiba with the spirit of hari raya..Eh...korang tau tak tuan rumah cam nak tercabut kaki tangan pinggang bagai korang datang sampai 7 8 keta sekaligus!!! Bukan organ badan aku je nak tercabut, rumah aku tu kalau boleh dia angkat kaki lari tak mo bagi orang masuk tau!! (Somehow aku rasa entry kali ni lagi best tulis dalam bahse melayu)
Reason no. 3
Bermaaf maafan. Ok ok aku paham la kena bermaaf maafan..tapi kalau tak maaf-maaf ni tak leh raya ke? Lagi-lagi kalau maaf ala ala drama tv 1 yg melutut lutut nangis-nangis cam nak tercabut mata. Adakah ini tuntutan agama ke amalan masyarakat. kalau tuntutan agama, kena maaf-maaf masa raya, aku tarik balik la. (aku rasa bermaaf maafan tu kena hari-hari, bukan time raya je)
Reason no. 4
Aku yg terpressure sendiri. mempressure nak set rambut la, nak touch up muka la, nak make up la..last last, semua jadik memek berminyak sebab asyik dok kat dapur je. Ntah sapa-sapa la yg nak tengok muka vava voom aku pagi raya tu. Perasaan betul.
p:s betul aku sengal tak tau nak tulis apa.
KEPADA KORANG, SELAMAT HARI RAYA...
Monday, September 15, 2008
Aku Dilema
Kindy 1
RM2200 for 6 months. SUPERB!!!! mak rasa mak pun nak belajar sana nyah!!! Of course the price exclude extra classes for agama, ballet, taekwando, swimming etc etc yg mak bapak tak penah gi pun. Anak masuk gerenti cakap omputeh berabuk. Tapi dijangka akan inferiority complex kerana mak pak budak lain hanta anak-anak diaorang dalam kereta mewah tahap jaguar sey..as compared to Kancil 850cc kepunyaan mak.
Rega sangat hampir pada gaji bulanan mak yg take home pay nye ialah negative balance. Apa citer?
Kindy 2
RM1300 for 6 months. SO-SO. Ada Iqra and claimed to be islamic based. tapi sangsi akan keupayaan berbahasa inggeris sebab mak rasa mak lagi pandai cakap omputih dari cikgu-cikgunya. Malah cikgunya cakap "alaa..nanti budak pandai cakap omputih sebab kenkawan cakap omputeh." hmm sungguh tak memberansangkan. Habisnya kalau tahun tu budak yg enroll semua ala ala anak aku, tak ke gamaknya anak aku cakap bahasa minang gak? mende la...
Tapi conscience mak clear sebab anak blaja agama.
Kindy 3
RM900 for 3 months. Ok la sebab ni franchise and system already has track record. Tapi mak tak bekenan cha ya nun alif kelas pertengahan (and maybe ade kot upper class) majority di situ. Mak rasa cikgu nye tu cam SPM leaver je..hmm..tak confident sangat.
Kindy 4
RM800 for 3 months. Pun franchise jugak. tapi mak tak berkenan sebab rumah banglo 2 tingkat. tangga ada ke pakai polished marble (ini ke right term - ala marble yg kilat-kilat tak de permukaan kasar tu) ni kalau kaki basah mau terus kebawah je tergelincir. Mak dah terbayang bayang darah yg memancut sebab edges tangga tu tajam. (uwaaa active imagination okay!!) dah la budak tu jalan kelong. letak la carpet ke apa ke..mende la. Definitely cha ya nun alif conquer. Ni lagi sengal sebab ada ke dia cakap kids tak leh bawak pork n meat aje. Abisnya ayam katok kalau anak aku telan apa citer??
Hmm..KEMAS berapa ringgit?
UNTUK MAKLUMAN: KAWASAN YG DISURVEY ADALAH TTDI - KEPONG - MANJARALA - SEGAMBUT . dekat ngan umah la wehhh
RM2200 for 6 months. SUPERB!!!! mak rasa mak pun nak belajar sana nyah!!! Of course the price exclude extra classes for agama, ballet, taekwando, swimming etc etc yg mak bapak tak penah gi pun. Anak masuk gerenti cakap omputeh berabuk. Tapi dijangka akan inferiority complex kerana mak pak budak lain hanta anak-anak diaorang dalam kereta mewah tahap jaguar sey..as compared to Kancil 850cc kepunyaan mak.
Rega sangat hampir pada gaji bulanan mak yg take home pay nye ialah negative balance. Apa citer?
Kindy 2
RM1300 for 6 months. SO-SO. Ada Iqra and claimed to be islamic based. tapi sangsi akan keupayaan berbahasa inggeris sebab mak rasa mak lagi pandai cakap omputih dari cikgu-cikgunya. Malah cikgunya cakap "alaa..nanti budak pandai cakap omputih sebab kenkawan cakap omputeh." hmm sungguh tak memberansangkan. Habisnya kalau tahun tu budak yg enroll semua ala ala anak aku, tak ke gamaknya anak aku cakap bahasa minang gak? mende la...
Tapi conscience mak clear sebab anak blaja agama.
Kindy 3
RM900 for 3 months. Ok la sebab ni franchise and system already has track record. Tapi mak tak bekenan cha ya nun alif kelas pertengahan (and maybe ade kot upper class) majority di situ. Mak rasa cikgu nye tu cam SPM leaver je..hmm..tak confident sangat.
Kindy 4
RM800 for 3 months. Pun franchise jugak. tapi mak tak berkenan sebab rumah banglo 2 tingkat. tangga ada ke pakai polished marble (ini ke right term - ala marble yg kilat-kilat tak de permukaan kasar tu) ni kalau kaki basah mau terus kebawah je tergelincir. Mak dah terbayang bayang darah yg memancut sebab edges tangga tu tajam. (uwaaa active imagination okay!!) dah la budak tu jalan kelong. letak la carpet ke apa ke..mende la. Definitely cha ya nun alif conquer. Ni lagi sengal sebab ada ke dia cakap kids tak leh bawak pork n meat aje. Abisnya ayam katok kalau anak aku telan apa citer??
Hmm..KEMAS berapa ringgit?
UNTUK MAKLUMAN: KAWASAN YG DISURVEY ADALAH TTDI - KEPONG - MANJARALA - SEGAMBUT . dekat ngan umah la wehhh
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Picture Perfect?
I saw this on the way to work this morning:
Cutsie lil' bundle of joy about Alesha's age (or smaller) and frame, in cute pink hooded sweat shirt, pink pant and stripes of red and pink socks, hugging dear Dad tighly, with face tucked under the Dad's chin and arms sneaking out under the Dad's armpits - grabbing at the Dad's back shoulder in 2 cute grips and 2 small legs circling the Dad's waist.
Picture perfect dont you think?
NO!! NOT WHEN SHE WAS ON A MOVING BIKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG. I really dont understand where the dad coming from, having the gall to carry her daugther that way. I mean, come on, i know you may not afford a car, but to carry her THAT WAY??
EEE...i am still having flashes of the scary image in my head.
Cutsie lil' bundle of joy about Alesha's age (or smaller) and frame, in cute pink hooded sweat shirt, pink pant and stripes of red and pink socks, hugging dear Dad tighly, with face tucked under the Dad's chin and arms sneaking out under the Dad's armpits - grabbing at the Dad's back shoulder in 2 cute grips and 2 small legs circling the Dad's waist.
Picture perfect dont you think?
NO!! NOT WHEN SHE WAS ON A MOVING BIKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG. I really dont understand where the dad coming from, having the gall to carry her daugther that way. I mean, come on, i know you may not afford a car, but to carry her THAT WAY??
EEE...i am still having flashes of the scary image in my head.
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