I READ YOU!!

Its seems like forever since my last post.phew...lotsa things had happened. Dont have the time to write them all.

But i feel like writing something down today. I have not been THAT busy. Yes..i have been busy but NOT that busy to stop visiting some of my favorite blogs. These people may not realise that im keeping track of the happenings in their lives more than my own. In fact, i have never met some of them and had not been more than an acquantance (did i get the spelling rite?) to them.

But then again, i read their posts like they are my best buddies. i think reading their posts mold me into a better person. Reading their posts make me realised i am just human - a working mom who wants only whats best for her family. NOT a superwoman whom i think i should be.

So to my cyber 'acquantances' out there...keep on writing. Now u know it makes a different to somebody's life out there - ME!!

Alesha is tickling my laughing bone.

This is what happened this morning -

Me : Sha, come la kiss mam..
Sha: Na nak (smiling sweetly and shaking her head)
Me : Sikit je...sayang mama sini (pointing to my cheek)
Sha: Sha na nak (Sha tak nak)
Me : Sha sayang papa tak?
Sha: Muahs (stand up walk to hubby and give him a kiss with that smacking sound and lie down again)
Me : haa..mama punya turn pulak.. Come sayang mama
Sha: Mama na nak...

This is what happened yesterday -

Pa : Sha sayang papa ke mama?
Sha: Mama muahss (did the flying kiss mouth smacking act)
Pa : Sha sayang papa kan?
Sha: Na nak. Mama (pointing at me)

Now should i smile or cry?

YEAR END INCOMING

Can u see the 2 lines there?

YES... it's positive. Come December 2007, we are going to have another baby on the roll.

Its really a pre-planned thingy. Lets not get into how the coercion part was involved in the making on #2. (i just read a blog on how awkward this girl was feeling whenever she hears couple telling they are trying = make love = have sex >> though it escapes me how the act of actually doing is ok and talking about it not ok *ponder*ponder*) But to simply put ..i dont want to make ppl reading this blog awkward in any sense.

Alrite...but i think how i plan for #2 should be recorded somewhere. At least i can recall the making of #2 when he (i hope #2 is a HE) all grown up and trying to act wise with me.

1. Keep track of your menstrual cycle. For at least 3 mos. Your 1st day of period and cycle etc etc (heavy/medium flows)
2. Keep track of your fertility chart
3. Keep track of your mating sessions

basically all these and with God's Blessing...u have lil one swimming in your belly.

Have been trying to get a 2007 baby since Alesha turned 1. Reason being im getting older and i like year end babies. So the new year will signifies new beginning with new family members. Some mumbo jumbo like that.

Being older means i have to carefully plan my 'productivity' output too. I dont have the time to re-procreate same output over and over again without variety. WAHHHH...now im sounding like a production machine. but u get my drift.

Now the stress is getting to know the gender of my incoming baby. Still a long way to go. About 35 weeks to be exact.

Which also means i have exactly 7 weeks left to start feeling miserable.

and another 24 weeks to start cursing my ever bloated tummy and forever cramped legs. Arrghh....why do i want another baby ?? - im asking myself now.

But what i cant hardly wait, is to see the baby clear eyes looking at me. Alesha was looking straight at me the moment the doc lifted her up to me. And the feeling was incredible. I will surfer 55 weeks of cramped legs just to experience that feeling again....

Gawd...the lil' one is still fighting for survival and i am now thinking 2009 would be a nice year for new addition in the family. SUCKER!!!

I AM PISSED

I had a big fight with dear hubby this morning. God..im pissed!!!

It begun last nite when he wanted me to help him with some printing thingy. Sure do...very please to help on 3 conditions...1. u start up the pc with the cable on.. 2. take care of Alesha (instead of glueing your eyes to Channel 81) 3. and make me a nice cup of Ice Milo - mind you..dear Hubby's drinks are to die for.

Anyway...Alesha was rather tired last nite and when to sleep early..Of course with moi clever manuvering technics - a bottle of milk and lights off will do the trick - Dear Hubby was still glued to the tv at this point.
So i said...
"im gonna bathe and pc must be ready by the time im done" - which was not coz it didn't matter coz he quickly ran to our pc room when he saw me out of the bathroom.

So there I was..in front of the tv, all freshen up and dead tired waiting for him to call me that i can start some printing work for me. The next thing i know, i was sleeping on the couch and he was doing some typing. Its already 11.00 p.m. now.

So i told him with a very dear smile on my face that i was sleepy and it is ok if i help him tomorrow.

And guess what?

He blew his top off and refused help of any kind. He said i never wanted to help him in the first place and i was forever finding excuses..

WHAT????

Somehow in the middle of all that..he seems to forgot that i got back from work at 7.30 at nite, been too tired to do anything, spend all my salaries on our family and in the same time trying to be a good wife..mother and his secretary without getting any appreciation and a single cent out of it!!!!

GAWD IM PISSED!!!

I dont deserve all this, not when im supporting the family, not when i try so hard to be strong for him when everything is against him. ITs not fair when u expect me to do anything while u spend your time at home doing nothing.

I thought everything was ok this morning. But to my suprise, apparently he has been carrying torch up his arse...which pisses me off even more...

GAWD...IM SO PISSED!!!!

Tag Game

I've been tagged. Deareast valli had finally 'tagged' me. Was browsing thru several sites and notices this 'tagged' thing going. Pretty sure i'll be next, just wondering who will finally 'tagged' me. So dear valli...here goes:

6 weird things about moi:-

1. i dont share pillows. If i need to share (cases like hotel etc etc), will cover the pillow with my very own kain batek. (i made exception to several occasions - depending on my mood that time)

2. i am penakut like the biggest chicken around - Refer Penakut to takut hantu only!! Haha..never seen one my entire life. Thank God for that!!! This would also include banning scary movies, sleeping alone in hotel and even being home alone (eventhough Alesha is around - she doesnt count as a human adult yet - mind you). Watched this scary movie once (thru blanket of fingers - and forced to watch it since was at in law house) - about ghost coming out from the air vent - caused me to be 'accompanied' everytime i when pee pee at the office. (office's toilet has air vent!!)

3. i am a perfectionist - my way. I blame it on my horoscope. I am a VIRGO(rian?).

4. i have short attention span - Dont give me MCQ - i will close my eyes and tick as i pleased. (Actually did this during PTD Examination - heheh...now u know why im in private sector instead)

5. i can be excruciatingly honest about my opinion to my dearest friends - some appreciate it and some may hate me for it.

6. i dont plan to marry - but did it anyway and now madly in love my kids (cross refer my previous post) and waiting to have more.

Rules: People who were tagged should write a blog post of 6 weird things about them and state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

Sorry dear valli..all friends i knew had been tagged. Had to end the tagging game here now.

I AM SUPERWOMAN - I AM

I have settled down at my new job.

Its a thrilling adventure trying to absorp the working atmosphere i have here. I always think i am easily adjusted to new environment. and yes, i think i am sailing well here.

But a thought bothered me so often the past 2 weeks since i was here.
Do i like this jet set life..or do i want to be a full time mom..


Bore bore bore....I was once read comments by some of well known party goers (bah..holywood stars!!) such as madonna and not to mention recently bald dearest Ms. Spears.

"MOTHERHOOD CHANGES ME!!

doink!! back then the only thing that crossed my mind was - DUH!!!of course...you have a human head coming thru your know what. Surely THAT will changed you (back then it didnt crossed my mind of C-SECT!!)

But true to myself...it changes me. It changed my perspective in life. I am torn between staying at the office until late at nites and later feeling so guilty having seen dear Alesha smiling ever so sweetly greeting me back home. Well..some might say 8.30 at nite is not THAT late. But please bear in mind...we had a taste of our routine evening walks...Good things in life are hard to miss.

I wonder if I will be as attached as I am now to my baby if I have more * ponder* *ponder*

Note to all: moi is trying to conceive now. BIG THREE O is catching up with me this September.

TIME OF THE YEAR...AGAIN

Its the time of the year again. Not that i cherished the moment when i opened the clear envelope. Neither did i jump with sheer joy of knowing whats inside the clear envelope. But a thought kept me smiling as i tore the envelope open.

Yes..i am those unlucky few who does not have to pay my income tax!!! Rejoice! Rejoice!

Some may say my minuscule annual salary is not a thing to brag about. Not when the toll charges, petrol prices etc etc kept increasing. Life is hard. FULLSTOP.

But i'd be sure as h*ll not be smiling if i was forced to willingly 'contribute' part (though a very small percentage of it) to the government.

NOTE TO ALL: i am a good citizen. At times, i can even be a patriot. I disclose my income, i vote and i even pay my summons - but i draw the line in actually paying for my income tax.

Mind you, i didn't fake my income disclosures. I simply escape it. (on second thought - maybe i should be asking for more raise!!)

How to escape it you asked? Bah! So many rich men (and women) i mean millions of $ in Swiss Account escaped paying tax. Dont asked me how they did it - i don't have an account in Swiss Bank.

But if u asked me HOW I escape paying tax? The answer is simple. I pay my zakat.

I guess, with a smile on my face as i wrote down the amount of income tax payable (government owe me money now - :) ) i should be grateful for being a Malaysian. Despite the ever oppressing price increased of almost all things - they pay heed to requirement to pay zakat.

See - i told you i can be a PATRIOT at times...